Winter is here, it is close to the end of the year, which means it is officially 3 years since Seunghyun has been in a coma. It was raining hard outside. You walked into the room, soaked.

“Ahh.. chu-o..” (Ahh.. Cold..) You said as you took a towel to dry your hair.

“YAH! DIDN’T I TELL YOU ALWAYS TO LEAVE AN UMBRELLA IN YOUR BAG!? AISH THIS GIRL.. Go take a warm shower please.. Don’t fall sick when I’m not around..”

You went to him, still in dripping wet clothes. You touch his face lightly.

“I’ll clean you in awhile okay..”

“OUI! Did you skip school again!?”

You went in to take a shower and came out dressed in his clothes. After that, you did the usual.

“Baby..Today, is the third year. Do I have to spend Christmas alone again this year? Please don’t do this to me..”

“Oh.. it’s today.. I’m sorry...”

That day, you lie down beside him on his bed. On this day, you were always depressed. You never felt like doing anything productive. You skipped school, just to be with him. You rest your head on his chest, you put one side of the ear phone in his ear and the other side in yours, and just like that, you spent the entire day there, just you, him and music.

Gradually, you fell asleep on his chest, hand intertwined with his. It was way past visiting hours, but the nurses did not have the heart to wake you up to go home. Instead, they covered you with a blanket and turned off the lights, letting you sleep with him.

The sun shone in the next morning, waking you up. You reluctantly woke up. Your back was aching from that awkward position. You saw the blanket over you, you smiled at the kindness from the nurses. You look up at Seunghyun, his eyes were still close. You touch his face, for some reason, it was warmer than before. You touched his forehead, in fear that he might have a fever.

“Ahh no fever.. But why are you warmer today? Hmm.. I like it thou~ Hehe.. Good morning baby..”

You gave him a good morning kiss on his lips. You got off the bed to go wash yourself up. You froze when you felt the hand you were holding tighten. You look at Seunghyun, he was in the same position with the same expression.

“Must be dreaming..” You smack yourself on your cheek.

You put his hand down. You turned around when you felt a warm grip on your hand. You turn around, your tears threatening to fall.

“What is wrong with me...” You were sobbing already.

You look at Seunghyun. The corner of his lips twitched into a smile. You stared at him, in shock, tears falling uncontrollably. He opened his eyes slowly, looking at you, smiling.

“Hi, I’m back.” He said, in a soft, weak voice.

You let go of his hand and slapped your cheeks hard. You were not dreaming.

“W..What...”

“What? Not happy that I’m back?” He took your hand and tugged you closer to him.

You sat on the side of his bed. You touch his face, his neck, his body, his hands. They were all warm. In 3 years, you always felt a cold Tabi, but today, your Tabi is warm, very humanly warm. You punched him on his chest and cried.

“WHERE DID YOU GO! WHERE THE HELL DID YOU GO! WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!? LEAVING ME HERE ALONE FOR THREE YEARS! WHAT THE HELL CHOI SEUNGHYUN!! HOW COULD YOU!!” You screamed and cried at the same time.

He just smiled and pat your head.

“I never left.. All the while, I was here.. I never left baby.. I never did.. I’m so sorry..”

“YOU IDIOT!!!!!”

“Yes yes.. I’m an idiot..”

He let you cry on his chest, not bothering the fact his entire shirt is now soaked with your tears. He was crying softly too.

‘Thank you, for giving me a chance to say goodbye.. Thank you..’ He thought to himself, choking back on his own tears, while staring at the ceiling, as if someone was there.