Minseok stared blankly at the machine. His mind drifted to Baekhyun. He still looks the same. His perfect eyes, his unique lips, his cute nose. He is the same puppy.. only a little taller.  

All this time, Minseok was just thinking Baekhyun was too attached to him before because he only needed a companion. A person he can use to vent out his likings. A person he can use not to be judged. A person he can use not to look so awkward. 

Baekhyun, way back in high school was awkward. He can put up a conversation, but he was afraid people might notice he’s gay. He was too afraid and awkward to even get closer to other people. He was so afraid of getting judged. So, he just played safe to everyone. 

His mind went back to reality when a tall man patted his back.

“Yo Hyung? You look puzzled. It’s Spring break eh? There’s no school work to worry about”.

“Ah sorry Tao. Just thinking about some things. Let’s get back to work.” He stood up. 

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The night when Baekhyun ran, it was Chanyeol who listened to him. Baekhyun did not tell the whole story though but the tall man was attentive. He was there to provide comfort to Baek when he most needed it. 

“Don’t feel guilty, Baekhyun. This is what you need now”. Baekhyun talked to himself. 

“Channie, I.. I’m sorry. I hope we can just know each other well first. Everything between us was so rushed. I don’t want to..”

Chanyeol kissed Baekhyun and shut him up. 

“I understand. I’m sorry too Hyunnie. I’ll do my best so you can love me back”. 

Baekhyun just gulped. “Oh no”. He closed his eyes. 

Why can’t Baekhyun just tell Chanyeol the truth? Is he loving the attention Chanyeol gives him? Does he like him back? Baekhyun doesn’t want to think about it. He was too stuck in the moment with this attractive man. 

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Baekhyun passed the exam and was able to enroll. He felt happy because finally he can start fixing his life but at the same time he is sad knowing Minseok doesn’t want to talk him. 

Baekhyun was sitting at the cafeteria when he noticed two men giggling, two tables away from him. 

There he saw Luhan and Minseok talking sweetly. His heart almost shattered when he saw Minseok laughed. His cute gummy smile he always adored. His eyes that looks so pure and expressive. Baekhyun was so sad seeing Minseok happily talking to someone else. He was just hopeful he can rekindle their past relationship. To the very least. 

The bell rang and the two guys left the area. Luckily, the two men didn’t see Baekhyun’s face  when they passed by. 

“This is gonna be one hell of a school year” Baekhyun frowned. 

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