Control. Restraint. Conduct.

Nobody can imagine how much I’ve been holding in. I am not a person with a lot of patient. But somehow, I am and I did, have a lot of patience. You never see me do anything unimaginable right? You've never seen me losing my self-control.. yet.. right?

Because of one particular human being, my one and only person, the one that is so dear to me, that I’m willing to do anything. Anything and everything. Only for him and only him. My victory. My dear 승리. (Translate: seungri =victory)

My only problem is, my beloved one is too amazing. Perhaps, too amazing for his own good. Because he is a butterfly, my butterfly. People are mesmerized by his beauty, always wanting to get close to him, willing themselves to hold him. But they should know better, he is forbidden, because he belongs to me, only to me.

But I am a defeated master. Because I lose whenever he smiles. Because I can’t make him lose himself. Because it is him that I love. Inside, outside, everything… I love him too much. Perhaps too much for my own good.

But still… I love him and only him.

So I stand aside and watch him get along, mingle around, exchanging numbers and returning hugs. I watch it all without saying anything, without any hint of disapproval. And even more weirdly, my heart blossoms with pride. My baby, he is getting along so well. My baby, he is doing so well. So beautiful, always sparkling with life. Because life is him and he is the source of my oxygen. To live, I need him to exist.  

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