JONGHYUN POV

Today is my first performance with Taeyeon as a duet partner SM The Ballad Vol. 2 on M! Countdown.

Today is also my first meeting with her after our conversation in partice room a few days ago.

Taeyeon looks more quiet today, it's felt like she was avoiding me. Even Taeyeon looked away while talking to me. What's wrong with her?

Is it possible Taeyeon recognizes what I said at that time? If yes then this is will become more difficult!

You're stupid Jonghyun! Why how could you tell her? You should never say it. Now look at this!

You didn’t want to lose her right?argh! stupid!

My words in paertice room can’t be taken back. So .. what should I do now?

Do I need to avoid her too? But that idea sounds very difficult. Avoid her? Avoiding Taeyeon? How could I?

Avoid Taeyeon for me seems difficult as I to stop to breath.

It seems there's no choice ... let's act like that conversation never happened. Maybe with that Taeyeon will also act like that conversation never happened.

Well Jonghyun! That conversation never happened... never happened. You must act amnesia.  Forgot that conversation. Be reasonable in front of her. - I muttered to myself.

TAEYEON POV

After a confusing conversation between me and Jonghyun a couple days ago now everything looked as usual. But maybe it was only for Jonghyun.

When we first met after that conversation, Jonghyun acting like nothing ever happened. Jonghyun just like as usual. Jonghyun who funny.Jonghyun is like Jonghyun, nothing has changed.

But on the other hand I feel something is changing, something inside me changed.

In recent days, after hearing the words from Jonghyun, I always think about it.

For almost 7 years we know each other, become good friends.

Our memories on traine days ...

Jonghyun, in fact for 7 years through many changes. Jonghyun now looks very handsome with his y man image. Jonghyun who was changes without me knowing it fully.

Actually Jonghyun is always watching me, worried about me. Jonghyun always there for me.

Even SHINee busy schdule during 2013, Jonghyun remain always provide time for me. Even just to reply to my message, talk to me on the phone.

Many times when I get bored in the middle of the night I call him, and Jonghyun always answer my calling, always.

Now I realize it all. And it makes me feel jumbled, for some reason.

After realizing that now if I was near Jonghyun then my heart will beat faster.

When talking with Jonghyun, I often take aways my eyes, choose not to look at his eyes. Because by looking into his eyes, I lost my words.

It all feels wrong. Why can I be like this? Aarrgh! and with comeback SM The Ballad schdule we certainly would meet often.

We are required to sing a duet song, Breath. How can I sing along if my feelings for Jonghyun screwed like this?

Huuftt! calm down Taeyeon! calm down!

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"Noona?" Jonghyun patted my shoulder.

I jump. Came out of my mind about him.

Oh my god! Jonghyun now in front of me! What should I do?! Aaggrh why I panicked like this? why I become like this?!

"Noona? Are you okay? "Jonghyun asked me again, look at my face. See if there are any problem with me.

"Eh? Ah ... no. I'm fine" I told him while pretending to fix my long hair, not look into his eyes.

"Really? if you're okay now we have to greet fans via Live Chat Video noona "

"Oh yeah? well then"

We walked toward to the camera that will connect us with the fans via video chat.

As we walked side by side there is no conversation. It feels so awkward. But maybe that's just for me. Because Jonghyun casually walking beside me, seem not feel awkward at all.

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We begin greet international fans by writing a few sentences on clipboard. To me this is fun, and more fun because I do it with Jonghyun.

We laugh together, I felt awkward slowly disappeared, replaced by a sense of joy being able to laugh with him.

I was going to write the next sentence when Jonghyun suddenly raised his hand and slowly fix my long hair.

At that time me who was busy writing on the clipboard was very surprised and somehow happy...

and again! my heart pounding!

It's indeed small thing Jonghyun often did to me, the little things that now make me feel special.

Little things that I hope he'll continues to do.

that little thing i loved. . .

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CHAPTER 4!!!

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