We've known each for almost half a year when we decided to finally meet each other since we're from the same country and we only live more or less an hour from each other so it's possible. I was very excited and nervous at that time. I finally get to meet you but I was worried too since I know for myself that I'm not pretty and I'm fat so I felt insecure because I know a lot of people have a crush on you in real and I felt that I won't be good enough for you. You always say I'm pretty but I guess I really have low self-esteem. I even went shopping for new clothes that time but I still felt that it was not good enough and I still look ugly. I brought you a gift for our first date and my very first date since your birthday, Christmas, New Year and our 6th monthsary passed already. Originally the plan was to meet by 1pm but we moved it to 12pm so we'll hve more time together. I had to use a cab since I don't know how to commute to the mall. I actually just escaped that day by saying "we have a project to make". It was traffic on the way there so you were an hour late so technically we went back to the original plan. I was very nervous while waiting for you that I keep on going back and forth to the comfort room to make sue that I look presentable. I even contemplated whether I should tie my hair or not. After all the waiting you finally arrived. To be very honest, you exceeded my expectations. You were more good-looking and fashionable than I imagined that I felt insecure but you said I'm beautiful. Even if it was Chinese New Year that time both of us are wearing all black and have a grey sweater which was a big coincidence. The moment our eyes met you smiled at me and I felt my heart fly in the sky and when  held my hand  and take the paper bg containing your gift from me I was very happy and shy at the same time. For a few minutes, we were awkward and I had a hard time talking to you. I told you about the gift and you were surprised since you just want a casual date and said that "no more gifts next time." I barely talked the whole day. We decided to see a movie and just eat while watching and as we were looking for a movie to watch I mustered up the courage to whispher in your ears "I love you" and when you looked straight in my eyes and said "I love you too" that was the happiest moment of my life and I'll never ever forget that. Even until now, I can remember even the smallest detail of it, your smell, your heat when I backhugged you, your very beautiful and expressive eyes and your voice. We finally decided on a movie and you paid for it. We had an agreement that we'll both pay for things but you just won't let me. How unfair of you. We got lost looking for the cinema. Which is very funny because I know the mall very well but I guess being with you made it hard for me to concentrate. You just have that effect on me. We bought the food while we're lost. While waiting for the food we took a seat and I started drawing patterns on your knee. You had your arm on my waist and you started caressing my sides. You asked me to stop tracing your knee since you can't keep your hand to yourself and it started going down almost reaching my . You kept on clenching your hand so you will not touch me but I said that it was okay with me that I didn't mind at all. I was very touched that you were holding yourself back for me. People keep on staring at us but we didn't mind. When I saw a cute bag used by another cutomer while waiting I commented and you said "Don't buy it, I know where to buy one" I was surprised since I'm not planning to buy one I just find it cute but I'm very happy since you're being very observant and sweet. Do you even still remember about it? We got our food and left and found the cinema eventually. Th movie was "I,Frankenstein" we even took sides you with the angels and me with the gargoyles. We had a good laugh at my choice. Throughout the movie we were making comments and teasing each other but I was surprised when I was just starting to get into the movie I suddenly felt you kiss the corner of my lips. I gasped softly and looked at your direction. You were looking at me with so much passion and asked me if you could kiss me. I can't find my voice at that time that I just nodded and our first kiss happened. It as my first kiss so I don't know how to respond but you lead me and I followed through it was a sweet kiss then I felt a gasped escape my lips when I fel your tongue on my lips and flick my tongue. I got bolder and responded back but I guess I got carried away that I accidentally bit your tongue. I started to panic a little and you caressed my cheekbone with your thumb and said "Baby realax" and I did. We kissed more then pulled apart and I wanted more. We were both panting and staring very intently to each others eyes you whispered you love me against my lips why looking very deeply in my eyes and I responded the same and you initiated another kiss this one is more passionate and with more tongue. We had to pull apart since we're lacking air I wanted more but you didn't kiss me again and just told me to focus on the movie and for us to eat. I really wanted more that I made an excuse that I want to go to the comfort room but I can't see the steps since it is dark and you offered to take me there but I ended up saying that  "its okay I can just go later" Your lips are very soft and full. You tasted so sweet that I got addicted. I felt light headed of how good your kisses are. You're just that addicting. As what you've said, we focused on the movie and I started to feed you the pizza we bought and wipe your mouth. The movie ended and we left the cinema. I went to the bathroom to calm myself. After that we walked around the mall and while walking you asked me what is my favorite part of the movie and I replied "the kissing part" and skipped away. You stopped in your tracks and shaked your head. I was giggling but I said the truth that time. I was so distracted by you that I barely remember what happened in the movie. We kept on hugging and hoding hands that peoeple started looking at us but we didn't give a care. I got more confident that I sometimes just kiss you and you do the same. You bought me a stuffed toy and a pin in exchange for my gift. I was disappointed that we need to part. I have no idea how to go home from there that I decided taking a taxi. You waited with me and the whole time we were hugging each other and pecking each others lips. I finally got inside a taxi but it just took me half way since it is very traffic. I also found your handkerchief on my jacket pocket. I was so happy that day. I thought the day was perfect but a few minutes after I arrived home, you want me to call you and I did and you were crying. I felt pain when i heard you crying and you told me your grandpa just died and I know you're hurting so much since you're very close to him. You asked me to visit you the next day and said I ask papa to accompany me. I said I'll try. I haven't told papa yet about you but I decided to tell him that time since I know you needed me. I told papa he laughed at first but said I should just focus on my studies and he didn't allow meto go. How I wished I was there by your side to hold you. I was sad because you neeeded me and I can't be there for you but you understand. You just asked me to promise to you that I'll always be by your side and never leave you. I still remember that promise until now baby. I'll always be by your side even if you don't knowit.  I told you I'll skip my Monday class since I just have to submit something but you won't just let me. I really wanted to go that time you know? I even tried ditching class but my classmates stopped me. I kept on worrying about you that time. One day I decided to bring your handkerchief with me to school so in a way you're with me but the day just started and i lost it. I texted you about it and apologized.you said that "It's okay as long as I don't lose you" You can't imagine how happy and lucky I felt that time. We keep on texting each other that time. I got curious and asked you about our first kiss. I asked if I was a bad kisser and you said I'm not since you lead the way and the biting was actually hot for you. You said it was great. I felt so flustered after that. 

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