Sehun had his first kiss when he was 13.

You see, there was this girl. Her name was Subin and she was really pretty. Also she was one year older than him.

Sehun was seeing her everyday in school. You can say he was kinda in love with her. He was young and stupid, so he

thought she was the love of his life.

It was October and Sehun wanted to confess to her. Maybe she would feel the same, maybe she would reject him. He

wanted to ask her herself, than never find out. It was worth a shot.
He was nervous. Everyone would be. He was going to ask someone out for the first time in his life, after all.

Also, that day he felt his heart breaking for the first time. He was standing in the middle of the hall with shocked

expresion. He was disappointed, because his very first love was huggind another boy. And she was smiling. She seemed

so happy, like never before.

He knew this boy. His name is Lee Taemin and he is older than Sehun. Taemin was very popular, because of his pretty

face, nice smile and magnetic personality. He was perfect, or so people said. And that was the worst in this situation.

Sehun could never even compare himself to Teamin. Older boy was so much better.

Taemin and Subin were like match made in heaven. They were made for each other.
And Sehun was sad because of that.

One year later Sehun had his chance.
Couple was still together, but Sehun heard, that Taemin was moving out to Seoul. Older boy wanted to go to art

school and become a dancer. He was amazing ta dancing and everybody knew it.

Gossip was actually true.

So Sehun had his chance with Subin.

Girl was really depressed. She wasn't smiling anymore. She didn't even cared about makeup, she missed her

boyfriend.

And then Sehun came into her life.

He was always by her side, everytime she needed him. He was making her feel better, wiping her tears away. He was

treating her like princess, no wonder she said yes when he asked her on a date. She still loved Taemin, but he was

far away. She had to move forward.

Sehun and Subin had some dates and they became really close to each other. But one day changes everything. Subin

was thinking about them and she decided it was to early for next relationship.

And then she kissed him.

On the lips.

It was his first kiss. It was nice, but... It didn't seemed right. Sehun said it was okay, because it really was. He

realized he don't want to be in a relationship with her. She was lovely girl, but she wasn't his destiny.

That day he had his first kiss.

That day he realized he was gay.

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Sehun was on his way to Minseok flat.

Luhan didn't contacted him since their talk. Younger boy was really worried. It's been 3 days! They never had break

this long. Sehun tried to call him, but older didn't answer. He send 64 messages, but no reply. Sehun even stopped

by his flat and he tried to get in, but Luhan hid his spare key.

He waited for Minseok to open door and Sehun was nervous. Luhan told him, that oldest from their group is in love

with him.

Is it true? Can I compete with Minseok?

His hyung opened the door and when he saw Sehun standing there with worried expresion and phone by his ear, he

knew it right away.
-It's about Luhan, right?- Minseok laughed brightly as he as younger nodded. He let him in and closed doors.

They were in small living room, sitting on the beige, material couch, facing each other.
-So, you still have no contact with Luhan?- Minseok asked younger. Sehun was suprised.
-How do you know?
-Would you be here if you had?- Older sighed- I talked to him and he told me about your talk. He told me you know

about my feelings for him.
 

Sehun frowned -So it's true..
-Yes, it is. You see, I love him- Minseok looked serious and bit hurt -But he doesn't love me back -He smiled sadly.
Sehun stayed silent. So older talked to Luhan.. And now he's talking about his feelings like it was something natural.

-He loves you Sehun..- Minseok looked down on the carpet. Sehun shook his head.
-No, he don't want to even give me a chance. He told me his story and it's really sad. He never deserved this hell,

but at least he could give it a shot... But he don't want to..

Older laughed -He don't want you to get hurt. He's afraid, Sehun. Don't you understand it? He's thinking you will

end just like him -Younger was silent- Sehun, listen. Since he met you in that cafe, he never shuts up about you.

Everyday we have whole elaboration about how wonderful and handsome you are. At first I was jealous and I hated you

.- Younger's eyes were wide open as he was looking at Minseok. He hate him? Older just laughed- Don't blame me Sehun,

I love him and you are like his ing Sun. But it was before I met you. I changed my mind long time ago -Minseok

smiled- You have my blessing.
Sehun smiled -You don't hate me?- Older shook his head, still smiling- That's a relief. You're good friend, Minseok.

I'm glad you don't try to steal him away from me.

-But still, I'm sorry you are hurt.
Older laughed -Don't be sorry ! You know, I'm actually happy, that he fell in love with you, not some .

He is really happy when he is with you and that's the only thing I want. Just don't even think about hurting him or I

will kill you!- He wagged his finger with wide smile.
-I would never hurt him, trust me. He means world to me -Sehun looked at ground with slight smile on his lips. Older

was looking at him with amazed eyes and nodded.
-I know.

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Sehun was standing by Luhan doors.
He send him tons of texts and he called him, like thousand times. He was knocking on the door for good half an

hour. But no results.
 

-Luhan, I know you're home! Open the door, we have to talk!- Nothing, only silece answer him. He was tired and only

thing he wants right now is Luhan right in front of him. He won't give up so easily.
-Luhan, please! Just give me five minutes!
Still nothing. Sehun was so desperate right now, he was able to climb up the building and enter through the window.

He sighed and rested his forehead on wooden door -I miss you..

I really do..

Few minutes later he heard Luhan making his way to doors and unlocking them. He stood up and stoped breathing as

he saw older's face. Luhan was looking like he was scared, as he hid behind door.

Sehun sighed in relief and he walked in.

Finally

Younger was in front of Luhan, who was looking at carpet. He slowly made his way toward boy and he wrapped his

arms around his waist. He pressed his cheek to older's neck. After a while Luhan hugged him back, squeezing him

super tight. They stood in corridor with open doors. Cold wind was filing small flat, but they didn't care.

Because they were finally together. In each other's arms. With eyes closed.

They felt warm. And loved.

-Sehun..- Luhan whispered in another boy's cheek, right before Sehun felt soft lips pecking him on the same place

-Stop doing this to me.. You know we shouldn't..- he kissed him twice more and smiled into younger's tender skin.

Sehun moved away and looked into Luhan's sparkly eyes. His hands were on older's waist, and Luhan's were on his

forearm. Sehun was amazed by Luhan's beauty.
-I love you.

Blonde boy was looking up at him. He smiled sadly. Sehun knew after his another confession he wouldn't just jump

into his arms.
-I love you, too- Shorter boy hugged him again -But..

-I know- Sehun interrupted and hugged him back- I know, just don't say anything more. What I heard is enough.

'I love you, too.'

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Hello there!

Sorry, I know this chapter is short, but I have a lot of studying!

I want to inform you, also, why Baekhyun, Chanyeol, Kyungsoo and Jongin weren't mention earlier.

Well, I have a plan, sooo.. you know ^.^

But they will appear later! 

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I will update in few days and I will try to write at least 2 chapters!

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Thank you for reading!

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Tell me if you like it! ^3^

~Ellie