Thursday, September 19th

Taemin had just finished school and is at home planning how his life would end. He could end it classically... By taking a rope and hanging himself. Or jumping off a building. Maybe he could also stab himself in the stomach. Taemin shuttered. That death would be painful. He needs something that would kill him instantly. Maybe he should think of something else first. Taemin started to list everything that he was sure about. It was something like this

Date-Sep 20th Friday(no one is home)

Method of death- ???

Suicide letter-

Dear mom and dad,

          Sorry about this. I really am. However I can't live this any more with my phobia controlling how I live and what I can or can't do. So I decided not to live on anymore. And I know you said nothing has to end with death. Everything can be talked about. However, I don't this can be talked about. Unless you can tell everyone in society to be my friend and never ignore me then there really is no cure for this. At least you have Taesun when he comes back from the military so you won't be alone. I have left this world and I'm happy now that I did. 

Thanks mom and dad for being with me for all these years. I love you

Taemin looked at his sheet again. He was satisfied with himself. But he felt bad for his mom and dad. They don't deserve to go through this. But they would still have Taesun. I just don't want them to be worrying about him every time I comes home crying. He thought. 

"I'll find a way to die tomorrow. There's no need to rush." thought Taemin as he went to join his mom in the living room to spend his last night as enjoyable as he can. 

Nothing would change his mind tomorrow. Goodbye world. 

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Jonghyun laid on his bed trying to erase what his mom had said earlier. No matter how much he tried, the conversation replayed in his head over and over again. It just wouldn't leave him alone.

"I can't have you always at home anymore. I'm sending you to a public school. It might help you overcome this phobia of people you have." said Jonghyun's mom.

"Mom......" whined Jonghyun " We tried this before didn't we. It didn't turn out the way you wanted. What makes you think that this would be any better?"

"Why don't you just try it? It might work. You never know unless you try. "

"Mom-"

"Thats it! End of discussion" and Jonghyun mom turned around heading to the kitchen preparing to make dinner. 

Jonghyun just stood there dumbfounded. How was he ever going to get past these 4 years of highschool around people? Maybe people would ignore him and leave him alone? But what are the chances of that happening? Close to none. 

"Is this the reality I really want?" sighed Jonghyun as he went to his room preparing for doomsday tomorrow. 

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I didn't know I would update 2times in one day. 

Sorry if this was also very short. 

There is only so much I can think of that happens in someones life in one day. 

But don't worry the next chapter would have something better than the lousy first 2 chapters... I think....

:)