Deux
The Sparliest of Giftsii. BaekYeol/ChanBaek: Mistake
My first mistake was falling in love with you.
I loved them…your two beautiful eyes, so petite yet I saw my world in them. I didn’t like how you tried to conceal their prettiness by dabbing on eyeliner, but then again, you looked good in everything so I couldn’t really argue.
And your luscious pink lips. Oh, how they used to taunt me. I wanted to touch those soft lips with my own rough ones but I had to refrain. I didn’t want you to hate me.
You were so cute, always in your own little world. I’m very happy you let me in. I’m very happy that I could stay beside you as a friend.
But I had to become greedy.
I loved you; no wait, I still do. I will always love you, even though you may hate me now.
My second mistake was confessing.
I still don’t know why I did it. Maybe I had had enough. I couldn’t keep in my feelings. They were consuming me, eating me up from the inside and I felt that they would bore a hole too big in my heart if I didn’t let them out.
I’m sorry. I ruined everything, didn’t I?
But if you ask me now, if I ever regretted that decision, my answer might surprise you.
My third mistake was kissing you.
An overflowing urge, I felt. It was on impulse, my move. As if the confession wasn’t enough, I had to go along and burden those tiny little shoulders of yours with more weight than they could possibly carry.
For one minute, I felt as if heaven was on earth. For one minute, all my troubles, doubts, confusion, regrets…everything vanished.
Only to return a minute later, heavier than ever.
My fourth mistake…was probably the first one I ever made.
I should’ve left you alone, the first day I saw you at the library. I shouldn’t have walked up to you. I shouldn’t have even tried to strike up a conversation with you.
I shouldn’t have promised you a friendship I couldn’t deliver.
I hate myself, for making you cry.
But you’re happy now, aren’t you? Kai’s a good person. He’ll forever keep you happy.
Way more than I ever could.
Way more than I ever did.
What ze actual is this .
*sighs*
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