KANGIN POV

So because of my hyung here I am in the car driving Leeteuk home. If it were anyone else I would be very hesitant to drive them but not Leeteuk noona. She's been working as umma's assistant chef for a couple of months and I've always felt myself staring at her. Thanks to my sister Jessica's gossip I know that Leeteuk noona has a boyfriend but he is currently studying abroad in Paris. So even though I keep staring at her nothing will come of it, she was with someone already so I had no hope but still like the idiot I was I couldn't stop thinking about her. During the car ride I remained silent while taking occasional glances of her.

I think she realized I was staring at her so she turned to face me. "Is there anything wrong Kangin-ssi?"

"No, it's fine I was just spacing out, don't mind me" I laughed it off. That was embarrassing, I totally blame Kyuhyun hyung.

KYUHYUN POV 

I could tell Sunny was curious seeing the look on my face, which I am sure reflected how scared and hesitant I was feeling. She sat down in the car and stared at me for awhile letting me collect my thoughts. When I knew I could no longer hold off the conversation I began to talk.

" Before telling you anything else I want to make it clear to you just how important and special you are to me. You are smart, sweet, talented and such an amazing friend."

I could tell Sunny was a little hurt by the "friend" part but she still held silent and allowed me to continue.

"You deserve so much, much more then I can give you and that is the biggest reason why I can't be with you. I know this sounds like the line "it's not you but me" but in this case I really mean it."

At this point tears and pain start to collect in Sunny's eyes yet she calmly spoke, "I really like you Kyuhyun and I don't understand what you mean. Was I not attractive enough for you? Was I not y enough for you? I gave my all to try and make this relationship work. Can you at least tell me why I wasn't good enough, what am I lacking."

Seeing her like this broke my heart. I may not feel physical attraction towards her but she still held a special place in my heart. I just wanted to grab her and hug her tight and tell her I was joking and that I loved her in the same way she loved me. But I knew I couldn't do that. She needed to know the truth and move on to someone who could appritate her and love her. With this in mind my own eyes started to glaze over with unshed tears.

"Sunny you are so special and beautiful and I can assure you that you aren't lacking in anything, but I am. Any man would love to have you by his side but I just can't see you like other men do. I can't see you as y and attractive, In fact I can't see any women like this ... instead I see men. I have held this secret in for years and the truth is I like men..........I am gay."

After I finished my sentence I looked in her eyes I can see she's crying. I could see hints of sadness but also resignation in her eyes. Her lips quivered a little as she closed her eyes and inhaled and exhaled in a steady rhythm. It was now my turn to give her time to collect her thoughts just as she had done earlier for me. Even though I felt relieved that I had gotten this off my chest I was still a little scared about her reaction. I took it as a good sign that she hadn't started screaming and sobbing. She is the first person I ever told my secret to. Siwon didn't count since he had known all along I was gay so I never had to actually tell him. It seemed like hours had passed when she spoke

"Thank You. Thank You for telling me. I know this isn't your fault and I won't hold this against you. I used to live in Japan and one of my best friends was also gay and I accepted him and his partner for who they are. I see no difference with you. Kyuhyun you are very important to me and even though I'm in pain right now I still understand. I'm assuming your parents don't know about you right."

Hearing her speak I was reminded of why I first started dating her. Any other women would be beyond furious and heart broken. Her kindness and understanding could parallel no other women. If I were attracted to women I would propose right now, but life can't always be that easy.

"I should be the one that's thankful for your understanding and you are right. My parents don't know about my ual orientation yet. That's why they're so persistent about me getting married and also why my mother invited you to the house tonight. To be honest I know they have to find out eventually but I'm afraid of their reactions. In this world there were only two people that knew my secret and now with you three."

"I'm guessing Siwon is that other person right" she smiled a little, "you two are very close so it's no wonder he knows. Are you guys, by any chance, together?"

I hesitated but I wanted to be honest with her. "Yes we are."  

"He seems like a good man. Now that I think of it whenever I would see you guys together you would always be smiling at each other. I guess I should have known."

After she spoke we just stayed silent. I kept thinking about what she had said to me and I couldn't help but think how right she was. Just Siwon's presence could make me smile. Then I remembered the fight we had earlier today and the way I had just left him there. I knew I couldn't leave things as they were. I had been to preoccupied with telling Sunny that I had forgotten what had happened between Siwon and I.

Sunny noticed that there was something going on but she thankfully didn't ask what was wrong. She wished me a goodnight and a safe trip back home and then got out of the car while waving.

As soon as I made sure she was safely inside I started the car and I drove off to Siwon's apartment. I knew it was late but I had to tell him that I had told Sunny about us, well that is if there still is an us after the way I stormed off earlier today; We needed to talk and the sooner the better.

SIWON POV

When Kyuhyun left I took out a bottle of wine and started to think about what happened. I knew where Kyuhyun's hesitance came from after all when my family found out about my ual orientation it had not been good. I remember my siblings faces of disappointment and I especially remember my  ommoni's reaction. I could see her face fill with disgust and denial. She told me to think about Victoria and my daughter, weren't they important to me. She asked me why I couldn't just stay with my family and be "normal" I had been with them eight years already.

It was this reaction that had me leaving Seoul and moving to where I am now. I knew my mother had found out where I was living since I have received a couple of calls from her in the past month. It was always the same call, asking me to return to Seoul and to stop being stubborn. I ignored all those phone calls though. I knew it was only a matter of time until she came to visit me in person and this worried me. I'm sure she knew I had someone since otherwise I would have moved out as soon as I knew where I was. I couldn't let Kyuhyun and ommoni meet. As cold and uncaring Kyuhyun could appear I knew how fragile he was inside therefore I was certain he wouldn't be able to handle my mother if they were to meet.

Pushing back the thoughts about my mother I noticed I was almost done with the bottle of wine I had started earlier. My mind couldn't help but start to think of Kyuhyun. I knew I shouldn't take his words too seriously after all he was confused but I still felt slightly hurt. I knew we had to talk so I gave him time to calm down and then I would contact him. Just as I was reaching for a second bottle of wine I heard the door bell ring so I rushed to answer it.

"Kyu.......Ommoni what are you doing here?"

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My mother was sitting in front of me as I started to drink the second wine bottle I had pulled out. I could tell she wanted to scold me for drinking in front of her but at the moment I really couldn't care. 

"I know you have a new.... friend" Ommoni said with a disgusted look on her face. "I don't know who he is but I just want you to know that I will not allow this to continue. I refuse to leave here until you agree to return to Seoul to your wife and child. I talked it over with Victoria's parents and they will let you guys have a reconciliation. If you don't agree to this they will move to England and you won't see your family again. Are you really willing to leave your child, all for a .... a man."

I started to shake with anger the more my mother talked. I knew no such deal had been made with Victoria's parents, they still hated me for what I had done to her and I knew there was no chance they would let us get back together even if I would have wanted that. I still keep in contact with her through email and she did mention moving to England but she still told me she would let me see our daughter whenever her parents weren't around. So I knew my mother was lying to me and I couldn't stand it and I just burst.

"Ommoni I will not let you say those lies. Even though Victoria and my daughter are moving to England I still have rights to see my daughter no matter what. I will not let you use my daughter to get me to go back to Seoul. As much as I love my daughter I can't go back and pretend nothing ever happened, not only will I be unhappy but so would Victoria and my baby girl." I screamed

"How dare you speak to your mother like that. Is the guy you're with really worth it."

As I was about to respond the door rang again. Before I could get up to answer the door my mother beat me to it. The thing I had most feared happened then. I saw Kyuhyun in front of my mother by the door.

KYUHYUN POV

As soon as I knocked on Siwon's door I was face to face with a very beautiful ajumma.

"Annyeong haseyo Cho Kyuhyun imnida. Is Siwon here?"

I couldn't really tell what was going on because the next think I feel a slap on my cheek. 

"OMMONI WHAT DID YOU DO TO KYUHYUN!" i hear an angry Siwon scream and then I realize who is in front of me. This is Siwon's mother. Siwon had told me about her but I never thought I would meet her like this.

"This is the reason why you left your family. He doesn't seem to be anything special. Just look at him, he got all frazzled just from a slap. What kind of man is this?" I heard Siwon's mom calmly say. At the same time I felt Siwon's arms wrap around me.

"He means the world to me ommoni and I will not have you insult him like this, please leave and we will talk about this later." Siwon replied

"I admit I may have over reacted when I slapped him but I already told you that I will not leave until you come back to Seoul with me Siwon." she stubbornly replied.

Seeing what was going on I decided it would be better to leave but just as I was going to excuse myself Siwon hugged me tighter to him. 

"Umma please just leave. He is very important to me and I can't stand you hurting him. Find a hotel near by and we can talk about this later."

"Why do I have to leave my son's house. I am not staying in a hotel when I can just stay with you"

"Ommoni" he sighed "you can stay if you want but don't get upset when you see something you don't like" he responded a bit cheeky. At the same time he lifted my chin and connected our lips in one of the roughest kisses we've ever shared. 

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So I had some sort of inspiration and I decided to update. I do plan on working on this story so I know it'll get finished just that it'll take time. So I was going to compensate my SUPER late update by putting some wonkyu love (aka ) but then it got deleted as I tried to save it so I just decided to leave it for next chapter. Comment and tell me what you think, either positive or negative I don't mind just comment please :)