Key P.O.V

Onew interrupted the silence, "Minho, Taemin, go do something....productive..." He said lamely; "Like what?" Taemin questioned, but he suddenly became quiet as soon as he had received the piercing glance Onew had sent him. Both of them left the kitchen and shut the door behind them, Onew began talking “Your face was awfully red earlier,” I stared at him “What’s that supposed to mean?” I added nervously, “Well,” Onew said, nearing closer, “Do you like Jong Hyun?” An expression of shock flickered over my face. I know I like Jong Hyun, but I’d never really heard anyone else say it out loud…

“No.” I lied confidently, Onew looked a bit taken aback, “Ahh…Well…That’s good then…” He replied, “...D-do you like guys?” He stuttered nervously, I pondered and then spoke “Why do you care?” Onew turned a light shade of pink and cleared his throat, “I-I was just c-curious…”  I sighed deeply, “I’ll go call Taemin and Minho,” I slowly stood up and was about to leave but Onew grabbed hold of my jumper. “Are you mad at me?” He asked with concern. “No I’m not, but seeing as were just sitting in silence I’ll go call Taemin and Minho,” 
“As long as I am with you I don’t mind being silent for a thousand years.” Onew said his voice full of emotion as he looked blankly at the table’s surface.  My heart stopped. What was this feeling again? What was this mixed feeling of love and anxiety? Although it was similar to the feeling I experienced when Jong Hyun entered the room, this feeling was weaker…Nothing I’ve ever felt before could be stronger than the feeling of love and hatred I experience when Jong Hyun walks in the room.

Onew stood up so he was level with me, he walked closer, my heart was beating like a drum. I gulped nervously…My heart was beating uncontrollably and I felt my cheeks grow steadily pink…Onew neared me and pushed me against the wall...Thud..Thud..Thud What is happening to me…Slowly his face closed nearer, his eyes shut automatically and I could feel his breathing on my lips...”Ss-t-op…” I muttered nervously, why are you telling him to stop? Aren’t you enjoying it? My conscience reminded me, I shook away my thought feeling disgusted, I can’t do this to Jong Hyun…My first kiss will be he’s…”STOP.” I said louder, pushing Onew away from me. I stared to regain my breath and looked away anxiously; Onew behaved similarly. “Buzz” ringed the door bell, Saved by Jong Hyun…I thought, “La, La, La, La, La, La~” He hummed merrily, I sat back down again and soon Minho and Taemin rejoined us. “Why are you in such a good mood?” Minho asked, Jong Hyun smiled and began “Well…I was driving Se Kyung home right…And then I parked my car…And she KISSED ME…” He said enthusiastically. “Good going Jong Hyun,” Onew said smirking; it seemed as if he was back to normal, “Haven’t you kissed her a thousand times already…?” Taemin asked, “Yes we have but…This was different…She was more…Wild?” Jong Hyun said another smirk forming on his face. The knot of jealousy tightened in my stomach, I’ve had enough, “Do we really give a damn what goes on between you and Shin Se Kyung?” I said bluntly, glances from Onew, Minho, Taemin and Jong Hyun greeted me in response. Jong Hyun’s smiled faltered, “Well just because you can’t get a girl-“He began, but I interrupted “I don’t give a flipping damn about scoring a girl or not. And I don’t give a damn about you and your stupid girlfriend either.” Taemin looked anxiously at the at and I’m certain they were exchanging thoughts or something…”Don’t you dare call my girlfriend stupid. Stop being such an ungrateful prat, these days your acting so weird around me, is it because your jealous that I have Se Kyung and you don’t-“

I laughed sarcastically, “Do you really think I care about you and your plastic fantastic girlfriend?!” I said angrily, standing up as I spoke, “Go sleep together for all I care, you just don’t need to announce every little stupid thing you ever ing do.”
“OI. Is that a way you talk to your Hyung?” Jong Hyun said, I must admit…I was growing more frightened by the second…I’ve never seen Jong Hyun so angry before…
“What Hyung? Isn’t a hyung someone who stays with you when you need him the most? Isn’t a hyung someone who will prefer your company over everyone else? Isn’t a hyung someone who will think of you before himself? I won’t respect you Kim Jong Hyun just because you’re older than me. ..You’re probably extremely happy having your stupid fake girlfriend dangling of your shoulder, but you’ve cost SHINee a lot of fans and a lot of problems. Heck. I can’t even go to the corner shops without stupid “security” following me around-“

“Well I apologize if you’re having your mid-week PMS. I don’t see any one else getting so heated up about it. And my girlfriend, fake? The only fake person I see around here is you. Yes you Kim Kibum. You’re the most dishonest, jealous, narrow minded idiot I’ve ever seen in my life.”

A tear slid down my cheek at these very words…Dishonest? Jealous? Narrow Minded? Jong Hyun-ah…Don’t you realize how much I’ve tried to keep you content? How much I enjoy seeing your happiness…My heart felt stabbed in pain at these evil words coming from Jong Hyun’s mouth.

“Ah! Sure! CRY about it, because that’s really going to make it all better. You’re such a prat Key, go ahead and keep crying, do you think I really care?”

“Oi.” Onew interfered “its one thing is to have an argument and a totally different thing to be insensitive about it. C’mon Key, let’s go.”

I stood there. In front of my hyungs, and my dongsaengs. Tears dripping down my eyelids and a throbbing pain erupting in my chest. This just goes to prove…I thought bitterly as Onew pulled me away into the bedroom, that he has never…will never…love me…I cried uncontrollably upon entering the bedroom, Onew locked the door and sat next to me, gripping my hand. “It’s okay Key,” he ushered, as I leaned my head against his shoulder, “I told you I’ll always be there for you before, right? Well this just goes to show…” He said as he caressed my face, “That I really do love you Kim Kibum…” And I closed my eyes…Too tired to act…Too tired to think…What these words actually meant…

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