I hope you don't take it to heart when I don't respond.
When I push you away.
When I struggle out of your grip.

I hope you don't think bad of me when I answer you harshly.
When I tell you to go away.
When I ask you to leave me alone for a little while.

I hope you don't dislike me for the things I do to you.
The way I respond.
The way I act.

I'm just scared.

I'm scared you'll tell me those things weren't real.
I'm scared everything I think is a lie.
That everytime you hug me, it's just as a hyung.
That everytime you hold my hand, it's just for the camera.
That everything you say to me, is just to make me feel better.

I don't want to get the wrong idea.
I don't want to look like an idiot.
I don't want you to laugh at my feelings.

Because I do think of you.
Every second of the day.
Everytime I look in the mirror.
Everytime I turn around.

You're always on my mind.
When I sing.
When I dance.
When I'm sad.
When I'm happy.

I need you.
More than you may ever need me.
More than you may ever realize.

I'll probably never tell you any of this.

You'll probably never know how much I care.
How much I think of you.
How much I wish you were here.

The moments we do share, I cherish so much.
I think about them everyday.
And wish that they would continue to happen.

I hope I'm not the only one that fee