Eh. am so upset I've written the first 1k when the editor crashed on me. I am sorry. This isn't as nice as the original one I wrote. TT_____TT I tried my best to remember what I have originally written, though. I apologize.

Truth be told, there is no 'paper due on Monday' that Luhan has to work on. It's just that he's not used to being up on Saturday mornings so he needs a little nap and also a little 'alone time'. Spending the entire day with Sehun would be too much for him at the moment.

Earlier while he was in AVENUEL with Sehun, he had tried pushing the thought of their bonding time being a 'romantic date' towards the back of his mind. However, it was hard to convince himself that it was an ordinary "bro bonding" thing when he had his arm around Sehun's as they strolled through the luxury mall and shopped together. It did seem like a real date what with Luhan making Sehun try out different suits and with Sehun sending Luhan one too many of those content, blissful looks that had made Luhan feel all... weird on the inside.

'He really is the best friend anyone could have,' Luhan laments as he hangs the two-piece suit his mother had sent him. 'And here I am leeching off of his kindness for years.'

The thing is, Sehun has always been this kind to Luhan. Sure he had seemed insincere when they had first met, with Sehun having asked him 'Do you want to be my best friend' and then having told him 'Okay, you're going to be my best friend from now on', but he actually did play the role of Best Bud like a star. He has always paid attention to Luhan, has always been nice to him, has always looked out for him, has always truly cared for him, has always loved him. And now here's Luhan, only noticing such things now because of his sudden hyper-awareness. It's simply different now. Sehun isn't just his best friend (though he would prefer it to be that way). Sehun is his whole future.

'Is this how best friends treat their best friends?' Luhan thinks. He doesn't treat Sehun like how Sehun treats him at all. Sehun is like his big brother, or maybe even like a father-figure to him. But alongside that is the fact that Sehun is someone who he's most comfortable with (until now. He's slightly uncomfortable with him now). And Luhan is more like Sehun's little baby than his 'bro', always being the center of his world when they're together.

"Was I only oblivious or...?" Luhan bites his lip and walks up to his wall full of polaroids. There, he particularly looks at a selca he took of them together just last year: he was smiling up at the camera and Sehun wore a matching smile, but instead of looking through the lens, Sehun was looking at him. And it... he... he looked at Luhan so lovingly. 

There is a weird feeling that surges through Luhan as he stares at the photograph. The same smile Sehun had in the photograph is how Sehun smiles at him always. But these days it's wider. Brighter.

Then he looks at the photo next to that one: a polaroid picture of Sehun and Soojung. So happy together.

Luhan laughs and shrugs everything off. He really needs to shut down his brain so he can stop overthinking things.

He's being silly. Sehun had promised him that nothing will change between them. He really did. Even though it had been Luhan who had forced him to make that promise. Still... And Sehun isn't someone who breaks promises. So Luhan gathers all of his stupid thoughts and throws them into the deepest, darkest corner of his mind where he doesn't ever want to bring them out again.

Sehun will forever be his best friend and nothing more. Nothing more. The term 'husband' between them will only be a title, and Luhan is sure they can both still be happy even if it's going to be a little awkward. Sehun can still be together with Soojung, after all, and Luhan might eventually find someone to love who's okay with the fact that he's 'tied down'. It can't be that hard, right?

Right?