There was nothing but silence as they both stared at one another in the eye, both mesmerized by each other. They both heard nothing but the beatings of their hearts.

 

Jimin swallowed hard and Miyeon clutched her chest with her free hand. She didn’t want to feel the beating of her heart. She wasn’t ready to and she didn’t want to.

 

It hurted.

 

“S-So, uh..”

 

She started, trying to start something before something awkward happens but she didn’t know what to say.

 

“What?” He asked.

 

She moved the pillow out of her face and and stared at him casually. “How long have you guys been friends?” She asked him, “You know..You and Nara..?”

 

He shrugged. “I don’t know. I didn’t know her like that. I’d say almost three to four years,” he told her and she nodded. “Ahh~ I see..”

 

Jimin studied her and she seemed sad.

 

“But, what’s with you and V these days. You guys had been together a lot lately.”

 

At that, Miyeon laughed. There was no way she was going to tell him about their conversation and that she had feelings for him.

 

No way.

 

“Nothing. We’re just friends. Why?”

 

He felt uneasy about her answer.

 

“Oh. So nothing too friendly, or anything?”

 

She gagged at his words silently and he silently prayed.

 

The girl shook her head. “Of course not. Never.”

 

He felt calm for a second and sighed in relief until when he heard Miyeon ask, “Why? You don’t have to worry.”

 

“I’m not worried,” he lied and she hummed a ‘uh-huh’ before turning around and facing the wall with her back turned to him.

 

It was quiet but not for long as Miyeon had started the talking again. She had thought about it and was getting tired of the fluttering and butterflies in her stomach. She wanted him to know her heart. She didn’t want to regret anymore. She was going to be brave and let everything out.

 

To him.

 

Bit by bit.

 

Thinking about Jong Up and V’s words to her made her want to do more. She was scared and clueless about it but she wanted to try. The last thing she could do was try. Nothing could hurt by doing that.

 

“Ji-Jimin-ah..” She started and he answered her. She swallowed and quietly drew on the wall with her finger, nervous and not knowing what to do but face the wall.

 

“Ha-Have you ever fal-fallen in love b-before..?”

 

His eyes widened at her question.

 

Fallen in love.

 

At that, his mind left him and to another time.

 

His past.

 

It was morning and he was getting ready for school and it wasn’t long until he was ready. He looked outside his window and saw that his friends walking towards his front door. He took a last look in the mirror before walking out.

 

“Hey, guys,” he greeted his friends and his Leader grinned at him. “Ready? It’s your big day.”

 

He laughed, embarrassed but nodded anyway. “Yeah. I’m just nervous. What if I make a mistake?”

 

His friend Suga gave him a hard smack on the back and smirked. “Don’t be. We’re supporting you.”

 

“Yeah, Hyung. Just be yourself,” the youngest encouraged him and he nodded and with his conceited self said, “After all, I am quite handsome.”

 

“Please. All you have on is a school uniform,” J-Hope snapped and he glared at him.

 

“Not as handsome as me though,” the eldest added and he rolled his eyes.

 

“Gee, thanks for downing me.”

 

Jungkook then added, “Oh, and you’re short.”

 

When they all got to the school gate, they were getting ready to part. He was sweating out of anxiety and his friends all gave him a pat on the back to encourage him.

 

He wiped away the sweat on his forehead before continuing his way to her. He wanted her to know his heart. He had fallen in love with her without even knowing although he knew that she was older than him. He still wanted to be with her no matter what.

 

When he got to the teacher’s lounge, he asked for her and she came out in the hall. His smile was wide and his eyes were big filled with hope and love that when she came out he didn’t see the expression she had on hers.

 

A blank expression.

 

He cleared his throat and loosened his school uniform tie before handing her the flowers from behind him. “N-Noona, I know this is weird but I ha-have feelings for you. S-So will you accept me?”

 

All his courage poured out as he asked her to accept. He could feel the uneasy feeling coming from her and he had a feeling it wasn’t going to be good so he added, “I-if you’re not ready, I can wa-wait..”

 

The woman in front of him was just staring at him, shocked and surprised. She didn’t know what to say. She didn’t want to hurt him or his feelings. Not when she didn’t have feelings for him.

 

So trying to be as kind as possible, she grabbed the bouquet of flowers from him and he smiled at her that she could tell was saying, ‘Yes!’

 

“Oh, Jimin-ah..This is nice of you, but..But I can’t. I’m sorry..” She told him and forced a smile.

 

His smile vanished and she smelled the flowers. “These smell nice. Gomawo.”

 

He could tell she was just saying that to change the subject, he knew that very well. He’s known her too long to know. So, not wanting to make a scene he nodded and faked a smile. “Thanks. I picked it out just for you.”

 

She chuckled and he bowed to her, “I’ll be going now. Bye, Nara Noona..” He gave her a small wave and turned his back on her. After a couple steps, she spoke and he stopped.

 

“Jimin, I’m sorry..We can’t..”

 

And without a word, he just continued walking away from her. So what if she’s older than him. He didn’t understand the difference then. Not even now.

 

After all, age is just a number..

 

Miyeon stared at him. He seemed to be in a different place with his eyes on her but she could tell they weren’t exactly looking at her. He was zoned out so she snapped her fingers in front of his face.

 

“Yah, are you there? I asked you a question.”

 

He blinked a few times before his full attention was on her and he nodded, “O-Oh. Mian..I just..”

 

He couldn’t finish his sentence and she just smiled at him.

 

“I know. It’s okay. I’m sorry about you know what..”

 

Jimin smiled back but it was rather a weak one. He wondered if he asked her the same question what would she say. He wanted to know.

 

She chuckled at him, “I know what you’re thinking. You want to know about me too, huh?” She asked him and he nodded his head.

 

Miyeon sighed and took a deep breath before exhaling it as she tried to keep herself together in front of him. She silently cursed to herself telling herself that she shouldn’t have had asked him the question because now she had to go through the horrible memory again but crossed that out as she had already made him go there as well.

 

They were on the same boat.

 

So she went on, “Long story short, I have. And he happened to be my best friend’s boyfriend. But, he was my best friend first. It was a one-sided love type of , but yeah. That’s it. I got them together and I never told him my feelings. And there you have it, end of story,” she says and grinned the widest grin at him but he knew she was faking it. He could see it in her eyes.

 

The sadness and sorrow.

 

At the sight of it, he wanted to know more. He wanted to know who it was that she had loved and why she didn’t tell him her feelings. There was so much more he wanted to ask but he didn’t want her to go through it again so he kept it short.

 

“Sohyun, wasn’t it?”

 

Her eyes watered but she kept them in. She didn’t want to look weak in front of him. All those years they both have known one another had she let him see her weak side. Except for those days that she cried.

 

Miyeon nodded and she heavily breathed out air.

 

“Nara, too, wasn’t it?”

 

He cleared his throat and nodded as she just gave him the warmest smile of all that it shocked him. “If you have other questions you want to ask, just ask. I don’t mind..”

 

The girl in front of him was giving him entrance willingly into her love life and he wanted to take it but he just couldn’t. It just felt wrong to him. He didn’t give her way so why would she. He was curious.

 

“I’m okay. Are you okay? Do you have anything you wanna know?” He asked her and she clicked her tongue with her finger tapping her chin.

 

“Ani. You?”

 

Being a man, he shook his head. “Ani. It’ll be rude of me to just ask you questions about your love life. Besides, I don’t want to make you uncomfortable, y’know. And I didn’t give you permission so I know my boundaries,” he told her straight up and she just stared at him, not shocked but caught off guard that she just smirked at him.

 

“Wahh~~Since when did our little Jiminie become such a manly man, huh?” She pinched his cheeks and he winced. “Yah, stop!”

 

Miyeon let go and laughed at him as he just rubbed his cheeks with his palms. She couldn’t help but feel warm around him. She liked the way they were right now that she wished it would last for a long time.

 

He stopped and stared at her beautiful smile although he could still see the sad feeling she had inside of her and for some weird reason he wanted to make her happy. He wanted to do something that she could never take it back. Something that they both couldn’t.

 

So with no more talking, he moved closer to her as another sound of thunder was heard and wrapped his arm around her waist. She jumped and her eyes widened staring at him but he just ignored it and buried her face in his chest to shush her.

 

“I can see it in your eyes, y’know. You don’t have to hide it,” he whispered to her and gripped her close to him.

 

“What are you talking about?” She asked with her voice and face being muffled in his chest.

 

He sighed and kept his grip on her. “The hurt and sadness of it all, silly,” he said and she stopped moving, slowly giving up on trying to keep herself together.

 

Suddenly he felt her arm around him, holding him tight and at that moment on he knew she was going to pour out all her feelings to him. She let out a small sob and he soothed her by rubbing her back. The feeling felt nice and warm.

 

“It’s okay…” He whispered and she shut her eyes tight as she gripped onto his shirt not knowing what to do but cry. She wasn’t even sure why she was crying. She was unsure if it was because of her past, or her feelings towards the boy comforting her right now who happened to have feelings towards someone else. Her heart ached.

 

Her eyes opened and saw the familiar surroundings, her bedroom, and she was in bed. Feeling another body beside her, she looked and saw his sleeping face. He looked peaceful and she couldn’t help but smiled as she had remembered how they both had ended up like this. She softened at the thought and traced a line from his forehead to his cheek.

 

Park Jimin. Whom I’ve fallen for, she told herself silently and quietly turned around to face the wall. She stuck her hand under her pillow and took out a journal, her diary and opened it up to a new page.

 

After she finished writing she put it back under her pillow and turned to face him again like before. She just stared at him, watching him sleep and it made her feel better. She couldn’t help but fall for him even more. His caring side, she never thought he had one after all those countless times he had cared for her. Not until now. She just started to realize it.

 

Her heart skipped a beat and she tapped his nose on the tip, smiling to herself. “Gomawo, Jimin-ah..”

 

Her smile was bittersweet but still she knew that she still couldn’t tell him. She wanted to keep it to herself. Her mind had changed and that was final. if she hurted, it was going to be on her.

 

“I guess I’m just not ready..Mianhae, Taehyung-ah..Mianhae, Jimin-ah..” she whispered and held him close to her, her face in his chest. He felt warm and she liked it. She wanted it to last but she knew that when he wakes up, it was going to go back to normal again.

 

Arguing over little things, bickering back and forth, etc., everything they’ve done ever since they’ve met and her heart couldn’t take it anymore. She wanted more but she know that his feelings for Nara was still there and she didn’t have any intentions to do anything. To her, it was stupid and helpless. All she could do was the usual as they already were.

 

Enemies.

Miyeon placed a soft kiss on his chest and closed her eyes wishing for her to go back to sleep, and she did. She fell into an endless sleep.