SUNGJONG'S POV:

it's already a year since i confessed to MyungSoo and he accept it.

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flashback

"MyungSoo?" i said and he looked at me and said "Deh?" i blushed and stuttered "d-do y-you want t-to go out w-with me?" and he chunckeld and said"ok then" and he walked away.

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but this whole year my heart kept breaking and healing. all because of MyungSoo. He did skinship with me on stage and at backstage and public, but once we are back at the dorm he would push me aside as some kind of trash. it really hurts me, when i think all this is fake.

like today we did "come back again" on stage and soon as the song ended he came to me and cupped my face and kissed my cheek. i really wish that once he did those things he really meant it. but soon as we reached the dorm my wish got ripped and stamped over. i sighed "Why am i a fool to wish and keep hoping that he really loves me eventhought it was fake." i whispered to my self and then i realised that eventhough we were together all this time he never really kissed me, well he kissed me on the cheek but never a kiss that lovers would share.

The seven of us were around the dinningtable and ate some fruit. i really wanted to check if he really loved me so i picked up a piece of an apple and tried to feed him. but soon as i did it he slapped my hand away and the piece of apple flew away. "this will happen to me too" i thought and i looked at MyungSoo. "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING, THIS IS THE LAST TIME I SAY THIS TO YOU. DONT EVER EVER!!! TOUCH OR COME NEAR ME. UNDERSTAND" MyungSoo yelled and i nodded.

he had told me a month before, when i hugged him. my heart it broke, i went to pick up the piece of apple and trew it in the trashbin. 'soon i'll be in here to where i belong'i thought and i quickly went to MyungSoo and mine room and took my clothes and stuff i wrote a letter and put it on the desk and i looked at his bed and i took his Pillow, i inhaled his smell for the last time and placed it back. it will be the last time i will sleep in this room and i hurried up and brought it all to the guestroom and locked the door.

once i locked it my tears ran down and i tried to whip them off but they came back. i slowly slide against the door and sobbed. "it hurts, i thought that maybe he would love me, but i guess i'm wrong. i'm really stupid"i said with a sad smile and took a deep breath and said to myself "it's really time to give up on MyungSoo." i cried myself in sleep infront of the door. i really didn't have the energy to go to the bed since trying to stop my heart from breaking,  took enough energy,but still not enough to heal it completly

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MYUNGSOO'S POV:

I yelled at SungJong, maybe i shouldn't do that but i already told him once not to touch me. i saw him picking up that piece of apple that i had slapped away and he quickly walked away. since he didn't came back i went to our room and it felt a little bit empty. and i looked in the closet and saw that all his stuff were gone. and i noticed something on the desk and read it.

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SungJong's letter.

Dear MyungSoo,

i'm sorry that i made you mad.

i will never come near you or touch you ever again.

i promise and since you don't want me to touch you

it has no meaning to stay together anymore right.

 i'll also talk to the manager so you don't have to do

those fake love skinship with me anymore.so... thanks for

taking care of me. eventhough we are still members

of INFINITE, if you really don't want me in the group

i'm willing to leave the group as soon as possible.

greets SungJong

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'i think i really hurt him.' i thought and read the letter again and again. i went to hisbed and smelled the pillow. it still has his scent. i felt asleep with his pillow in my arms.

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hello fan1901 here.

so how was the first chapter.

i thought of making a one/two shot but i think it would just become a long story.

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