*YAWN*

 

I blinked my eyes several times to assure I was fully awake. I slowly turned and grunted as I saw how dark it was outside. I quickly propped myself up on my elbows and turned to face my digital clock.

 

“5:27..” I yawned again. I took a pillow and put it over my head and tried to fall back asleep. 

 

“Ugh…” I removed it and tried fluffing it. I set it back under my head this time and lied down. My eyes were refusing to close.

 

“You’ve gotta be kidding me…”

 

After more grunts, tosses and turns, I just allowed my fate to happen. I was not going to be falling back asleep now.

 

I clicked on my small television and put it on the second bar of volume, only myself and the bugs could hear it now. It was the drama Kiseop and I watched yesterday. I subconsciously smiled, and rested my hands behind my head. I would giggle here and there, and occasionally let a tear roll down my soft cheeks. They played multiple episodes, and I quickly became attached to this particular show. Who would’ve thought…

 

After a few hours of watching television, the show was over and I became bored with T.V. So I grabbed one of the books Kiseop had brought for me, titled “Living with Seohun.” After reading the small description on the back, it was a story about a little girl, with a horrible temper and an even more horrendous attitude. She had an older brother who loved her, despite her personality. He took great care of her. Soon he was diagnosed with cancer, and she became his caregiver. It seemed, to me, quite interesting…

 

I began reading the book and I felt like it was…heartbreaking. The time went by too fast when I was reading. I began the book at around 9:25 and it was already 1:30. 

 

“Wow! Maybe I should set this down… I wonder where the doctors are today? I never got breakfast, or lunch!” I pressed the little buzzer by my bed, signaling a nurse to come. It was only until ten minutes later somebody came.

 

“I COULD’VE BEEN DYING! I COULD’VE-”

 

“Kevin…”

 

“Oh…Xander. I thought you were going to be a-”

 

“No, they told me you were busy. And you would’ve called if you were hungry. Besides…they are all very occupied at the moment…”

 

“Why? Not one person came to talk to me. Not one! What could they possibly-”

 

“It was a crash,” he confessed.

 

“Car crash?” 

 

He was silent. I saw a tear form in the corner of his eye.

 

“Alexander. Tell me this instant. What happened?!” I became angry with him. Was it someone we knew? Were they my family? His family? Someone from school? Who could-

 

“It’s Kiseop…he’s-” Alexander couldn’t finish his sentence. He turned away from me and leaned in the doorway. I’ve never seen him this upset.

 

“K-Kiseop? Was he in an accident? TELL ME!” I shouted. Kiseop was… was such a good friend. I saw him yesterday! I don’t understand…

 

“ALEXANDER LEE EUSEBIO!” He quickly turned to face me. He wiped away his tears eagerly and came to my side. I was holding myself up with my shaking arms.

 

“Kevin Woo… don’t be frightened…”

 

“What? Why would I be?”

 

“It’s just that… the crash was so…so bad…”

 

“What?”

 

“He wasn’t wearing a seatbelt and-’

 

“HE’S FINE RIGHT? HE’LL BE OKAY?” Tears began forming in the corners of my eyes, I was holding them back with all of my might.

 

“Kevin he… he crashed though the windshield… someone ran a light and-”

 

I didn’t let him finish. I ripped everything from my body and used all of my energy to stand up. I wasn’t letting the machines hold me back any longer. My friend needed me, he needed support now more than ever. I ran through the halls of the hospital yelling, shouting, screaming, and crying for him. 

I have never felt so helpless before.

Until I soon found doctors speedily running in and out of a room. I looked through, only to find my friend ripped, scarred, bloody, and unconscious on a hospital table. I clawed at the door only to find Alexander holding me back. I kicked, cried and screamed for him to let go. Tears were coming naturally now.

 

“KEVIN!” The doctors began to shout at me. I blocked out all sounds, everything became muffled in my own ears. The only thing I could hear was Kiseop’s voice, telling me everything will be okay…everything will be okay…

 

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I refused to go back to my room until I could see Kiseop. I was sitting in the waiting area until I got the okay. The nurses were scared for me. I wasn’t even scared for me…

Kiseop was my only worry, my only care right now.

My head in my hands, I let my tears continue to flow. Memories of myself and Kiseop flashed in my mind. His bright smile, his laugh… everything about him. Seeing him like that… made me want to die.

 

“Kevin?” A doctor said.

I looked up at him. He set his hand on my shoulder, “He is asleep, but you can go in now. He isn’t stable, so you can only visit for a small amount of time. But there are others in there so-”

I ran to the room. I struggled with the doorknob but soon rattled it open.

 

“Kiseop!” I ran to his bed side and cried. It seemed like forever.

 

“Alexander why didn’t you tell me I could come-”

I turned my head only to see…

 

“Eli?”

 

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