He knew it wasn’t supposed to hurt, but it did. He knew that he was not supposed to feel this way for a patient, but he did. How could he not feel hurt when he saw Kyungsoo as more than just a patient now, he felt that they were friends so when Dr. Kim gave him another patient for his own solo evaluations, he couldn’t help but feel bitter.
Chanyeol continued to follow Dr. Kim on his rounds, and went alone to his solo sessions on Friday with his new patient, but didn’t go to Saturday meetings anymore to respect Kyungsoo’s wishes of not wanting to see him around anymore. Dr. Kim was also very weary of Chanyeol, since Kyungsoo confronted him in front of everyone; he has been under a tight leash.

It took two weeks before Dr. Kim asked Chanyeol to try and speak to Kyungsoo again.
“You got through to him more than anyone else in such a short amount of time. I know he said not to go back, but ever since then he hasn’t even looked up in group sessions. Just try and speak to him once more.”
Chanyeol bit his bottom lip and thought it over, on one hand he did want to talk to Kyungsoo, but on the other he was scared of what would happen if he walked in and Kyungsoo didn’t want him there. Chanyeol had always gotten everything he wanted, he had never been rejected by anyone, and just the thought of Kyungsoo rejecting him made his stomach knot up.
“I don’t know sir. He seemed pretty serious when he said he didn’t want me to go anymore.”
Dr. Kim pursed his lips and handed him Kyungsoo’s file.
“We both know that you want to go, and it would be good for the two of you.”
Chanyeol felt his ears getting hot, but took the file from Dr. Kim. Apart of him was actually happy, but another part was anxious and he didn’t like it.

The day he was supposed to have a session with Kyungsoo; he stood outside his door for a good ten minutes thinking it over again. He couldn’t help but ask himself if this was a good idea. He knew that he and Kyungsoo had gotten somewhere, but they were far from friends. He knew that they had exchanged some flirty words, but that didn’t mean that he would be okay with Chanyeol coming to his room after being told not to.
He took a deep breath then walked in, hoping that he wouldn’t be met with yells. Instead of screaming he felt Kyungsoo crash into him and wrap his arms around Chanyeol’s middle.
“You came back! I knew you’d come back!” Kyungsoo squeezed him.
Chanyeol’s arms were hanging on his sides for a second while he caught up with what was going on, then he wrapped his arms around Kyungsoo too, and his heartbeat started to pick up.
“You knew I’d come back?” He whispered so only Kyungsoo could hear him, even though they were alone. Kyungsoo looked up, and smiled.
“Of course, you wouldn’t give up on me.” 
Chanyeol’s heart welt up, and he squeezed Kyungsoo a little tighter, resting his chin on the top of his head.
This was extremely unprofessional, he shouldn’t be hugging him this intimately, his heart shouldn’t be racing, he shouldn’t be the dark shade of red Kyungsoo loved so much, but he was.
“Yeah, you’re right, I wouldn’t leave you. I like you too much.”
Kyungsoo chuckled, then pulled away from Chanyeol, looking up at him with his big eyes.
“I really don’t want you to like me, but I don’t want you to go away either.” 
Chanyeol crossed his arms.
“They why did you tell me those things in front of everyone?”
Kyungsoo laughed then walked over to his bed.

“Well I thought that maybe if you were smart you’d listen, which obviously you’re not.”
Chanyeol pouted.
“But it’s okay, I’m glad you’re not.”
Chanyeol laughed and sat down in his chair in front of Kyungsoo’s bed.
“I’m smarter than I look.”
Kyungsoo laughed and reached for Chanyeol’s hand.
“Yeah, I hope so.” Chanyeol let Kyungsoo take his hand in both of his and play with his fingers for a while. They stayed like that for a good hour, Kyungsoo playing with Chanyeol’s hand, and Chanyeol watching him. His face turned red every time Kyungsoo would look at him and Kyungsoo would smile and tell him he was cute.
After that Chanyeol got a call from Dr. Kim asking him to come back to his office, and Kyungsoo said that he would talk to him to get their solo sessions back. Chanyeol was happy things were going his way again, he could finally talk to Kyungsoo and everything was great.

Since Dr. Kim already had replaced Kyungsoo, Chanyeol now had two solo sessions, Kyungsoo on Thursday and his other patient on Friday, plus following the Doctor on Monday, Wednesday, and Saturday. He had classes on the Hospital almost every day, so he was getting a bit overworked. Thursdays with Kyungsoo were easier than any other day, so he looked forward to them.
Their first session back was a meaningful one. Kyungsoo played with Chanyeol’s fingers while he told him about the second time he tried to kill himself.
“I was home alone and I felt so empty. I felt like I was in a nightmare and I just wanted to wake up so badly from it.” Chanyeol squeezed Kyungsoo’s hand and he smiled down at him. “All I could think about was waking up, how if I woke up I would be fine…” Kyungsoo started to trail off and just stared at Chanyeol’s hand in his.
“You have fat fingers.”
Chanyeol pouted. “I have normal fingers, yours are just tiny.”
He shook his head. “No, yours look like Cheetos puffs.”
Chanyeol pulled his hand away and Kyungsoo pouted this time. Chanyeol’s face turned red, Kyungsoo looked so cute pouting his lips.
“Give me your hand back.”
Chanyeol shook his head.
“If you’re going to insult my fingers you cant play with them anymore.”
Kyungsoo started laughing and reached for his hand again.
“Okay I’m sorry can I please have it back now?”
Chanyeol sighed and put his hand on Kyungsoo’s bed, and Kyungsoo took it in both his hands.
“Your hands calm me down for some reason…”
Chanyeol couldn’t help but smile.
“Maybe because they’re fat.”
And then he stopped.

That Saturday at group Kyungsoo kept staring at Chanyeol and making faces. Chanyeol kept looking down and trying not to laugh, he knew he would get in trouble if he burst out laughing because he was not a quiet laugher at all. Kyungsoo continued to make faces until the counselor called on him.

“Are you okay Kyungsoo?”
Kyungsoo straightened up and nodded.
“I’m fine.”
That’s when Chanyeol let out a laugh and everyone turned to look at him. Dr. Kim gave Chanyeol a knowing look then wrote something down in his notes. After that Chanyeol kept his head down for the rest of group, only looking up every once in a while to look at Kyungsoo, who had a very big smile on his face that made Chanyeol’s heart race.
After group ended and everyone got up, Kyungsoo made his way to Chanyeol and took his hand. Chanyeol quickly looked over at Dr. Kim, who was giving him another look.
“It calms him down.” Chanyeol quickly told him.
Kyungsoo looked between Chanyeol and Dr. Kim.
“Can Chanyeol walk me to my room? I have something to tell him.”
Both Chanyeol and Dr. Kim looked down at Kyungsoo, and he nodded.
“That’s fine.” Then Dr. Kim walked off.
Kyungsoo smiled then tugged Chanyeol’s hand to follow him. They walked down the hall to Kyungsoo’s room with Chanyeol’s hand inside both of Kyungsoo’s. Chanyeol was pretty sure his face looked the color of a tomato, and he could swear Kyungsoo could hear how loud his heart was beating. When they reached the door Kyungsoo faced Chanyeol.
“Thank you for walking me, I just wanted to spend more time with you.”
Chanyeol nodded and scratched the back of his head.
“Wait, you have something on your face, bend down for a second.”
Chanyeol complied and bent down to where his face was about leveled with Kyungsoo’s. Then Kyungsoo leaned forward and pecked Chanyeol’s lips.
Chanyeol jumped up, and Kyungsoo giggled.
“Oh it was just that cute shade of red that’s always on your cheeks.”
Then he opened the door to his room and left Chanyeol standing there like a statue as his mind tried to catch up with what had just happened.

After that Chanyeol couldn’t keep Kyungsoo out of his mind, they had passed the line of being professional and now Chanyeol just wanted to kiss the life out of Kyungsoo. When he went for his session with Kyungsoo, he walked in like normal and was met with another tight hug. He hugged him back then sat at his chair while Kyungsoo just watched him.
“So Dr. Park, what would you like to hear today.”
Chanyeol laughed and looked up.
“I’m not a doctor yet.”
Kyungsoo smiled and sat on his bed.
“But you will be one day right? So get used to hearing it.”
Chanyeol nodded then pulled out his notebook from his bag.
“Okay well to-“
He was interrupted by Kyungsoo kissing him again, but this time it wasn’t just a peck. He had both his hands on Chanyeol’s neck and pushing himself as close to Chanyeol as he could. It took a second, but Chanyeol kissed back, his hands finding Kyungsoo’s waist and pulling him onto his lap.
A part of Chanyeol was worried about someone walking in on them right now, not only would he get in big trouble, he probably wouldn’t be allowed on this side of the hospital anymore, but another part didn’t care. All he cared about was how warm Kyungsoo’s lips were, and how good it felt to have him so close. They kissed for what felt like forever, until Kyungsoo pulled back and stared at Chanyeol breathing heavily.
“I love when your face gets red because of me.”
Chanyeol laughed and leaned forward to kiss Kyungsoo again.
“Yeah, I could tell from how much you bring it up.”
Kyungsoo laughed.
“Today’s session should be about kissing, and only kissing.”
Chanyeol nodded and kissed him again. They didn’t talk for the rest of their two hours, only kiss. Chanyeol was happy, and he really hoped Kyungsoo was too. He kept thinking about how he felt Kyungsoo was getting better, and maybe one day soon he would get out and they could be together. They could go on dates, and spend all day together. Kyungsoo could join Chanyeol’s perfect world and they could be perfect together, because Chanyeol always got what he wanted.

At group Dr. Kim kept Chanyeol busy with notes and questions over everything they had been working on since Chanyeol started. Every time Dr. Kim wasn’t paying attention he would look over at Kyungsoo, who was of course watching him. They would smile at each other for a second, and then go back to what they were doing.
That day after group Dr. Kim needed Chanyeol to go with him back to the office to finish up some paperwork, so he couldn’t walk Kyungsoo to his room. Back at Dr. Kim’s office, he pulled out Chanyeol’s latest notes on Kyungsoo.
“So in your latest set of notes you said you think Kyungsoo is making a lot of progress.”
Chanyeol nodded.
“He has been speaking a lot more, and I feel as though he really is doing better.”
Dr. Kim let out a sigh and pinched the bridge of his nose.
“Chanyeol, your relationship with Kyungsoo is starting to get a little… questionable.”
Chanyeol’s blood went cold.
“I know that you are getting pretty close to him, maybe even in a way that I would not approve of, but if it gets out of hand I will drop you as my intern, I hope you are aware of that.”
Chanyeol nodded and gulped.
“Yes sir, I understand completely.”
Dr. Kim got up and placed his hand on his shoulder.
“I know it’s hard not to get attached, but they are your patients, not your friends.” 
Chanyeol nodded again, then excused himself. Chanyeol was not good at not being obvious, and his feelings for Kyungsoo were starting to get worse, he really didn’t know how much longer he could hide it, but he hoped he could until Kyungsoo got out.
Their next solo started out with more kissing. This time Chanyeol was on his back on Kyungsoo’s bed while Kyungsoo straddled his lap and bit at his lips. Chanyeol couldn’t suppress him moans, so Kyungsoo kept telling him to be quiet, but that just made Chanyeol laugh. Kyungsoo sat up and sighed.
“You’re just asking to get caught.”
Chanyeol laughed and pulled Kyungsoo back down switching their positions so Chanyeol was hovering over Kyungsoo in between his legs.
“I cant help it okay, I’m naturally loud.”
“Yeah, I know.” Chanyeol smiled then leaned down and kissed Kyungsoo again. He really did love the way Kyungsoo’s lips felt against his. They kissed for a while before Kyungsoo pushed him away.
“I want to tell you about the third time.”
Chanyeol looked at him for a second then sat back.
“Okay. Tell me.”
Kyungsoo sat up and reached for Chanyeol’s hand.
“The third time, was the worst. My mom caught me, and she kept asking me why, and I just couldn’t answer her. I felt bad for making her cry, but this wasn’t about her; it was about me this time.” Kyungsoo crawled over to Chanyeol and sat with his back against Chanyeol’s chest. Chanyeol wrapped his arms around Kyungsoo and kissed his head. Now that they were more intimate, hearing about Kyungsoo’s life made Chanyeol sad. He was no longer hearing Kyungsoo as his doctor, but as a romantic interest and it made Chanyeol want to protect him from his past. Kyungsoo sighed, “Every time I said I want to wake up, no one understood me. They tell me I am awake, but I know I’m not. When I told my mom I wanted to wake up she shook me and told me that I was crazy, that she had enough of me, but she wasn’t the one feeling all of this. She wasn’t the one that felt no hope.” Chanyeol squeezed Kyungsoo even more. “Being with you is the first time I actually feel like I’m awake.”
Kyungsoo, pulled away then turned to look at Chanyeol again, taking his face in his hands. “With you I’m awake.”
Chanyeol couldn’t help but lean forward and capture his lips. He pulled Kyungsoo into him again and squeezed him while he tried so hard to kiss away the pain. Kyungsoo pulled away, breathing heavy, and leaned his forehead on Chanyeol’s.
“Please don’t leave me.”
Chanyeol pecked his lips and looked into his eyes.

“I will never leave you.”

After their session Chanyeol went back to Dr. Kim’s office with his notes, and recommendation that Kyungsoo had gotten so much better he should be let out early. When he walked in, he saw all of his things in a box on his desk. Chanyeol looked up at Dr. Kim who was typing away on his laptop.
“What is this?” Chanyeol started to freak out.
“I warned you. Now I have to let you go. This has gone too far, and is completely unprofessional. You are no longer allowed here, or near Kyungsoo.”
Chanyeol’s blood started to boil.
“I understand you letting me go, but why am I not allowed to see Kyungsoo? That is completely unfair!”
Dr. Kim stood up and slammed his hands on his desk.
“Get out of my office, and away from my nephew. You are never allowed to see Kyungsoo again!”

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Sorry i took so long to post this chapter. 
Thank you to Sora, my beta pretty much lol, for fixing it up for me <3