A/N: I've been trying to post for two days now but AFF wasn't letting me properly edit until today. I swear it's driving me nuts!!! I almost changed a big piece of this chapter, but I decided to keep it like this and add on to the next chapter. I hope this update isn't too short. Well, on different screens it looks...different? LOL anyways, here you go!!!!!!

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Nobody's POV

Jinki remained seated on the couch for a while after Kyungmi left. He was in shock. Taemin likes me? He couldn't believe half of the words she had said. he had never thought Taemin had feelings for him too. Or was it obvious to everyone but him? He couldn't comprehend everything that had happened. Taemin was upset. He had been cold to Jinki ever since he met Kyungmi. He had avoided much conversation, and kept to himself. He had fled the moment Kyungmi had been referred to as his girlfriend. I could be reading too much into this, right? Jinki wasn't one to hesitate too much but he was stumped. Taemin had every right to be upset. His best friend had hidden a big part of his past from him. It had just never come up in conversation. Everyone else in SHINee had always talked about their past and never bothered to ask Jinki. 

But as a best friend, he should have at least told Taemin a bit about Kyungmi. 

He was curled up on the couch and watched as Jonghyun and Minho picked up after everyone. He felt guilty for not helping, but he was too emotionally exhausted to even get up. It wasn't until Key approached him that he budged. 

"Jinki, maybe you should talk to him, he isn't listening to anyone."

His head snapped up so fast it gave him a headache. "Uh...sure, I'll go talk to him. Is he still locked up in his room?"

"Neh, and he is prepared to attack," Key sighed and started helping Jonghyun with the dishes. "And Jinki??"

"Neh?"
"Are you okay?"

"N-neh, why do you ask?" Jink rubbed his eyes and mustered up all of his energy and did his best to smile. What they don't know won't hurt them.

"You just look really worn out, but if you think you're fine, just take care." Key rolled his eyes and smacked the Dino the moment he tried to escape. "If you try to leave me with your dirty dishes, I will castrate you in your sleep." "Joke's on you, I hardly sleep." Jonghyun laughed and ran away to the living room. "Aish, this midget...." 

Jinki took careful steps towards Taemin's room. He had to set the record straight and confess to Teamin. Maybe it would solve everything and allow him to make it up to Taemin. He hated himself for being the reason Taemin was crying and rebelling against the other members. It took him another moment before he could knock on the door. There was some shuffling behind the door immediatly. "Key-hyung, I told you to go away. I want to stay here." Jinki couldn't help but chuckle at Taemin's stubborness. "Can I come in?" The door opened suddenly and Taemin's flushed face met him. "H-hyung...." Jinki didn't hesitate to walk in before Taemin refused. 

"Taemin, I... I'm worried about you. Are y-"

"I-I'm fine h-hyung. I just have a lot of work to do. I should have said bye to sunbaenim better. I'll apologize when I see her agian." Taemin rambled and quickly made his way away from Jinki. He was nervous for being found out. Jinki could read him like a book. He sometimes really hated that about their relatinship. "S-she's your best friend and I should treat your best friend better." There was a pang of pain in his chest, was this admitting defeat? He still wanted to confess.

"Taemin, if anyone is my best friend, it is you." Jinki followed after him and nudged his arm. "If I was your best friend I would know everything about you, but I don't even know about her." Taemin sighed and slowly turned to face him. "I know I screwed up big time. You should be pushing me out of your room right now, but you're not. You've really matured a lot Taemin-ah. Maybe more than me." Jinki laughed bitterly, "I'll tell you everything and anything you want, hm? Why don't we go out? Get some food? or coffe?" 

"No."

"Huh?"

"No, thank you hyung. I have work to do, and I'm a bit busy." Tamin turned away again, scrambling for his things. "What about later then?" Jinki looked at him hopefully. "I'm going out with Kai later. I promised him earlier today." His hyung nodded and turned away. "I'll wait for you then. Let me know when you want to talk." He threw a smile back at Taemin before exiting the room. Taemin waited until he heard Jinki walking away again before bursting out in tears again. 

"You didn't notice...." He closed his laptop and threw himself onto the bed.
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Everyone in SHINee had noticed tension growing in the dorm. Jinki was going out more often and Taemin would often land on the couch and sulk while watching cartoons. They stopped talking as much at breakfast, and they barely communicated during schedules. Taemin was immersed in his phone, never leaving it out of his sight and it was beginning to bother everyone else. To everyone it seemed like a phase, something that would surely  pass after the leader and maknae made up. But then Jinki started /drinking/. 
He would buy beers or soju and sit by himself in the dinning room, or in his bedroom, drinking on his own. He would say he didn't have any good reason, other than he was bored. He constantly checked on Taemin, but it tore him apart that the younger never seemed to look for him. Yet, he never really approached maknae when drunk. Until now. 

Jinki had decided to sit down and watch movies and drink. He had gotten lonely in his room and in the spur of the moment had decided that since the room had more windows than his own, it'd offer more fresh air. Except he forgot to actually open a window, so he mellowed by himself in his drunken state. He was a mess, hair sloppily adorned the sides of his face, loose t-shirt pulling down to reveal his collarbones, and his pajama pants were barely pulled correctly around his waist. He didn't care though because everyone seemed to not mind him in his blankety mess. That is, until a very sleepy and confused Taemin walked up to him. He had been woken up by the loud sounds of whatever action movie Jinki had just decided to play. The poor maknae had thought someone had left the tv on and had decided to turn it off (Jonghyun was too busy composing some song about how being short was ok). He never thought he would run into their drunken leader. 

"Hyung??" Taemin waved his hand in front of Jinki's face. "A-are you o-okay?" He hadn't ever really seen his hyung this drunk before and the thought scared him. 

"T-taemin?" He wiped his mouth with his sleeve and smiled. "You came to join me?" He offered a beer over to the stunned boy. 

"I-I just thought the tv had been left on. W-we need to sleep for o-our schedules t-tomorrow." Taemin pushed the beer away slightly. He was stunned by how Jinki looked and acted. 

"Here, sit down and watch something with me." He patted a place next to him. Jinki was too far gone to know what he was doing. Taemin's eyes followed as Jinki's shirt fell off his shoulder some. A thick blush spread across his cheeks. 

"H-hyung we need to go to bed. It's really late." Taemin took the beers from Jinki. "I'll help you."

Jinki just stared at Taemin. Tears began to swell up in his eyes so suddenly that Taemin becan to panic even more. "Taeminnie, why won't you hang out with me any more? Do you not like me?" He touched Taemin's face. "Where do you go off to nowadays? I miss you." Taemin moved away slowly and shook his head. 

"Hyung, we have to-"

"Please listen to me Taemin! Why do you run away?" He bagan to sobber up a little, grabbing Taemin by his shirt. "I just want to talk like we used to. You are my best friend."

"I-I've been hanging out with Kai and EXO lately. K-kai and I are really good friends now," Taemin squirmed and tried to loosen his hyung's hold. "We can talk later hyung. You need to rest now." It broke his heart to be so cold towards Jinki, but he didn't know what to do. The elder had never acted so weirdly. He turned away to turn off the movie and by the time he turned to Jinki, he was fast asleep, hair falling over his eyes. "I miss you too hyung. I.... I love you so much. Please take care of yourself." Taemin laid his hyung down on the couch and covered him up. 

That night Taemin couldn't sleep. All he could think of was Jinki and his change in attitude. The leader had been a little more sensitive and had started to hide more of himself. It was starting to worry everyone. He tossed and turned for hours. It didn't help that Jonghyun kept typing away on his computer. What was he doing anyways? 

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Taemin's POV

I was woken up the next morning by a very annoying puppy pulling my sheets off. He kept on whinning about being late and having enough time for breakfast. 

I rolled off of bed and rubbed my eyes open. All the memories of last night came flooding in. I couldn't believe I had seen Jinki drunk. I wondered if he was okay. Maybe I should have stayed with him and made sure he didn't get sick. I should have waited to see if he had really fallen asleep. maybe I should have taken him to his room. The guilt was overwhelming. And then his words last night kept haunting me. He misses me. Shouldn't that make me happy? But Kyungmi felt like she was in the way. I need to find out more about her before I make a move. If she is someone very dear to my hyung's heart I shouldn't come in between them. If she was someone who would purposely tear us apart I don't know what I would do. 

Getting ready went by fast as my thoughts kep swirling around my head. I couldn't help but start wondering where my hyung could be at this very moment. Jonghyun finally left to go help set up breakfast and in my hurry I bumped into something as soon as I stepped out. I stumbled back and fell back. 

"Taemin?" Jinki made sure to pull me gack up quickly. My head was spinning as I looked back up at him. 

"N-neh? H-how are you feeling hyung?" I looked him up and down, checking to see if anything else had happened after I had left. 

"I'm feeling okay, I think I let myself go a bit last night. Thank you for worrying about me Taem. It means a lot," Jinki smiled and took a step closer to me. "All I remember is you telling me to go to bed, and I woke up tucked in. I hope I didn't do anything emberrassing, I'm really sorry you had to see me like that." He pulled me into a hug and ruffled my hair before heading towards the dinning room. 
I stood in shock as I watched him move away. The hug filled me up with warmth and gave me hope that maybe Jinki and I could go back to where we were. I missed my silly hyung. 
All throughout breakfast everything went smoothly. We started talking again, and the tension almost completely disappeared. I finally talked to my hyung with ease and warmed up to him. The day was full of promises and new hope. The schedules weren't any different, they went smoothly and hyung wasn't as cold anymore. 
Even during our appearence on a radio show he reserved the seat right next to him for me, and my hand didn't hesitate to land back on his thigh like it used to. I was more relax than I had been because I finally felt the security he gave me. We sang, played around and answered a few questions. Luckily this time around our love lives had been left out of the questionaire and we were able to get through the show without any problems. Despite Jinki still being slightly hung over he was looking radient and happy. It was so contagious that Key kept telling us to "shut up back there or I will tape your mouths shut," from all of our giggling. 
The most shocking part to all of us was when hyung tried even harder during our dance practice. He hardly ever tripped and when he did, he kept on going. It was like something had cracked inside him and today he wanted to do his best for us. I had never seen hyung like this and it made me yearn for him even more.
Once we decided to take a break he pulled me to the side and tugged on my sleeve. "How did I do, Taeminnie?" His smile was just to much.
"You were perfect hyung! Daebak!" I pulled him in for a hug, not caring how sweaty either of us were. I was really proud of him. 
Out of excitement Jinki grabbed my face. "Thank you Taem, that means a lot to me. I'll be working harder now." Then he pulled me close and placed a kiss to my lips. A kiss? He quickly let me go but I just stood there in shock, the feeling of his lips still on mine. He went around and performed his sangtae dance, acting as if nothing had happened.