Taeyeon POV

"Ahhh...tae...enough.." Tiffany pushed my shoulder but I don't care and keep kissing her neck 

Tiffany keep pushing my shoulder "Tae...lunch.. Kids" when I heard word 'kids' I stop immediately..it was the word "public" that stop me when we with snsd, now when no more "publlic" to care about it's "kids" we must care about. sigh.. I need more honeymoon.

I really love this position. Tiffany straddles on top me, she hugs me and my hair.my face's in her neck and my hand's in her .I take deep breath of her scent - her scent that I love the most, so comforting and intoxicating.

I pull back a bit to look at her face, those eyes, nose, lips, cheeks, I can take forever to look at her. Those smile is very contagious, whenever she smiles, I'll do the same like idiot

How lucky I am to have this woman and call her mine? My wife for eternity. 

"I love you my wife" I kissed her lips

" I love you too my wife" she kissed me back, I start kissed her deeply when I heard knock in the door

"Let it be" I muttered

But tiffany shove my face, my mouth still opened like a fish  " what if that's our kids?"I pouted not satisfied enough

"Steph, the food is here" I heard Jennifer called 

"Shoot, tae get up. Call the kids, I prepare the food" she pulled me

I sighed and walked to our kids office room. At first that was nursery room but since Stephan can walk, he always run to my office and stay there so I got the idea to renovate nursery room to look like my office but in mini version with a bunk bed so the kids can take a nap.

I sat on the couch looked at irene doing her thing and Stephan slept on his bed, a smiled sadly, remembered the day I'll never forget in my life

Flashback

At taeyeon parents house

I 'm really nervous,worried, scared... What should I say.. What would I do..

But I will never give up for getting married with tiffany.

"Umma, appa I wanna say something very important. Please sit down first" I try not to sound nervous 

" what is it, tae?" appa seems to know what I'm about to say

I try to calm down 

"Appa, umma next month I'm getting married"

"WHAT! With who?! Kim taeyeon you said you don't have boyfriend and when I'm trying to introduce you with my friends' sons, you ignored me" umma yell

I look to appa for help, he knew about my relationship with tiffany. I always tell him what I'm gonna and wanna do.
He let a loud sigh and soothe umma back try to calm her down

"Yeobo, listen to taeyeon explaination first, calm down" 

"Taeyeon tell the truth from the beginning" umma shoot a glare to appa, can't talk anymore maybe felt betrayed too

"Umma, I've been in relationship with this person for almost 3 years now. U knew this person too" heck, you even love her so much than your own daughter.

I take a deep breath and say " umma I'm getting married with...... Hwang Miyoung" after I finish my sentence, suddenly umma passed out 

2 hours later

"Taeyeon calm down, I know your umma is stubborn like you but she needs time to understand this information" 

I sigh "Yes,appa"

"You remembered the time you must move out and stay at the dorm?" I nod

"you know how she react at first?"

"Yes" my mind try to remember those moment but still can't make me calm down

what if umma disagree, what if umma hates fany, what if umma disowned me....what if..what if..

I'm still spacing out when a loud voice snap me 

"You ungrateful child. You an idol, your image is more important, what would people say if you get married with a girl and your member, is it even legal! This is korea taeyeon-ah. What about my name? Your appa? Jiwoong? Hayeon?"

" but umma I love her, she loves me. I'll never get married if it's not with her" 

"Then don't!! I regretted my approval for letting you go to SM" 

I close my eyes and take a deep breath

" umma, I'm still marrying miyoung next month"

SLAP

"You're not my daughter anymore. I only have one daughter from now on. Never come here"

appa hug and kiss my forehead "I am sorry taeyeon-ah.I know you are happy with her, if I can I will come to your wedding but I can't promise you"

"it's okay appa, your blessing is enough for me"

"take care of yourself and miyoung too"

"I will"

Since that day I never come back home again. I never talk to my mother again. Only jiwoong came to my wedding and I prohibit my members to come, I don't want the public to have a suspicion on us.I even create fake news about our whereabouts

End flashback

I felt an arm wrapping my neck

With worried eyes irene looked at me "Umma?" Irene wiped my sudden tears 

I sighed and smiled at her " I love you minion" I kissed irene's face

"What happened?" Stephan came to us with worried face

"Nothing" I kissed Stephan face too. 

"I love you minions" I hugged them and they gave kiss on my cheek

"Love you too umma" 

We walked to my office

"Hei, what's with the clinging duo?" Tiffany looked at us, irene on my back, Stephan hugged my waist

"Nothing" 

"Umma was crying in our office" Stephan explained 

Tiffany know the reason so she just hug and kiss me without word

"Alright kids let's eat" she clapped her hands

"Mommy you are still hungry?" Asked Stephan 

"Of course I'm hungry, I only have breakfast"

"Irene said you eating umma face minutes ago" 

I choked on my lunch and tiffany face turned red then she hit me on my shoulder... Hard.

"Awww. It's hurt..pani-ah" I rubbed my shoulder 

"It's your fault" she hissed

I looked at Stephan and said "mommy never get enough when she eating me, sweety" I grinned

"Yah! Kim.tae.yeon" tiffany pinched my thigh

"I often saw that too, is umma face taste really good mommy?" Stephan continued the talk 

Now tiffany choked and coughed

I, Stephan and irene stopped eating and waited Tiffany's answer but tiffany continued eating like nothing's happen

"I think my face is tempting for some people" I laugh out loud

"Can I taste your face umma?" Stephan asked

"Me too~" added irene

"NO!" tiffany shrieked, make us jump and flinch 

"No, no no. Your umma is mine. U guys can't eat your umma face or any part of her body, she is mine, she is my wife" tiffany rumbled

"No more chatty chat, just finish your lunch and go to nap after this" 

"Yes mam!" We saluted and continued eating in silent 

this is the life that I dreamed, it is always a pleasure to sing and works with snsd but year after year made me more pressure to be fake, I can express the real me anymore, I can't sing what I want anymore.I dont have the power with my life again, and the fact makes me really stressed, drepressed and scared.

I was feeling guilty to sones who been there passes ups and downs snsd career but I know they will always support us no matter what happen. they will accept my resignation and keep going with 8 members but again my members say the other wise.

the chodings : yuri, yoona and hyoyeon make the lines.... we debut as nine and we end as nine too.. it would be perfect if we disband after nine years.

and the bonus is I have minions. I was really shock when tiffany said she wanna have a baby. that statement really scared me to death, how in the world she can get pregnant from me? holly ... I only being married with the love of my life for 2 years and on our official honeymoon we going to fell down, because my wife want a baby and I can't give it. I'm crying that day,I left my family for tiffany, now tiffany will left me because I cant make her pregnant.

but tiffany said I always over thinking, she never ever leave me and she know how to make a baby with me. so after we finish our honeymoon, we go to the doctor to get explaination. wow just wow i dont know what should i say, when the doctor finished the process. I can't imagine I will have a kid, mini me, what would it's look like, what would she/he could be? and again i'm over thinking.

now I really happy, I live peacefully. I can do what I want to do, I want live as a normal people, away from judging, away from being fake, away from public eyes who always want to be perfect. I have tiffany, stephan and irene now. that's enough for me.with another members we still keep touching, we will be forever snsd.

yo guys this is me JOY he he

thanks you for subscribers, this is my first story I ever write (cliche much right) ha ha but that's the truth.

I want to thank you for my friends, who will always correcting my grammar and spelling even in my own language

and for readers feel free to give me a correction and an idea as long as taeny not cheating or divorce, as long as snsd not die young.

have a nice day... Hwaiting \m/