After dinner, it was Dara-unnie and my turn to wash the dishes.

I carried the plates carefully to the sink and began to foam the plates.

Why am I so unlucky.
 

How are we going to continue as 2NE1, with my face looking like that. Even though my fans have shown that they still love me,

How can I love myself.

I'm just putting on a strong front.

I'm really broken inside.

" Chaerin, are you okay? "

I turned and smiled at Dara-unnie.

" Yeah Dara-unnie, why wouldn't I be? "

" Well you seem to be really quiet today during dinner. Was it because of Minzy? " Dara-unnie put a hand on my shoulder.

" I'm fine, really. We should start washing, otherwise you're going to miss your Etude CF on air later. " I smiled.

" Okay then. Let's go go go! " Dara-unnie did some aegyo with her fist and I couldn't help but chuckle a little.


She really has such an effect on me.


" Bommie! Mingkki! The Etude CF is starting! Let's watch it! " Dara-unnie's voice rang as she scampered like a hamster across the hallway.

I sat myself down on the sofa and Dara-unnie hopped on beside me to switch on the TV. I couldn't help but think in amazement.

She's always so excitable and hyper. How does she do it.

" Oh my god unnie! you're so pretty!! " Minzy exclaimed as she watched it.

" Dara your cheeks are so smooth! I want your face masks! You can have my corn in exchange. " Bom-unnie joked.

I kept silent.

My face creased into a frown and I got up abruptly to go to my room. 

I was wrong. 


It still hurt.



Ooh, pretty angsty Chae lmao. I call this the start of depression/angst/selfhate. which should be coming soon. I guess lol. Keep reading!! <3 Thanks for the comments! Keep commenting too!