Kissed

4 days to go …

*** Jang Mi’s POV***

My eyes fluttered open and my vision began to clear. I wasn’t in the hospital room; I was lying on the bench in the waiting room … on someone’s lap. I jerked fully awake and sat up in realisation but calmed when I saw Jonghyun’s sleeping face. That was the second day in a row that I’d woken up with him, asleep, beside me. I fixed his bangs and looked at his calm face.

I turned round to look into my Grandma’s room and the door was wide open. The room looked empty and I stood up, beginning to panic.

“She’s not in there” I hear a gruff voice behind me. I turned to see Jonghyun rubbing his eyes.

“You were awake ?” I spun my blushing face away from him and I heard him quietly chuckle at my silliness. “Where is she ?” I asked on a more serious not and his chuckling abruptly stopped.

“The doctor took her for the operation about 45 minutes ago, she asked me not to wake you” He replied, sounding slightly guilty for not having woken me up.

“You really should have woken me up you know …” I said quietly, too anxious to be angry.

“I know …” The atmosphere grew heavy as we waiter for the doctor to come and tell us the results and I didn’t know whether I could handle losing another person who is so important to me.

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3 hours later …

The doctor pushed the double doors open and walked towards us, a clipboard in his hand, concentrated on the results he was flipping through. Jonghyun and I stood up at the same time, I was gripping his arm tightly out of fear that I might fall if the results were bad.

“How is she ?” Jonghyun asked from beside me, knowing that I wouldn’t be able to utter a word.

Thankfully, the doctor smiled “She is fine and the operation was mostly successful however only time will tell; her condition is not that simple. You should be able to see her when she wakes up however I recommend you wait a few days before seeing her after today’s visit. Rest is the best thing for her now” and walked past us as we graciously thanked him.

I almost collapsed in relief, Jonghyun sat me down beside him on the bench then left to bring some food back for him and I to eat. I was glad seeing as I hadn’t eaten since lunch time the day before but my nerves were slowly destroying my appetite. The more I thought about it, the more Jonghyun leaving seemed like a sacrifice for my Grandma’s health and I realised that my original anger towards him no longer existed, only longing was left. I wanted him to spend his last few days with me and I wanted him to want that as well. I wanted him and for him to want me. There was no doubt that I would miss him terribly.

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*** Jonghyun’s POV ***

We waited all day for her Grandma to wake up. I thought about what she’d told me the night before all day. I was so confused, there was so much and so little that I could do but I was scared and unsure. Not that I didn’t trust her. More that I didn’t trust myself. Could I handle the responsibility that my actions could bring ?

I glanced at my watch and sighed 11:03.

Mi was starting to look tired after a stressful day, waiting to hear news of her Grandma’s condition after the surgery was finished. She’s barely eaten, barely spoken, barely even moved her glaze from the blue door that led to her Grandma’s recovery room.

That blue door suddenly swung open and a nurse emerged in the doorway and looked at us, smiling, “You can see her now” she said and Mi stood up and rushed past her to her Grandma’s side. I thanked the nurse and followed into the room after her.

Her Grandma was propped up on the bed smiling at Mi, assuring her that she was fine and telling her about what they were going to do when she got discharged – how they would go and visit the beach, swim in the sea and take walks along the beach. I could see how she was very concerned about Mi and wanted her to be happy and not worry about her.

She glanced at me, her eyes reminding me exactly of what she’d spoken to me about and I nodded at her to assure her that I had not forgotten, she seemed content and then shooed us out of the room to go home; it was almost midnight and I had to take Mi home. I took Mi’s coat and hugged her Grandma, wishing her goodbye, before heading out with Mi. We had a quick conversation with the doctor on the way out, he outlined her future treatment and seemed sure that she would make a quick recovery seeing as the operation on her lungs was successful and her body didn’t reject any of the treatment.

We both thanked him and left, I wanted … needed … to speak to her …

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The rain began to fall from the sky when we were still over a mile from Mi’s house and she pulled out an umbrella from her bag. I took it from her hand and held it above both our heads, sheltering us from the rain. We continued walking, the sound of the rain echoing around us, the atmosphere was heavy between us. Finally … Mi spoke up, breaking the silence between us.

“I know about the wedding” … I wasn’t shocked; I knew she knew – it was one of the many things her Grandma ad told me the night before …

“I know” … I replied.

“How ?” She seemed shocked that I’d known but also concerned – did she find out about the wedding by accident ?

“You Grandma told me”.

“Really ? What else did she say ?” She pondered out loud …

“Nothing” I lied but my reply was slightly too quick and she looked at me suspiciously. I could sense that she didn’t quite buy it.

“Is she pretty ?” She asked, I could sense the anger that she was trying to hide and smiled inwardly; she seemed jealous. Was she just annoyed that I hadn’t said anything to me ?

“She is ...” I replied truthfully without thinking. She was pretty but I didn’t like her, I wasn’t going to marry her and I wouldn’t ever choose her over Mi.

“Oh really ?” Mi spat, her eyes burning “so you’re just going to get married then…” she fumed, turning to face me, away from under the umbrella “just like that ?!” Now she was really angry with me, I didn’t quite understand why she was that angry … Didn’t she trust me at all ?! The rain poured down onto her head and the raindrops were dripping down her face and her hair and clothes were getting drenched.

“Don’t be an idiot Mi …” I mumbled at her outburst but she caught it and it just made her madder …

“Me ?! An idiot ?! If anyone’s an idiot here it’s you ! Aren’t you going to stand up for yourself ? Are you just going to sit and let your parents send you to study abroad and then marry someone else ?! Just because they asked you too ? Because you will listen to what your parents ask you to do ? Will you let them tell you how to live your life ?” Now I was angry … is that what she thought of me ? Without even listening to my explanation, she would just assume that I would do as I was told … “Your sister may be gone but at least she had the guts to stand up for what she believed in ! For what she wanted !” That was the last straw ! I snapped ! How many times did people have to compare me to my sister ? Why did people keep ripping open old scars ? It really hurt. I loved Mi and I wasn’t going to let her go …

“So you think that I’ll just comply with the marriage contact without a fight ? And I though you knew me better than anyone else Mi !” I exclaimed, dropping the umbrella in the street. “I have things to fight for too ! I though you would know that !”

“Oh really … like what ?” She cried out, tears b around her eyes …

“Like you” I burst out, my emotions exploding in a rush, and stepped towards her tear-stained and pained yet beautiful face …

Her Grandma’s words echoed through my head as I took another step towards her …

“Sometimes it’s good to be selfish …”

I wrapped my arms around Mi’s waist and crashed my lips onto hers. The raindrops fell down our faces, mixing with our tears, in the dimly lit street as we kissed …

This is where I wanted to be - holding her in my arms ... forever ...

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Hey guys !! So first ... this chapter was longer than usual because I realised that my chapters are really short and I'm trying to find the time to write more although I have loads going on so forgive me ...

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