Their eyes met. Jiyong walks toward Taeyeon and pull her in for a hug. Taeyeon did not argue with him. She quietly places her hands around his waist. After all, both of them had been longing for this. They stood there, in front of her dorm, in each other’s embrace. That moment felt like a dream. They missed each other so much.

Suddenly, Taeyeon heard the elevator door open and then she heard her member’s voice echoing in the hallway. She snapped back into reality. Quickly, she shoves Jiyong behind a wall, afraid that the other members might see him.

Confused, Jiyong followed Taeyeon’s action and remained hidden behind the wall.

“Taeyeon-ah, why haven’t you enter the house? Did you forget the password?” Sooyoung asked, suspicious of the leader.

“No, I was on the phone earlier. Why don’t you guys go in first? I’m going down for a second.” Taeyeon lied.

The members shot her a confused look but shrugged it off as they enter their dorm.

“Huh, that was close.”

She walks toward Jiyong who is still hiding behind the wall.

“What are you doing here?” Taeyeon asked.

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Jiyong POV:

“What are you doing here?” she asked.

“What was I doing here?” I look at her. She was really beautiful. Her eyes, her lips, the warmth of her embrace, everything remains the same.

“I miss you so much, Taeyeon-ah.” I kiss her on the lips. I cupped her face and look deeply into her eyes for a very long time. I wanted her to see how much I missed her.

“Taeyeon-ah, I am really sorry. I love you so much. Please be mine again.” I was pleading to her, still looking into her eyes.

She brushed me off. She hesitates for a second, than she took my hands.

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Taeyeon’s POV:

“Taeyeon-ah, I am really sorry. I love you so much. Please be mine again.” he was pleading.

My heart skipped. Those are the words that I have been waiting for all this while.

Holding his hands, my tears started to form again. What happened back than wasn’t his fault, it wasn’t his fault at all.

I wanted to say yes. I wanted to say that I love him back. I wanted to be his again.

But I just can’t, I cannot be selfish. I don’t want others to get hurt just because of us.

I look into his eyes. They were beautiful as ever, but there were hints of pain in his eyes.

FLASHBACK

“What is this?! Taeyeon-ah, answer me!” my manager’s voice echoed in the practice room. Nobody was there except me and my manager.

I look down and saw a picture of me and Jiyong kissing. I was shocked. How did he now? How did he find out about us?

I look at him, dumbfounded.

“One of the staff saw you with him and took this picture. What were you thinking, huh?! Lucky for you it wasn’t your fans that caught you two together or it will be worst! Break up with him immediately, you understand?!” he continued shouting.

I feel hot streams running down my cheeks. I don’t want to give up on him. I love him too much. I need him.

“If the fans finds out about this, everybody will be affected, you understand?! Not only towards you and him, but your group members and his group members will also be affected. You cannot be selfish, Taeyeon-ah! What if the fans hated this? What if they decided to stop supporting SNSD or BB? What will you do then, huh?! ”

What he said hurts me a lot, but it does make sense. I cannot be selfish. Plus both of us are leaders of our own group. The other members depended on us. We cannot be selfish.

Slowly, I nodded my head. I didn’t want to break up with him, but I have no other choice. I have to end it.

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There he is, waving his hands happily. My heart hurts. Slowly I plastered a smile across my face.

He pulls me towards him and gave me a big kiss.

“This will be the last kiss.” I thought as my tears started to swell in my eyes.

I look into his eyes and hold his hands. He was shocked to see me crying. He tries to comfort me but it was of no use.

I shoved him the picture. He was shocked. I think he understand what is going to happen soon.

We stood there, quietly, looking into each other’s eyes, holding each other’s hands.

I cannot take this anymore. It hurts so much.

“Let’s breakup,” That was all that I could say.

Tears are streaming down my face. He tried to make it go away.

With a soft smile, I put down his hands and turned my back towards him.

“I’m sorry,” I whispered slowly.

And then there was no us anymore. There is just you and me now.

[End of Flashback]

“It was never your fault. We were both in it.” I assure him.

Looking into his eyes, I really wanted to make the pain go away, but I am not strong enough. Both of us were hurt because of this situation.

“I’m sorry too. But things are not going to change, it cannot change. We are just senior and junior, nothing more than that.” I felt a needle pricked into my heart. It hurts so much having to say those words.

“But I love you. And I can’t live without you, Taeyeon-ah.” He pleads again.

I wanted to hug him so badly, make the pain go away. But I can’t be selfish. The world isn’t just about me. It isn’t just about us.

“But I can live without you…” My heart breaks into pieces.

I left him in the hallway and ran into my room. I don’t want him to see me crying. It hurts me so much having to say those words to him. But I have to make him go away, even if it means that he will end up hating me.

Love should never be selfish.

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Jiyong’s POV:

“But I can live without you…” she said, with a calm expression painted on her face. And then she left.

I felt my whole world turned upside down. My legs turn into jelly. I could barely stand.

Those words shattered my hopes.

“How could she say that? How could she live without me? Weren’t we once in love? How could she change so fast?” My head started hurting.

I kneeled down in the hallway, palms at my face, crying…

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