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"When you love a man, he becomes more than a body. His physical limbs expand, and his outline recedes, vanishes. He is rich and sweet and right. He is part of the world, the atmosphere, the blue sky and the blue water."

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“If I were rain,
That joins sky and earth that otherwise never touch,
Could I join two hearts as well?”

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January 5th 2009

Sitting on the table with my breakfast daydreaming. My mind on something...more like someone...Yes... that person is my classmate Shim Changmin. Sigh... I must be going crazy! I looked at the calendar opposite me, Tuesday 5th January...it's been 2 days since Siwon's anniversary with me....  I haven't seen Siwon's grave once...I didn't even go to his funeral. I was too weak emotionally and physically. I made myself a promise..To go and see him this Saturday. Kyuhyun Hwaiting! He said to himself and went out of the door, to his way to school. I arrived at school earlier than usual so I decided to sit down on my seat and read a book. I took out Haruki Murakami's  Norwegian wood and read where I left off last time.

"Kyuhyun!" I heard my name being called and saw my seat mate. He came over to me looking over my shoulder to see what I was reading. I closed my book and put it back un my bag causing Changmin to pout a little.

"What do you want?" I asked in an annoyed tone

"I wanted to ask you if you are doing anything this Saturday..."

"Yes I am.."

"Oh... With who?" He asked me, tilting his head slightly

"No one..Just by myself."

"OMO! You can't do that! What if you were to get hurt! I can't let that happen~ I'll go with you!!"

"NO!" I shouted causing everyone in my class to look at me. "No...It's ok...." I sat down turning my head away from his.

"Oh....." For the who lesson we didn't talk... soon enough the bell rang signalling it's time for lunch. I ran out before anyone could talk to me, making my way to the roof.

Changmin's Pov

I was too deep in thought I didn't hear anything Mr Park said... I wonder why he didn't want me to go with him... was he lying when he said he was going to be alone?? Where was he going...what was he doing?? I wanted to scream out... I couldn't stand the silence anymore. As the bell rang I opened my mouth to try and talk to Kyuhyun.

"Kyu-" I looked over but realised he was gone, I looked over to the door and saw him leave in a hurry. Well. at least I know where he'll be. I ran to the canteen buying what I brought yesterday for me and Kyuhyun. I opened the roof door and found Kyuhyun sitting down on the floor, back on the wall reading a book. The sun shone on his flawless skin, I swore I've never seen someone so beautiful as the man in front of me... I'm sure if he wasn't so distant with everyone, many people would have tried to claim him. I don't know if I should be happy he's so cold or sad....

"Hey!" I called out

It took him a while to realise it was me, the sun was really bright making him put his hand over his head to give some shade. "Oh it's you..."

"Here! I brought you the same thing as yesterday because I don't really know what you like...." I handed him the bag.

"You know...you don't have to do this..." He took the bag, looked inside of it and put it down, continuing reading his book.

"Do what?" I asked, of course I knew what he was talking about...

"Being so nice to me..." he put his book down, looking at my face

"But I want too..." I said looking up to the sky, sipping my chocolate milk.

"Well, don't.. You'll only hurt yourself.."

"Well...I want to be hurt, actually, I want to share your hurt." I emphasised on the word your.

"What are you talking about?"

"You don't need to act so strong Kyuhyun.. I can see it. The first time I saw you, your eyes say it all, I can see there's something troubling you, something that's hurting you. You don't need to keep it in.. If you want to cry then cry!"

"I can't..." his voice was low

"If you think that crying makes you weak, then you're wrong. When you cry it will make you strong, it will make your worries lessen... so cry... If you want a shoulder to lean on, you can lean on mine." I grabbed him and pulled him in a tight hug.

""What are you doi-"

"It's ok~" I said, cutting him off, "Everything will be all right~" He tried struggling, getting away from me but I was too strong, after a while he stopped and broke down, crying his eyes out. I sat there with him, his back as I felt him hugging me back. I couldn't help but feel a bit happy since Kyuhyun's finally letting out his feelings. On the other hand , hearing him cry in such a sad way breaks my heart. RING! Kyuhyun loosed him grip on me,

"Do you want to go to the next class?" I asked him. He hung his head low, shaking his head a bit. "Ok, since we've only started school, I'll tell mr Park that you're not feeling well." I stood up, leaving when I felt my shirt being tugged.

"Will...you....come...back?" he said quietly not lifting his head up.

"Do you want me to?" He nodded, I couldn't help but smile. "Ok, I'll tell Mr Park you want me to stay with you."

I went into the classroom to find only Mr Park there since it was still a bit early so no one would be in class yet. "Mr Park." I called and went over to him

"Yes?"

"Kyuhyun said he's not feeling well so he won't be able to come to class, he asked if I could stay with him."

"Ahh... Cho's son... I guess it's that time... I can't believe it's been a year already."

"What do you mean?" I asked him. A year? A year since what?

"I don't normally tell students about him but since you 2 seem to be good friends... I only know this becuase I'm very good friends with his father. One year ago a man named Choi Siwon died when coming back from his mandatory service."

"Choi Siwon.... Oh yes! Him... I remember reading about him on the news"

"Well, him and Kyuhyun was lovers. They dated for 2 years before Siwon decided to go to the army. The were the perfect couple, of course when Siwon left to go to the army, Kyuhyun was upset, but after Siwon's letters, he went back to being his cheerful self. When Kyuhyun was picking Siwon up from the collection point, it was said that an assassin from "SPY" was assigned to kill him."

"What? Kyuhyun was there when his lover died...?"

"Yes, He saw it with his own eyes... worse yet... his and Siwon's dad was planning their wedding because Siwon sent a letter to Kyuhyun's dad telling him that he was goijng to propose the day he came back. His and Siwon's dad never told Kyuhyun this to keep it a surprise...." It broke my heart when he said that Kyuhyun was going to get married....

"He still doesn't know?" I asked

"Nope...not to this day... He never even went to Siwon's funeral because he was so broken, if anyone told him he was going to get married, it would have killed him. I heard from his dad that he has never visited the grave once... Poor boy...Mr Shim..... Please take care of him... He might not look like it but before all this happened he used to be one of the most cheerful person I knew... His smile would brighten up the whole room. I can see from your eyes that you have feelings for Kyuhyun, even though it's only been 1 day. Please don't hurt him..."

"I won't! I promise I'll make him smile like he use to."

"Thank you. You may go, I'm sure Kyuhyun will be wondering why you're taking so long. I'll see you tomorrow" I closed the door and made my way to the roof where Kyuhyun is waiting for me. Kyuhyun... I'll make you smile again...I promise. I opened the door and saw that Kyuhyun was sleeping. I went over to him, looking at him closely. He looks like an Angel when he sleeps. I took off my jacket putting it over him, letting him rest on my shoulders and soon I feel asleep.

I woke up and looked at my watch 4:30pm... I've been sleeping for 3 hours now....

"Kyuhyun...Kyuhyun..." I called, shaking him a bit. He flinched a bit and yawned, opening his eyes ever so slightly.

"Hmm?" He mumbled, rubbing his eyes.

"It's getting late... here I'll take you home..."

"mm.."He nodded as I lifted him up on my back and walked over to my car. I put him down carefully, closing the door as quietly as possible since he's already fallen back to sleep.

"OPPA!!!!!!!!!!!!!" A bunch of girls screamed, luckily I already closed the door so they won't wake Kyuhyun up.

"Yes?" I turned around as saw the girls from yesterday who are also in my class. Tiffany, Jessica, Yuri, Yoona and Seohyun

"Oppa... Why weren't in afternoon class today?" Tiffany asked me, looking behind me and into my class.  GASP! "Oppa! Why is that freak in your car? Push him out! Let's go to the mall together." She pushed me a bit, moving me out of the way and attempting to open my car door. Quickly I took our my car keys and locked it.

"Oppa!! What are you doing?"

""What are  YOU doing?" I said in a stern voice

"I'm...I'm-"

"Go home Tiffany and don't disturb me anymore." I unlocked my car and hopped in, driving away from the girls. I was slightly pissed off but I had to remain quiet with Kyuhyun sleeping next to me. Plus his angelic face has already taken away all my negative feelings. I stopped outside Kyuhyun's house (he got his address from the main office when he finished talking to Mr Park), I didn't want to wake him up so I carried him up bridal style. Just as I was about to lift him up, his phone rang, I took it thinking it might be an important call.

"Hello? Kyuhyun-ah, This is Appa."

"Oh...umm This is Shim Changmin, Kyuhyun's friend."

"Kyuhun's friend? Oh... Nice to meet you Mr Shim."

"Oh, Just call me Changmin."

"Ok Changmin ssi. Why is Kyuhyun not picking up his phone? Did something happen?"

"No, he's fine, he fell asleep so I brought him home, he's currently outside his house, inside my car."

"Thank you so much! I just wanted to tell him that Me and his Umma will be on a business trip for about a month..."

"Ok, I'll tell him that."

"Umm... Changmin ssi.... I know that I've only met you now, well, not really met but you get the point, but is it ok if you look after my son for now? I don't want anything to happen to him... He might look cold from the outside but he's just a bit broken.... If possible you can move in for the month...If that's not a problem..."

"Oh... Sure... I mean If you don't mind. I'm currently living alone anyway. It would be perfect to live with someone to keep me company."

"Thank you so much. I have to go now. Tell Kyuhyun that me and his Umma loves him."

"Bye, have a safe trip." Beep. I guess living with Kyuhyun won't be too bad... I took out his keys and lifted him up to his house. I went up the stairs to find his room, there it was, with the words "Kyuhyun's room" on a board hung up on the door. I opened it and laid him down.

"Siwon.." I heard him mumble.... Siwon.... Sigh...I pull the duvet over him and held his hand, watching him from the corner of his bed.

OMO! Changmin knows about Kyuhyun and Siwon now :OOO Poor Minnie! I guess Minnie really likes Kyuhyun~~~ Heheh they will be living together for a month now! Kyuhyun has finally let himself go a bit by crying in front of Minnie! What will happen next? Find out in the next chapter~~ Hope you guys liked it! Erg! I accidentally deleted this chapter while I was writing it!! I lost like half of it so it took me a long time to update >.> Sorry if it's really bad.....

Ps: If you want to read any Murakami books I suggest you read Kafta on the Shore first! But warning~ Adult content and scenes on murder I recommend it for people who are

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