It was pretty hectic month lately. I will graduate next three months, so iI really hard to attend many classes to increase my score and follow my proffesor to help them with their observation. I din't remember how can I got into this project with my proffesor, but I learn many things about my subjects. Well, your experience is your natural science, right? Don't forget about my project, my report every week too. Gosh! My mind need to be restart for a while.

I sighed, now, I live alone in my new apartment. Actually, my parents in Seoul too but it takes 45 minutes to reach my campus and because my busy schedules that make me have to go home after 11 pm, really made my parents worried if I go to home alone. I'm a girl after all. So, we decided to rent a small apartment for a few months. It's really help me tough, I didn't get tired like the old days.

Actually, my busy schedules keep my mind away from Jaejoong, yeah, him. He will graduate soon, so he took many projects with him. I don't know what project he took, but I know it makes us busy in our own world. We always meet each other in campus, but just to say hi. He will go to his proffesor and I will do my report. Our schedules didn't match, at all. 

Now, I am sitting in front of my laptop. I should think about my report right now, but I can't think anything. I'm helpless, my eyebag got bigger as time goes and I can't eat proper meal lately. Sigh.

I hear my door knocked by someone. I gasped, it's 1 am for god's sake! Many thoughts came to my mind, what if that is a robber or rappist? Should I open it or not?

"Yaaaaa! Minah-ah, open the door", he knocked it again. I startled. It's Jae! It's his voice. In a rush, I open my door for him. He just standing there with plastic bag that he carried from convience store I think. 

"What are you doing here?", I motioned him to step into my apartment and took the plastic bag from him.

"I miss you, Min.", I turned my head to face him and got shocked by his sudden action. He hugged me! He placed my head to his board chest. Unconciously, I brought my hand to his back. 

"What happened, Jae?", I'm sure I can hear my own heartbeat. It's too obvisious!

He sighed and ruffled my hair, "We argued and fought, a big fought I think. I'm tired, I need you, but when I turned around, I can't see you by my side. You're too busy. I need you and I'm tired"

Oh my god. It's really breathtaking. How can he said that to me? I know he's stress out right now, but.... No no no. Because he is in this state, as his besfriend I should cheer him up! Right?

I pushed his chest lightly until we can see each other eyes, "I'm here and I won't go for you, Jae."

He smiled and kissed my forehead, I widened my eyes. It's my first time he kissed me like that. 

"Thank you, I know I can lean my head on your shoulder", he pulled me again into tight hug. I smiled and sniffled his scent, so breathtaking.

Jae, I know, I can't have you, I know I'm a bigger fool to stay loving you. But, please, let me love you until we graduate later. 

I love you, Jae.