I gulped loudly. After my little outburst earlier I kinda sobered up and now I finally realised what I´ve done. I just told everyone that I´m going on a date with Hyukjae. I wanted to save him from those stupid questions so no one would find out his deepest secret. I felt responsible for him; I wanted to protect him no matter what. But I somehow didn´t really think my plan through. It´s true Hyukjae was often joking around on this topic but we were only friends and not lovers or anything. Hyukjae is probably just as straight as I am. On top of that I endangered him by revealing our closeness. It´s very possible, that Hyukjae could become their new victim of bullying. Gay and on top of that going out with blue eyed outcast. There´s no way they would let him go. I bit my lip and didn´t have the courage to look Hyukjae in to the eyes.

“Hahaha,” everyone turned surprised to Hyukjae who in the middle of this tense and silent moment decided to laugh his heart out. Has he gone mad?

“Donghae,” the classroom, Kangin included, were itching to hear from the blonde, “I can´t believe you are so sure I would go with you.” Then the murderous silence was destroyed by endless murmurs and whispers. Hyukjae was abandoning me?! After all this mess he was going to push all the blame on me? He had all the rights to do that but I couldn´t help but feel hurt. The kids all around me were giggling too, probably thinking that I was just dumped. Well I was, wasn´t I?

“First you have to wear those funny glasses and then we can go to the aquarium. It´s your punishment for cheating,” Hyukjae finished his sentence and pouted cutely. This didn´t really sound right, huh. Now it seems like we´re really going out and that I wasn´t faithful! Oh God.

I was speechless just like the rest of the class. Hyukjae was in his faked offended fit, pouting like crazy and I suddenly didn´t know what to do. I put those horrible shades back on and sat down. This probably even ensured everyone about Hyukjae´s words.

“Okay, that´s enough!” Kangin finally woke up from his shock and with amused grin on his face started his lesson: “Forget about Donghae´s and Hyukjae´s love quarrel and focus on me now. I won´t tolerate any discussions.” I can´t even explain how grateful I felt towards the man. I tried to relax since I would have to face the consequences during the break later.

And as expected right after the bell rang everyone totally ignored still present bulky teacher and like a beast ran to Hyukjae´s desk. The kids were yelling across each other trying to find answers to their never ending questions. Others were still in their desk punching into their cell phones quickly, surely informing their friends from other classes about the hot issue. The situation was getting out of hand again.

“Yah! Lee Hyukjae!” Once again someone managed to completely silence the room. I´ll go crazy soon! Kim Heechul was standing by the doors gesturing for my friend to come closer. News travel fast. “Is it true?” The red head asked directly. “Are you going on a date with him?” He pointed at me rudely.

Hyukjae calmly walked to the ginka and gave him a small smile which was surprisingly sincere. I don´t understand how someone so careful like Hyukjae can be friends with such a horrible bully.

“Yes. We plan to visit the aquarium,” the blonde didn´t hesitate to speak. But this time Kim Heechul wasn´t going to tolerate Hyukjae´s behaviour. He did have a soft spot for the younger but there was only this much he would take.

“Are you aware of what you are doing?” The red head warned still trying to act calm. Someone as sensitive to other people´s body language as Hyukjae must have sensed that Heechul was about to explode. And of course changed his tactics quickly.

“Hyung,” Hyukjae was acting suddenly bashful with his eyes looking down. And it seemed to work because Heechul´s stare turned a bit gentler. “Hyung, you know that I like you a lot, right?” His voice sounded pitiful and no one could be angry at someone whose pout was almost reaching his nose. “Can´t you support me?” Is he for real? Asking Heechul for help? Now I should really learn how to burry myself in the ground.

“Aish, come here!” Against all expectations Heechul brought Hyukjae into a tight hug and the blonde had to hold his breath for a few seconds. “Of course I´m on your side, you little rascal!” Unbelievable.

“Thank you, hyung,” Hyukjae murmured into Heechul´s chest. And I felt relieved that he was out of the danger at last.

“Now that my lovely dongsaeng is fine, what do I do with you?” Heechul suddenly looked at me and I hissed. Why does his voice sound so scary now? The ginka walked towards me with the skinny blonde skipping behind him. I stood up from my seat and bowed slightly. Although I am always ready to fight, Kim Heechul makes an exception. Let´s play it safe.

“What´s with those shades? Aren´t they Sulli´s?” Ugh, how does he know?

“That´s my punishment for him because he wasn´t really fair to me the other day. Sulli agreed, don´t worry,” Hyukjae explained leaning on Heechul´s back. That guy is playing with fire. I can´t believe how carefree the blonde male is.

“What do you see in him anyway?” The red head´s tone sounded kinda intimate and only then I realised that those two were in their own world, completely ignoring the rest of the class, still present curious Kangin and even me.

“I told you already. And besides it was him who wanted to go out, why would I decline?” Hyukjae answered freely but I almost fainted hearing him. Something´s strange here. Hyukjae was talking about me in front of Heechul? Then Hyukjae really was the reason why the ginka stopped bullying me. And what´s more important, Hyukjae takes the aquarium really as a date?! I´m in a serious mess here. Nevertheless I decided to keep my mouth shut.

“Okay, do whatever you want but don´t come crying to me later, get it?” Heechul then ended the conversation and started walking out of the room. Hyukjae waved his hand at me and hurried after him. “You wouldn´t kick me out if I came crying, would you?!”

I was left in the room full of curious monkeys and gorilla teacher. Their eyes were shining and I was almost sure that they would eat me up here. The bunch of classmates that was still standing frozen around Hyukjae´s empty seat melted and raced towards me.

“Is this your first date?”, “I didn´t know you were gay!”, “Are you dating Hyukjae?”

And more of questions like this followed. The questions were becoming more embarrassing and I was already having hard time breathing. “Who tops?” And after that I sprinted out of the classroom too. For the first time in my life I was happy to see Choi Siwon in the hallway and begged him to pretend that he needed to talk to me. Shisus saved me that day and I swore to start believing in God.

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Saturday morning. The Saturday morning. The day of my first ´date´. I was waiting for Hyukjae in the same park as before. I felt like an idiot because although I was doing my best to pretend that it was not a date, I totally failed to cheat my mind and ended up looking forward to it way too much.

It was ridiculous that I even put some effort in to my looks. I wore tight jeans that, as I was told, made my backside and tights look good. I even dug out a yellow shirt that I wear like almost never! I rolled up the sleeves to show off my arms and opened the first two buttons. Was I being too much? I styled my hair too and put on the aviators from Hyukjae. I´m officially nuts dressing up for a trip with my best friend to the aquarium.

I was thinking of pulling the shirt out of my pants and messing my hair so I wouldn´t look like I was preparing too hard for this when I spotted Hyukjae walking to me. At that moment I was happy that I didn´t destroy my appearance because I would look so bad next to the blonde.

Hyuk wore skinny black jeans and beautiful white shirt that had black flowers painted all over his chest. Only the front of the shirt was stuck into his pants revealing a black leather belt with a rose shaped metal buckle. Again his fingers were decorated with metal rings and his white hair looked so smooth and alluring in the sun. I was speechless; does he need to always look so stunning?

“Hey, you look good, Donghae,” Hyukjae praised me as soon as he arrived.

“Didn´t want to look shabby next to you,” I averted my eyes in embarrassment.

“I take it as a compliment. What´s the colour of your shirt by the way?” Hyukjae asked and I snorted. Here he goes again. “Yellow,” I still answered.

“Hmm, I see,” Hyukjae smiled for himself, “let´s go then!” He ordered and we both started walking towards the attraction. I wonder what he learnt from the colour of my shirt. I should listen to what he says more often or else I won´t ever understand the guy.

The way to the aquarium took us only fifteen minutes by bus and a few more by walking. I was so excited by it but still tried to hide it from Hyukjae. It was embarrassing and childish. The blonde paid for us both although I insisted on paying my share.

We entered the first room and all of a sudden everything got drowned in blue colour. The view was just breath-taking and I couldn´t take my eyes off of the huge containers with salt water and the creatures swimming inside.

“Donghae, come here!” Hyukjae called and I jogged to the place he was standing at. Why was he so far, you can´t rush when you´re in here.

Hyukjae gestured for me to hurry and I had no choice but to listen to the skinny blonde. I´m useless with him, I tell you. I was much stronger and bulkier than my friend and my mouth was definitely more spiteful than his, so why do I always submit when he´s next to me? Maybe I just feel inferior next to someone who also doesn´t have an easy life because of the way he was born. But instead of becoming a prude like me, Hyukjae fights with his fate and bends it the way he wants. He does his best to live his live to the fullest, ignoring every single convention that doesn´t fit into his vision. Hyukjae is strong.

“You don´t need this now. I can´t really tell but if I think right, everyone for sure has their eyes blue over here, right?” Hyukjae took my shades and put them into my hand. My heart started beating fast against my ribcage at that gesture. There were so many things hidden in what he said. So many meanings, merry but painful too and Hyukjae could feel them all. I didn´t trust my own voice right now. If I spoke up, it would surely come quieter than the heartbeat which was still threatening to break my ribs. So I just nodded and hid the shades in my pocket.

“C´mon, I want to see the dolphins,” I exclaimed after a few breaths and calming down. I pretended to be in hurry and brought Hyukjae´s hand into mine to pull him towards the next room. Somehow I wanted to show him that I liked what he did and this seemed like the least embarrassing way.

The next aquarium was even bigger and it was possible to climb up to the second floor and look at the dolphins from above. I pulled Hyukjae with me upstairs because I wanted to see it no matter what. We were standing next to each other and I was trying to catch a glimpse of the dolphin´s fin. But Hyukjae was unusually quiet so I turned my head to look at him. What I saw surprised me a lot.

The blonde wasn´t watching the water at all. His eyes were glued to our intertwined hands and a horrible case of blush appeared on his face. Actually it was pretty cute and I had to try my best not to chuckle at the sight. If I knew he would be so happy with just holding hands, I would have done that much earlier.

“Isn´t it fun?” I couldn´t help but a little. Hyukjae snapped his head and the blush worsened, if it was even possible. “Uh, yeah,” was his awkward answer before he averted his gaze towards the aquarium. Cute.

We continued our journey around the aquarium and I made it a point to not let go of the delicate hand in my hold. Hyukjae stayed quiet occasionally glancing at me or at our connected hands. It was adorable and also something very new. Hyukjae wasn´t the type to get easily thrown out of his pace but right now he just couldn´t recover. It was a nice change that I was the one in the lead and the poor blonde turned into a jelly. I liked it and somewhere along the way I stopped being interested in fishes and started focusing on my embarrassed friend.

Hyukjae was looking at jellyfish and I was almost sure that he was thinking that he must look the same right now. Completely boneless and going with the flow. Just like Hyukjae said before, indeed his eyes seemed as blue as mine under the light seeping through the water. His white skin and hair was also illuminated by it and I had to admit that blue suited him almost as well as me. I wouldn´t mind giving him a bit of my colour.

“Thanks, Hyuk,” I said when we arrived to the end. Hyukjae looked me in the eyes, habit I really liked about the blonde, and gave me that toothy-gummy smile.

“There´s no need to thank me, Donghae. It really was fun,” he told me and I felt happy. “But I´m really hungry now,” he pouted and I had to chuckle. How much cuter can he even get today?

“Of course you are, let´s go eat something delicious, shall we?” I pointed to the street outside. We weren´t holding hands anymore and my palm felt kinda empty. I shouldn´t be feeling this way. No matter what everyone at school says this wasn´t a date. We are only very good friends and we are both perfectly straight. Well at least me since I can´t really remember Hyukjae talking about girls. But what´s the probability of him being a gay. Being colour-blind and gay, isn´t that too much for a single guy?

“I want to eat japchae!” Hyukjae suddenly broke into my thoughts and gestured to a small family restaurant across the street. I couldn´t even state my opinion because my skinny friend was already heading towards it. You can´t talk to him when he´s hungry. I´ll have to leave my questions for later.

We sat on the table that was in the corner and ordered our lunch. Hyukjae had his favourite japchae and I some spicy soup. We were eating peacefully and Hyukjae´s talkativeness was finally back. The mood during our lunch was so great that I started to get worried. I wanted to ask something but I would surely ruin the great mood. What do I do?

“Is something wrong?” Hyukjae suddenly asked. Bastard, stop reading my mind!

“I was just thinking,” I glanced at him and now I wanted to have my shades on so I wouldn´t have his piercing gaze in my eyes. “Today, what did you think of today?”

“As I said before, it was really fun and I´m glad we went,” Hyukjae answered and sipped from his cola.

“No, I meant if you thought of it as a date,” I finally managed to ask something that was bothering me for a few days now. Hyukjae was taken aback by my question.

“I don´t know what to say, Donghae. I didn´t really think of it. Or more like I never gave it a name. To me it was just ´going to the aquarium with Donghae´. But I wouldn´t mind going on a date either. Is there a problem?” I gulped. I should spill the beans now. It´s better than later I guess.

“You see. At school I said we were going on a date and now everyone thinks we are going out. And also Heechul-“

“Donghae, stop,” Hyukjae interrupted me and I became scared of his own opinion. I said something wrong, didn´t I? “Look at me,” he ordered and I did. His eyes were serious but gentle at the same time.

“Forget about kids and Heechul, about what would your mom say, what would our friends think and tell me. Would you date me? I´m a man and I´m kind of strange too, I´m not lying to myself. I know you like me as a friend and I very appreciate it, to me you are also special. I feel safe and myself next to you. I don´t choose according to gender or physics. I don´t see the colour of hair, skin or eyes. I learnt to look only at person´s soul and yours is the most beautiful I´ve ever seen. I just want to be next to you and I don´t care how you want to call me. You don´t need to make me your boyfriend to have me by your side, Donghae. Just act the way you feel it.”

I couldn´t believe my ears. Is it even possible for someone to understand another person this well? This is exactly what I wanted to hear. I really want Hyukjae to stay with me. I too feel free and comfortable with him and I don´t want to lose my friend. But although I already bared my eyes and apparently soul too, I´m not prepared to bare my heart yet.

“Let´s stay best friends,” I whispered after a while. I didn´t look at Hyukjae. He might be relieved or disappointed by my answer but I don´t want to see it. I waited for him to regain his composure, that is if he even lost it.

“I need to go to the toilet,” Hyukjae said and left.

Yellow is uplifting and illuminating, offering hope, happiness, cheerfulness and fun. Yellow is the best color to create enthusiasm for life and can awaken greater confidence and optimism. Yellow is the scientist, constantly analyzing, looking at both sides before making a decision; methodical and decisive. Yellow is the entertainer, the comic, the clown. Yellow has a tendency to make you more mentally analytical and critical - this includes being self critical as well as critical of others. Yellow depends on itself, preferring to not get emotionally involved. Yellow is related to the ego and our sense of self worth, to how we feel about ourselves and how we are perceived by others.

Hi! So here´s the next chapter! It´s yellow (yes I said I wouldn´t use it to someone, I just tried to not be a spoiler, hehe) and it should symbolize Donghae´s behaviour at the moment. Courage, hesitation, still thinking. I hope you like it. And their clothes for the date should be very similar to those they wore during "From you". Only two colours are left till the end. Don´t ask me which, I won´t tell!!! :D I was in Germany for a concert of Babymetal, you can check if you don´t know the group or are bored :) I hope the story is still interesting, thank you for your support and comments that always make me energized. I love you all - PandaHero