I’m not colorblind.

I swear.

But after you left, the world lost its colors.

Now, it’s just like you, Suzy: obscure.

Maybe that’s why I prefer the universe after sunset nowadays, drained of its pigment. At least then it’s truly uncolored.

Strange, isn’t it? People are so intimidated by darkness. They’re frightened of the unknown, of oblivion, of monsters on the prowl.

After you left, that fear lost its grip on me. I realized the only monstrosity out to get me was you.

You still flicker around in the shadows.

I see your eyes.

Everywhere.

They bore into my skull from brick walls and shallow puddles. On rainy nights I feel your breath, heavy on my collarbone. Every godforsaken promise made and said, I still hear. I can still feel the intensity you kissed me with. Dammit, you’ve left the stain of your lipstick on my heart.

Stop acting like you care. Stop calling me. Stop “checking up” on me. Stop asking how I’ve been.

you, you already know.

I’m sure you’ve heard from your “friends” of my condition. Those girls you’d stab to death for pieces of green paper.

What they don’t know is you haunt my dreams. Over and over again I see our ending.

You gave me hollow excuses. Lies. As if I wouldn’t know better.

Then you wished me health. Happiness.

You wished me well.

What a load of bull, I wish you hell. I wish you a slow, agonizing death. I wish your body, torn to pieces. I know you like to hover around so even after death you’d wander the world. Eyes here, lungs there, heart… not found.

You never had one to begin with, Suzy.

Makes me wonder why I ever loved you.

A/N:

I don't know if you guys can tell but this was inspired by Tablo's cover of Taeyang's Eyes, Nose, Lips. A lot of the lyrics from the song is put into the drabble. I know it's a bit similar to Letter #224 but Myungsoo's tone is completely different.

I hope you enjoyed and do leave a comment.

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