"I was just thinking… I never told you how much you mean to me. Not even as a friend. And trust me when I say, that you are my everything, and my life would be nothing without you. I didn't want to lose you either. I have been in love with you since, well forever but just like you said, I didn't want to ruin what we had. I'm sorry I never had the courage to hold you until now. But I realize that was probably my biggest mistake. I love you, Bom." he whispered

"I love you too," she answered back.

"One more thing…" I said, removing hair out of her eyes

"Yes?" he said smiling

"I just want to let you know: you are gorgeous" she giggled.

"Look who's talking…" he murmured

Bom blushed as Seunghyun cupped her face in his hands and said "Don't deny it" before giving her a kiss on the forehead. She tried to relax but but wasn't possible though she remained calm and willing. Delicately as he could he slid one of his hands behind Bom's neck to pull her close to him tasting her precious lips. His kiss deepened making Bom lose her breath.

His loose hand slid under her the thin shirt she wore as a nightgown. His kiss deepened and she found herself short of breath, yet he refused to pull away. A second hand slid under her gown, rubbing back and fourth across the soft cotton that separated his fingers from her mound. At his touch, a soft sounding grunt escaped and together they made love for the first time.

Seunghyun paused for a moment looking into her eyes "Bom, will you marry me?"

She wide smile had given him his answer. "Yes."

Although the words may change slightly over time and the memory of all the little details may fade, you’ll never forget how excited and happy you felt that day! In the midst of planning your wedding, you may have moments where you stop and ask yourself,

“Why a wedding? Why are we making such a big deal of this one day?”

Well to Bom and I it meant the world.

After years of being a dummy and finally figuring out my true feelings, I proposed wanting to do nothing more then give her endless experiences together. Unfortunately with the news that Bom gave me we had to wait. She had been battling cancer for the past year now and we stayed focused on his health first, expecting to plan when it was all over. After three different intensive chemotherapies, a major surgery, and lots of sleepless nights in the hospital. We discovered a small little miracle growing inside.

I still remember the doctor pulling me aside and giving me the news. The happy smiles I recieved, the tears that fell as I cried tears of joy. The fear that came with the new discovery and the zillion questions that go through your head. Especially when you still a baby yourself. Even though your happy doubts about whether or not you'll be any good at being a parent. And of course good news is usually accompanied by bad news, and the bad news left me completely devasted.

If she chose to give birth the chances of her survival was slim to none. How could I make a decision like that? My choice was to either abort the new living human being we created with love, just to sacrifice the love of my life. Somehow I felt unjustified and bitter. In the end I let Bom make the decision. I knew she wouldn't heave the heart to kill our child and I had to accept the fact that fate was not in my hands and just pray for a happy outcome.

Treatment was discontinued after that. We were told there was nothing else to do but treasure the rest of the months he had left. The one thing that remained important to us was to get married, so we set a date for two months out and began dreaming up our wedding.

Not long after, Bom's health took a turn for the worse we could do nothing but push up the date of the wedding.

With a week notice and the help of Siwon dear and family, we were able to do the thing that mattered the most to us: we got married. As emotional and difficult as parts of the day were, it was the most special day of our lives and of our relationship together.

I really wanted a chalkboard incorporated in some how. We decided to put one above the fireplace, which was the backdrop of the ceremony as a way for everyone to express themselves. I came up with the idea as I remembered how my little village told me stories about my mother when she was down and I wanted people to be able to express what Bom meant to them.

“You will not believe how glad I am to have met you.” It was definitely my favorite piece, and I even used the quote as the basis of my vows.

Our wedding took place in the restaurant that Siwon's family owned. His family became miracle worker's. We set the date on a Thursday and we were married just three days later on Sunday. Without them I don't think any of it would have been made possible. Siwon and I helped with everything and they let us do anything we wanted. I’ll never forget what she said to me the morning after the wedding when I came to retrieve our stuff. I kept thanking her and thanking her and she said to me

“The two of you have been through so much this year, I just wanted to be able to say yes to anything you wanted.”

I always knew Siwon was Mr. Perfect but I never knew he was an angel. His whole family became angels that week.

One of Bommies passions was food and cooking, and his said she could make anything we liked, so we decided on the menu ourselves, which was one of the few things Bom was able to help with and he really enjoyed doing so. With some of Siwon's mother's suggestions, mixed in with some meaningful meals we’d shared through our relationship, we came up with a pretty awesome menu, even if most of the dishes seemed to mostly involve corn and watermelon.

Grievously Bom didn't make it through the night, her body was to weak and frail to survive. She didn't even have any strength left to hold her when I showed her our little girl.

"So what should we name her?" I asked.

"Ga-Eul." translation fall.

I obviously couldn't say no and besides that it was fitting. It was the beginning of fall, I met Bom in the fall, we played together in the fall, and we fell in love in the fall and in the end I lost Bom in the fall. So that was that September 3rd Ga Eul Choi was born and September 3rd was the passing of Park Bom.

For the longest time I used to awake in the quiet darkness. I could feel her ghostly touch linger on my cheek. I imaged her standing before smiling , her chocolate eye's piercing into my soul. I held her gaze for what seemed like eternity. 

"I've missed you." I whispered into the air.

I still remember the emptiness I felt waking up alone. Her presence still lingered in the back of his mind. Barely a day ever passed that wouldn't make me think of her in some way.

Even now standing in the isolated woods in front of the pond we spent playing in reminded me of her. Ever where I looked there was some kind of memory of her here. I could still here her voice against the blowing wind. Feel her presence as I stood by the lake. I could see her smile if I closed my eyes. Years later my love for her still burns like a fire, in my deepest self.

Now you're all probably wondering why on earth did I make this huge ordeal about finding her to my mother? The answer to that is simple my mother had grown alzeimers and throughout the years she stopped remembering certain things. At first it was simple things and gradually became worse. Regrettable she couldn't even remember her grand daughter's name. Ga-Eul voice and personality as she grew reminded her of Bom. Soon she began calling her Bom and treating her like her. 

Ga Eul was sympathic though she couldn't understand and played along. I had sent her away temporarily when I knew her day's where out numbered. I couldn't have her sit back and watch, it was just to painful.

"Appa."

Speak of the devil.

"I had so much fun at Uncle Siwon's. You should of been there." she giggled. "I made Yi Jung stick his hands in a can full of worms. You should of saw his face. Is that grandma?"

"Yes it is, why don't you go wait by the pond. I'll be right over."

Older now Siwon still looked the same, just a few grey hairs.

"I hope she wasn't a handful?"

"Of course not, besides that that's what families do. They help one another."

Did I mention Siwon was an angel here on earth.

"Besides tha twe all know how much she loves torturing my son Yi Jung." he snickered. "So are you ready?" his eyes moved to the jar.

"As ready as I ever will be."

Holding the last remains of my mother, I found the courage to sprinkle her ashes letting the stream take her away to her final resting place as the warm september breeze blew against them like a blessing. This was the one place I knew she would always be happy, because it was the one place that always made us happy.

Good-bye without reasons is the most painful one, Love without reasons is the most beautiful one.

The two most precious women in my life left me without ever giving me a last good-bye and the same two women I learned to love without a reason. There is no love without forgivness and no forgivness without love. Forgivness does not change the past but it does enlarge the future. I can't erase the past, nor would I want to because then I wouldn't be the person I am today.

Besides that everyone knows that true love stories never have endings. It only gets stronger and in the end I know I'll be reunited with the both of them.