I rarely make a rant post unless I have reached my limit and don't know where else to turn to. For those who don't know, me and my friends started an entertainment thingy on AFF called Luminous Music Entertainment, and a lot of amazing collabs were produced from it. However, lately I feel more burdened with the responsibilities, and the feedback or attitude towards the said collab does not cover up how disappointed and tired I've felt managing a collab.

If you think managing a collab is easy, let me tell you the process. First you choose a song, then color code it which you can either take from an online website. But if you're a perfectionist like me, you listen at least 10 times to make sure the parts are assigned to the right person, identify the high harmonies and the low harmonies, then listen to spot the background vocals, and don't forget the adlibs as a cherry on top. Then when people audition, you gotta listen to their clips at least 5 times per person to choose the perfect person for it. When the cast is set, you give a deadline for them to record the clips, which 90% of the time gets delayed because there is always some people who are late. The mixing itself can also take a minimum of 10 hours.

Now what gets me really upset is not only how little love it receives. For those people who already showed love by listening, liking, and commenting on it, I do thank you from the bottom of my heart. And I can even name those people for always diligently commenting, especially if it's not even their collab.

The thing that gets me so burned is the process itself and how I am becoming a human agenda and alarm clock for people. There are usually a lot of people who still owe me parts for a collab, and when they're late they say it's because they're busy. (At least you have the consciousness to update me, some people just leave irresponsibly without a word and puts the entire thing on hold). I understand if you're busy, because everyone is busy aside from whatever is going on at AFF. BUTTTTTTT then I see how they are uploading personal covers on SoundCloud.. I see how they're saying they're having fun going out.. Basically, I see them neglecting their responsibilities, and I'm here just like "Uuhm.. Hello?? We got like 8 other people waiting for your part???"

I know that people have different priorities, and obviously meeting a deadline is not on the top of people's to-do-list as they shrug it away like a student skipping a class. This is even more hurtful for me because I love punctuality and reaaally reaaaally can't stand tardiness. I am sure people are tired of me nagging at them to hand in their parts as tired as I am to be their constant reminder. We all have different expectations, and perhaps it was wrong for me to have such high expectation of a professional behavior, or at least some consciousness towards fellow collabers and the person putting in so much effort into opening the collabs.

Therefore, my heart is 90% set on just quitting this entire thing. LME will still continue with the other CEO opening collabs, and I shall continue making personal covers. Because I do love singing, and at least the only person I will have to wait for is myself. The only exception I make are for Infinite songs, because my love for Infinite exceeds the disappointment and I am willing to comply with these whole process and coping with possible sadness again for Infinite's sake XD 

To those who have been very responsible so far with their clips, I thank you sincerely for being my joy throughout this collabing journey. We had a lot of fun.. And we shall see if we will continue to have fun, or whether I call it quits~ That's it for my long rant. If you've read this far, congrats! You get an exclusive look into my real inner thoughts for a limited time only, cause I might end up deleting this again.. I feel weird ranting online XD

So let's take a trip down memory lane and see all the wonderful collabs we've produced: CLICK HERE