https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fnv1VG4HkiM

♫ JYJ - In Heaven ♫

I was in the room in the elder’ territory and 3 days had passed since the attack and I had my arm in a sling while I was sitting in the couch in Luhan’s room and watched him as I blamed myself for everything.

If I had been stronger I could have been able to protect him and he would not be in this situation. I was the one who caused him all this pain and I was selfish and tried to push him away when I knew it was impossible.

I got up and walked over to him his face was pale as there was a bandage in his stomach and a solution supplied to his body. I kneeled down in the bed and took his hand as a tear rolled down my cheek

“Luhan” I started as I held his hand close to my face

“I hope you can hear me and all I can tell you is that I am sorry” I closed my eyes

“You are the only one in my heart and I don’t want to see you hurt again because of me” I said as I kissed the palm of his hand

Every place of my heart was breaking to look at him in this situation and I know that this is my entire damn fault. In this moment he would be in China safe and sound but instead he is here trying to heal.

“Excuse me” A nurse came in as I looked up at her

“Please take care of him” I knew she was going to check on him so I had to be out of the room

I went to the living room and I saw my pack along with EXO-M there. I couldn’t even face EXO-M so I just sat there with my head hung low as I started sobbing quietly and I felt a lump in my throat

“Everything is going to be okay” Xiumin came up to me and I looked up

“I am s-sorry…..this was my fault” I said as they denied with their heads

“Jin was the one who ordered the attack not you” Kris said as I sighed

“I pushed him away and then caused this he shouldn’t be near me” I said still hiding the news from them

“You are his mate he would never be away from you” Lay said as I got up

“That’s why I am the one who will take the step and keep him away from any harm” I said as they looked shocked at me

“What are you trying to say?” Tao asked bewildered

“_____________ wants you to go back to China but she wants to protect Luhan so we will leave from here” Eunyoung said as I nodded

“Where are you going?” Chen asked not pleased

“We can’t tell you, I don’t want Luhan to be near me and get hurt again” I said as I knew this was going to be the hardest decision I have ever made

“You know he is not going to give up and we won’t too” Kris said as they looked at us

“I will try, I prefer to see him safe and away from me than near me facing pain” I said not going to change my mind

“You are not going to even wait for him to wake up?” Xiumin asked as I denied with the head

“It would be more difficult that way, I prefer to go