Chapter 4- Confessions

Tomorrow May Not Exist

[A/N: Hi everyone!! I hope you are all enjoying the story so far ^^ this chaper may be a bit confusing so i just wanted to explain that this: '--' means the scene is switiching from one character to another, so I hope you don't get confused ^__^]

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"He has such a beautiful smile doesn't he?" Hanbin's mother asked as she smiled down onto the picture she was holding

"Whose?" Hanbin replied

"Yunhyeong, who else?"

"Oh, you're looking at the wedding photographs" Hanbin smiled "My suit was so on point that day. Where did you find these photos?" he continued

"I found them in your file. I spoke to Yunhyeong this morning. He said you're meeting him today?" his mother asked

"...Yes. Actually, I was just about to leave-"

"Should I come with you?" she interrupted

"Mom, what will you do there? And anyway, I want to speak to Yunhyeong alone..." Hanbin trailed off as he noticed the worried look on his mothers face

"Are you not scared?" she asked

"...Of course not" Hanbin warily smiled. "You worry unnecessarily. There's nothing to worry about, now give me a hug. Everything will be alright" Hanbin promised. After he gave his mother a hug, he left the house and went on his journey to the city centre, to meet Yunhyeong.

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"Hey...what happened?" Hanbin asked. "Why are you sitting so quietly? Someone died?"

"Shut up Hanbin. Listen. I need some more time" Yunhyeong replied

"No. You can't have more time, the restaurant's about to close, you have to order now" Hanbin joked

"I'm not talking about the restaurant" Yunhyeong whined

"I'm joking Yunhyeong!" Hanbin laughed

"It's not the time to joke. It's a serious problem. I had told you before you came to Seoul..."

"What are you trying to say? I shouldn't have come to Seoul?" Hanbin interrupted

"When did I say that??" Yunhyeong huffed

"Isn't that what you're saying? I shouldn't have come here? You told me to come" Hanbin whined

"I give up Hanbin, you aren't being serious. You don't understand! I need time. Yours and mine" Yunhyeong stated

"Ok ok ok, no more jokes. I understand Yunhyeong. I came to Seoul just because of you. For you. Now, I'll do whatever you ask me to. And as for time...every moment I have is yours" Hanbin said softly

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"What's happening? Instead of all black, you're wearing colors. You are looking so good.." Jiwon said. Jinhwan started giggling. "You're even laughing! I mean, where's Jinhwan gone?" Jiwon joked.

"Shut up" Jinhwan joked. "I'm always happy when I'm with you"

"Aw, how sweet" Jiwon grinned

"Jiwon, can I ask you something?" Jinhwan hesitated

"Why even bother asking? My answer is yes.." Jiwon mumbled

"What?" Jinhwan squinted

"Nothing. Ask away" he smiled

"Ok. Has this ever happened to you? Initially you hate someone...and then suddenly you start to like that someone a little...and then a lot. And then..." Jinhwan trailed off

"Then?" Jiwon smiled

"Then...you know" Jinhwan blushed

"Why are you asking me all of this?" Jiwon asked

"Um...no reason"

"No reason?"

"Yes" Jinhwan smiled. "No reason"

"Jinhwan, come on"

"I'm going" Jinhwan smiled

"No, tell meeee" Jiwon whined

"Jiwon, I'm going. Bye" Jinhwan giggled as he walked away. Jiwon sighed. "At least hear my answer..."

Something was happening. Something was definitely happening. Love. In love, life appears beautiful. Every dream appears to be attainable. You find new destinations. Even the wind changes it's course. Eyes start to notice colors. Every moment, every second, always, one name is always on the lips. Even though love is a beautiful thing, it's also crazy, and painful.

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Jinhwan decided to go and visit Taehyun at his house, as it had been a few days since they had last spoke and they could not tolerate being away from each other for so long.

"Taehyun, you will never believe what I'm going to tell you" Jinhwan squealed

"I have something to tell you too! Ok let's tell each other at the same time" Taehyun grinned  "1...2...3..."

"I love Mino" Taehyun smiled

"I love Hanbin" Jinhwan blushed

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Hanbin was taking a walk with Yunhyeong, when the ringing of his phone suddenly interrupted the calm air.

"HELLo??" Hanbin answered

"HANBIN I NEED TO TELL YOU SOMETHING" Jiwon yelled on the other line

"Why are you yelling?? Ok ok tell me what it is"

"I...think I love Jinhwan" Jiwon stated

"What??" Hanbin said

"Are you deaf? I said I love Jinhwan" Jiwon exclaimed

"You...where are you?" Hanbin asked

"I'm at home" Jiwon sighed

"Okay, I'll be there as soon as I can" Hanbin quickly put the phone down. "Yunhyeong, I have to go" Hanbin explained. "Where?" Yunhyeong asked.

"Something important has come up.."

"What can be more important than this?" Yunhyeong huffed

"I'll tell you later. I'm sorry!"

"Hanbin...."

"I'm sorry. I love you!!" Hanbin called out as he ran off

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"I love him. Taehyun... I love him! I never thought this would happen to me. That too, with Hanbin, y'know? Initially, everything about him used to drive me mad. But now, I love those things. I think of him day and night. It feels as if...he's present with me all the time...-"

Taehyun squealed. "Hey Jinhwan!!"

"Oh my God, do you think I've lost it?"

"No!!! You haven't lost it!! This is love! Oh my god, I'm so excited, you're in love and so am I!" Taehyun squealed

"I know!!" Jinhwan squealed. "But what should I do now?"

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"What do you mean what should you do?" Hanbin quizzed. "Go and tell him! That's it!!"

"It's not that easy Hanbin. I mean, I don't know what he feels for me" Jiwon whined

"How would you know unless you ask him?? Come on. Go and tell him. Be a MAN!!!" Hanbin exclaimed as he punched Jiwon in the stomach, causing Jiwon to fall to the floor in pain

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"You should tell him Jinhwan. Even I'm going to confess my love for Mino today. You should too. Come onnnnnn do it!! Here, ring him!!" Taehyun shoved Jinhwans phone into his hand. Jinhwan quickly heistated before dialling a number

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The phone rang quickly, and Hanbin almost had a heart attack.

"Hello?" Jiwon answered

"Hi Jiwon..." Jinhwan replied.

Taehyun quickly slapped Jinhwan around the arm. "Why did you call Jiwon????" he complained. On the other end, Hanbin was slapping Jiwon around the arm. "You should have called him first, you weakling" Hanbin whined

"Uhhhhhhh, Jiwon I want to ask you something, and tell you something too" Jinhwan hesitated

"Oh wow, even I want to ask you something" Jiwon gushed

"Oh tell me"

"No, not over the phone....umm.. meet me at The Palm restaurant?? Around 4pm?" Jiwon asked

"Cool"

"Ok, great!! Bye, see you there" Jiwon exclaimed, barely being able to contain his excitement. He put the phone down and immediately hugged Hanbin. "Yes!! Wow. I'm going to confess my love to him" Jiwon cried. "Oh man, I love you Hanbin" He said as he practically strangled Hanbin with the tightest hug ever. "I love you too man" Hanbin cried.

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Jinhwan entered the restaurant, wearing a new suit and a huge smile on his face "Oh, he's here! Quick, start!" Jiwon commanded the violinists.

"Hi!!" Jinhwan greeted"

"Hi..." Jiwon shyly replied

"Nice clothes" Jinhwan smiled

"Nice suit" Jiwon replied

"Nice place"

"Ok stop now Jinhwan"

The moment was silent and awkward as they both smiled at each other.

"So....what did you need to tell me?" Jiwon asked

"I...I love Hanbin!" Jinhwan said excitedly


Jiwon froze. His heart immediately shattered, his whole world ended right in front of his eyes, but he couldn't show Jinhwan any sign of his pain.. "..W-WOW!! You...love...Hanbin. You love Hanbin. Oh God, you love Hanbin..." Jiwon's voice trailed off "Yes...yes I knew it! I knew you were hiding something from me....you are such a bad friend" Jiwon continued. Jinhwan giggled. "I knew, I knew you would be shocked with the news!!" Jinhwan exclaimed. "Shocked?!?!?! Hahaha...I can't even explain how shocked I am" Jiwon replied.

"Oh my God Jiwon, I'm really nervous. Do you think he loves me?" Jinhwan asked

"Only somebody insane won't love you Jinhwan..." Jiwon softly replied

"Come on Jiwon, let's be serious...um...do you think I should tell him?"

"No" Jiwon mumbled

"What??"

"I said go! Please go. Right now. Of course!" Jiwon cried excitedly

"Ok!! Here I go!"

"Jinhwan, when you go..give him these flowers" Jiwon said, as he bought out a bouquet from under the table.

"Oh Jiwon, these are so beautiful. You're so cute!! I love you man Bye!" On that note, Jinhwan quickly ran out of the restaurant.

"I love you too..." Jiwon sighed

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"Mom, I'm home!" Hanbin yelled out. He walked into the living room and checked the phone for messages. "1 new message? Who's this? Let me see" Hanbin said as he pressed play.

"Hey Hanbin...It's Jiwon..."

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Meanwhile, Jinhwan was skipping in the roads, smiling at strangers, and literally running 100mph to get to Hanbin's house. It started pouring it down with rain, but Jinhwan couldn't care less. Nothing could upset him today. He finally arrived at Hanbin's house, and spent a good few minutes calming his nerves outside the door. He took a big breath, and then knocked. Hanbin poked his head around the door only to find a drenched Jinhwan standing there. "Hi" Jinhwan smiled. "Oh, no thanks, we don't want to buy anything" Hanbin joked as he quickly shut the door. "Just kidding!" Hanbin smiled as he re-opened the door.

"Come in, come on in Jin, oh are these flowers for me? Thank you.." Hanbin smiled as he reached for them

"No, not now" Jinhwan said quickly

"Oh later? Ok. It's good that you came, I just made some tea. Will you have some? Oh God, look at your hair! Let me dry it, come here" Hanbin instructed

"No no it's ok!"

"Alright then, don't blame me if you catch a cold. Sit down. Sit sit sit" Hanbin insisted "So tell me, would you like anything to eat?"

"Oh, no thank you" Jinhwan replied

"Good, there's nothing to eat at home anyway" Hanbin laughed "New suit??"

"Thank you, I just bought it today...do you like it?" Jinhwan hesitated

"I hate it. Why did you buy it?" Hanbin asked. Jinhwan laughed awkwardly. He was so nervous, and Hanbin definitely was NOT helping the situation.

"Oh look...it's raining outside" Jinhwan stammered

"And we are inside" Hanbin replied

"I know" Jinhwan mumbled

"Even I know it's raining outside Jinhwan, I can see it" Hanbin laughed

"Hanbin, I....I...um I......I...-" Jinhwan stammered

"What are you stammering for? Come on, speak up!"

"Um..I'm going" Jinhwan said as he quickly stood up

"No no no no!! I'm joking! I'm sorry, it's raining outside, and your suit is really nice" Hanbin said. Jinhwan smiled. Why did he feel so good when Hanbin said it?

"Come on, lets talk. Where were we? I..." Hanbin said. Jinhwan suddenly noticed a photo on the table, of two guys, with their arms around each other in suits. Hanbin was one of them. "Who is this?" Jinhwan asked. "Who?" Hanbin replied. Jinhwan leaned forward and picked the photo up. "Oh this?? That's me" Hanbin smiled.

"Even I know that. But who is this?" Jinhwan asked

"That's Yunhyeong" Hanbin stated

"Yunhyeong?" Jinhwan quizzed

"Mmhmm. Yunhyeong.." Hanbin hesitated "...my husband" he continued

Jinhwan's heart suddenly stopped. He turned to look at Hanbin, who was smiling down at the photo. Jinhwan felt like he had just been stabbed. Hanbin's words were echoing in his head. His eyes suddenly filled to the brim with tears.

"He's the reason why we moved to Seoul. Oh yes, I never told you, I'm such an idiot. I never shut up talking, but I never mention the things that matter. Me and Yunhyeong got married two years ago. Marriage is ok, but after that its the usual arguments every couple has. One day, I went overboard, you know how I am, I can be a bit rude" Hanbin giggled, whilst Jinhwan was silently crying and listening.

"He got angry, left home and came to Seoul. His parents live here, so we followed him here. To take our Yunhyeong back home. But he is still angry with me, he says he needs more time. Yeah yeah yeah, but I know everything will be ok. You know how it goes. Anyway look at the picture, isn't he handsome?"

"Y-yes" Jinhwan sniffled

"Oh God, why are you crying? It's an emotional story, but it's not THAT emotional. Don't worry, everything will be ok" Hanbin said as he wiped Jinhwan's tears

"Can I go?" Jinhwan asked

"Please stay Yunhyeong... I mean Jinhwan. Ha see? I'm feeling sad..." Hanbin replied

"Me too. I'm going" Jinhwan whispered softly

"Hey wait! The flowers?" Hanbin asked

"They aren't for you" Jinhwan stammered. He looked up and saw Hanbin's mother standing there. "They are for your mother" Jinhwan sniffled as he walked over to her.

"If it weren't for you, I never would have met Hanbin...Thank you" Jinhwan whispered. He handed over the flowers, and gave her a quick hug, before turning to leave.

"Won't you wait a bit longer?" she asked

"No Mrs Kim, it's ok" Jinhwan cried

"It's raining outside, atleast take an umbrella" Hanbin interrupted

"Bye Hanbin"

"..Bye Jinhwan" Hanbin waved

Jinhwan quickly walked out of the house. As soon as the door closed, he broke into tears. He broke down completely. There was nothing for him anymore. Jinhwan started wailing. He was alone once again. He had always been alone.

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"You love him don't you?" Hanbin's mother asked

"No mom, it's not like that. I don't love Jinhwan" Hanbin replied

"When did I say Jinhwan?"

"I don't love him" Hanbin snapped

"I'm your mother...you can't lie to me"

"So what do you want me to do?" Hanbin cried. His eyes started filling with tears, and in no time they were streaming down his face.

"What do you want me to do mom? Tell him the truth? If you can't hear the truth in spite of knowing everything then...then how can Jinhwan bear it? What should I do mom? What should I say? How should I say that for the first time...this heart has felt for someone? For the first time, this heart is beating for someone...for the first time, this heart has loved someone" Hanbin sobbed. "How do I tell Jinhwan that...that the love in my heart has a lot of strength...but...but the heart itself is very weak. How do I give him my weak heart mom? How do I tell him that...the guy in the photo isn't my husband. He's my friend....my doctor, who's trying his best day and night..to keep me alive for a few more days?" Hanbin fell down onto his knees, with tears streaming from his eyes.

"I'm....I'm dying, mom" Hanbin wailed

"That's not true..." Hanbin's mom sobbed. "That's not true. Yunhyeong said that the transplant is possible. After that, everything will be alright. Everything. Everything...will be ok" she cried. Hanbin got up and slowly walked to his sobbing mother. He put his hands around her face, and slowly wiped her eyes. "I'm your son, mom. You can't lie to me" Hanbin sobbed. At that moment, Hanbin and his mother broke down crying together.

"No mom, no" Hanbin whispered softly. "What will I do if you become so weak? Please mom." Hanbin cried

"I'll hide my tears and pain...but will you be able to hide your love?" she asked

"It's not my love anymore. It's someone else's. And I have to help it reach it's destination. That's my only dream now. And this is the least that God could do for me. He has to"

So many hearts got broken tonight. Why was the rain falling harder than ever today? Jiwon got his heart broken. Jinhwan got his heart broken. And as for Hanbin...his heart was already broken to begin with.
 

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Lynz0611
#1
Chapter 8: This story reminds me of a bollywood movie "kal ho naa ho" that I watched years back. Have you seen it?
Hanbin is going to die. Oh my binhwan feels TT^TT
jk_double #2
Chapter 4: Oh god... Why everything has to be like this...
I laughing my off in the first 3 chapter and then I feeling hurt immediately when i finished reading chapter 4.
Pls don't let Hanbin die author-nim TT TT
Eventhough I ship bobhwan very hard but binhwan gave me the feeling urghh... I don't know... Just make a happy ending for all ok?
darkdu
#3
What will happen to Jinhwan's mom? Im so curious.
Little hurt from last chap now increas. So sad to see Hanbin "reads" the journal.
The three have too much pain.
darkdu
#4
Chapter 6: Long time no see. This chap is so funny. But still a little hurt.
soulmint #5
this is soo good, at first i'm laughing like crazy, and i felt hurt in my heart.
i hope you updating fastly, but just take a time, looks like you kinda rushing in chapter 4 or 5.
i hope it will be end up with binhwan by the way.
hwaiting ^^
hanjinjin #6
Chapter 5: I really really want to smack hanbin's head asdfghjkl
darkdu
#7
Chapter 5: LOL, Jonghyuk, Jonghyun,... bad boy LOL
vhelz_roxanne
#8
Chapter 4: My heart is broken and I'm currently having a mental breakdown q.q please dont kill hanbin q.q and omg plot twist everywhere-
please update soon author-nim ♡
wasure #9
Chapter 4: ;___________________________________________;