Today one year has passed.

Exactly one year ago Sehun walked into a small cafe only to buy coffee.

Exactly one year ago Sehun started to feel something he never felt before.

Exactly one year ago Sehun met the love of his life.

He never was morning person, but now he is so grateful, that his mother woke him up that day. If she doesn't took

him with her, he would never met him.
Since when Luhan came into his life, Sehun became completely different person. They became best friends. Older boy

showed him, that not everyone had life like his. Sehun had lovely family. His parents worked, they have a lot of

money. But Luhan..

He had to move out from his home, back in China. He had no one. His whole family don't give a damn about him.

He's living alone in small flat. Oh! And it turned out, that Luhan is chinese! Sehun was suprised. When Luhan

informed him, Sehun (begin very plainspoken person he is) told him, that he doesn't look chinese. Luhan just laugh and

said

I didn't know you think stereotypes, Sehunnie.

Sehun wants to know everything about him. He still have a lot of questions without anwsers. But he don't want to

looks clingy in Luhan eyes. He don't want to Luhan think bad of him. If Luhan wanted to share something, he would

do that. Right?

But Sehun is definitely confused with this whole situation. Since when his eyes met Luhan's he knew, that he met

person he wants to be with till the end. As lame as it sounds, it was love at the first sight. Luhan is most beautiful

and most wonderful creature. Sehun don't know how someone can't be in love with him. One Luhan's smile is enough

to fill Sehun's stomach with butterflies. One word from his mouth and Sehun is hypnotized. Luhan can ask him for

everything and Sehun will do it. He would do literally everything only to see older boy's happiness.

Also, Sehun knows that Luhan feels the same. He see it in his eyes. He noticed Luhan's stares when he thinks, that

Sehun doesn't look. And you can also tell basing on his behaviour. Luhan is very protecting over younger boy. He is

treating him like his most precious treasure. He would never, ever let something happen to Sehun.
When they are next to each other whole world disappear. Only they existed.

Then, what is so bad about this situation?

Sehun loves Luhan.
Luhan loves Sehun.

But they are not together.

They both know about their feelings. They're just not in relationship. They never even tried to kiss! But why? What is

holding them back?
Sehun ruffled his hair. He was in the classroom, but he couldn't focus on lesson, because certain blonde Angel was

stuck in his head.

What is holding us back?

They are friends. Really good friends. They are spending together almost every day. Maybe that was just enough for

them? Maybe they were simply enjoying their time together without begin in relationship? Sehun was often thinking

about it. What it would be like if they were together? Would they treat each other different? How would their

relationship looks like? Wouldn't it destroy everything they have now? Well, there is only one way to find out.

Luhan, why I want you so bad to be mine?

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Sehun was lying on his bed. He was waiting for Luhan, because he was going to pick him up. Today is friday, which

means sleepover at Luhan's. It was like their tradition: every week Sehun was sleeping at Luhan's. They were always

going out to some 'special place' and Luhan was living nearer. Older one was going there for years now and one day he

took Sehun with him.

Ofcourse it's about Luhan's friends. That 'special place' is flat of one of them.

Older boy's friends were cool. Sehun likes them and they accepted him very quickly. You can tell they are friends for

a long time. Everybody is so comfortable and very close to each other.
There is six of them: Wufan, Zitao, Minseok, Yixing and Jongdae.

When Luhan dragged Sehun with him, everyone was treating him like long lost brother. He actually feel wanted there.
Compared to his friendship with Donghae and Eunhyuk, everyone was treating him equally, even if he is youngest.

Sehun heard message tone. Luhan is waiting for him. He quickly got up and ran downstairs. He shouted to his mother,

that he will be back home as always and ran out of house. There was small, black and battered car with pretty boy

waiting for him inside. Luhan was staring ahead and looks like he was thinking about something.

Sehun opened car's door and got inside. Older boy was smiling at him so beautifully. Sehun couldn't look away.
-How was your school?- honey blonde Angel asked, his eyes still was gluded to youngers ones. Sehun smiled back.
-I missed you- Luhan laughed, when he heard younger's words. He nodded and started the car.
-I missed you too.

~~

They were coming back from Junmyeon's (Suho) flat. It was dark and late already. They both felt huge tiredness. Still, Sehun couldn't get rid of one thing. Everytime they were with rest of the boys, Luhan was talking a lot. I mean, Luhan was always talking a lot, but there he's talking with only one person.

Luhan was describing his crew before Sehun actually met them, but he never mention, that he was so close with

Minseok (Xiumin). Maybe Sehun was wrong and he is not Luhan's best friend.
-You and Minseok are very close to each other?- he asked without second thought. Older boy looked at him adn then

he stared at the ground under his feet. Wufan (Kris) wanted his car back, so he can drive Zitao (Tao) and Jongdae (Chen) home. Luhan is living really close, so they were coming back on foot.
-Y-yes.. Why are you asking?- older boy looked at Sehun, but he only shrugged.
-I just noticed, that you are talking a lot with each other and you seems to be close. Is he your best friend?-

Sehun's words echoed in the empty street. Luhan hummed quietly.
-Well, you could say that- older boy sighed- but I think, that we are closer to each other.

Sehun smiled, but he had a feeling, that Luhan is still hiding something. The way Luhan wants to get rid of this

subject.. He looked at blonde -Luhan, you know you can tell me everything..
Boy nodded and sighed again- I just don't know how will you react..- his eyes was on the wet ground again. Sehun

stayed silent, allowing Luhan to continue -Minseok... He's in love with me.

Sehun stopped. He was standing in the spot and looking at older boy. Luhan was standing before him and he was

looking with worry in his eyes. He was afraid of youngers reaction.
-Well... This is a bit shocking- Sehun laughed awkwardly. Luhan turned and approached him. He was close. So close,

that Sehun could smell his shampoo.
 

-It's a shame I don't feel the same. He is like older brother to me, but nothing more. And...- he looked down on

Sehun's lips and then back to his eyes. After a moment he turned around and continued walking in slowly pace. Sehun

had doubts, but he though

Now or never

-Luhan!- Sehun called from same spot. Older boy stopped and looked over his shoulder.

-Tell me, why aren't we together?

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Hello dear readers! 

So, here it is. First chapter. 

Tell me if you like the story so far.

And also, I'm sorry for mistakes. English is not my native language, but I'm trying to write as well as possible.

I will try to update story on weekend. 

Updates will no be regular, because I have a lot of studying.

I wrote boys nicknames next to their real names, in case someone didn't know them.

Thank you for reading ~ 

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P.S. This story will be a bit angsty.

~ Ellie