*night after our ramen + bubbletea date* 

How I really feel about Kim Jongin. No, how about... How I want to feel about Kim Jongin.

So we met up last night, he found me and then asked me for dinner. We had fun and stuff. I was happy. It's been a while since someone's made me this happy. Or actually, this would be my first time to be feeling this way towards someone. Even if I was already turning 22 I've never been in love.

I love my family and friends but I never really had time to meet a guy and have feelings for him, to the point that I'd picture him as my future husband. Every Valentine's day, I received probably two love confessions from schoolmates but I never minded them since I felt like there would be no point to entertain boys who liked me just for my looks. I had my fair deal of crushes, mostly celebrities and idols but I guess that was all. Never had I imagined that I'd meet one of them and become friends. It all felt like a dream. How do I wake myself up from this?

Yes, I like him. From just being my crush I'd watch on tv, I think it developed over the span of one day. Since the time he unintentionally jumped on me till he brought me home. I know I completely screwed up when he walked in to me dancing and acting like a crazy lovesick girl over him but that aside, I really think this is the feeling of wanting to be with someone, for life.

How can I be too sure? I'm totally inexerpienced and what if he's just playing around