It's been six months since I said "I love you" to Jaejoong here. In this garden, I talked, laughed and cried with him. It's been that long but everything feels like it happened just yesterday. Too vivid that I could still see his face even when I close my eyes. If not for him, I'm supposed to be dead by now. I spread his ashes in this garden. Like his mother's reason, I want him to live forever. Selfish and crazy as it may seem, I still can't let go of him.

"I miss you." I whisper to a rose as I caress it's soft petals.

A cold wind engulfs my body like it was embracing me. My tears fall and the wind brushes in my cheeks like it was wiping them away.

"Wait for me. And don't you dare date with other angels in there!" I shout as I look up to the sky.

I smile as I reach my hand to it. Then I see my ring shine as a sun ray hits it. I take it as an affirmative from him.

"I love you." I say now looking at the sun directly. This time I didn't close my eyes.

And with that I experienced heaven again.