Notes from the dead

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"It's really hard to convince people that depression isn't just sadness. It isn't just something that you can get rid of over night. It will stick to your spine until it completely destroys you" - Byun Haneul

 

Anxiety.
Insomnia.
Depression.
These are the three things that took Haneul's sanity.
No one helped her.
No one dared to understand her.

 

"I promised to take care of her and understand her but ... i grew tired" - Kim Jongin
"I thought she was just making things up, I didn't really take her seriously. Why am I so stupid to let her go on her own?" - Oh Sehun
"I knew. I knew how much pain she was feeling, but I didn't do anything because I was scared of her own mind" Kim Joonmyeon
"She was always smiling. She was always laughing. She hid her pain behind her bright smile" - Byun Baekhyun
"She was always vocal about herself to me. I'm the only one who knows all her tiniest secrets. She trusted me, why didn't i do anything to save her?" Kim Jongdae
"Am I too late to tell her that she's not alone? She got me. All of me" Park Chanyeol
"Why didn't I notice that she was struggling?" Kim Minseok
"Friends either make you or break you. In my case, I broke her" - Luhan

 

Foreword

Haneul's POV

I don't know where all of this started. Maybe when Luhan left? or maybe when i failed my exams? I don't know. Maybe i've been like this before and I just noticed it now? Everything is just too hard for me to accept. I feel like i've never done anything right in my life. I'm a burden to my family and friends. I woke up one day hating the light. That damned blinding light. I want everything pitch black. The darkness embraces me every night and I love the feeling of it. No one ever listened to me, no one. And i hate all of them for ignoring my silent shout of help.

I'll disappear now.

 

C H A R A C T E R S:

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Byun Haneul
Baekhyun's cousin
There's more to see than just her bright smile because behind that face hides a shattered heart

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Luhan
Haneul's best friend
He was the only one who really understand Haneul but without any notice, he just left.

 

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The rest of EXO.
Byun Haneul's circle of friends.

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oohhannie #1
Chapter 5: It's hurt me as well ㅠㅠㅠ hope songwu or daniel can save her. Even tho it just a plot story it would be good to see someone who need help getting helped, right?
kahazi #2
Chapter 5: Omo she's counting.. i got the feeling that this fic will end sadly :(
kahazi #3
Chapter 4: just go with wannaone., luhan is a for doing it..

I'm a psychology major way back in college somehow i can relate..

Thank you for updating Author~
kahazi #4
Chapter 2: I think at least daniel care... it just funny that shes asking people of ways to die hehehe

Pls update soon.
Eungi_ 32 streak #5
One more thing, I am really interested in the tags of Ong Seongwoo and Wanna One since neither are mentioned on the foreword. I just hope he's not an evil character or something lmao (yes I'm a Wannable and Exo-L)
Eungi_ 32 streak #6
I am flattered to be the first subscriber & commenter. Your description & foreword are actually pretty good (plus your background picture too) I was a bit taken aback seeing Jisoo there she's so pretty (but still, I can imagine her being depressed)

I like the plot of how a girl is struggling through these mental illness since it's must be spread widely among people, the world must know how it really is real & dangerous.

From the description and foreword, I can see how this will be from 1st POV which I'm not really fond of since it requires very well detailed description of emotions for the character or scene to arise the vibes within readers. It's much harder from the 3rd POV.

However, so far in the description & foreword of Haneul's dialogue. It's written well enough. I'm looking forward for the 1st chapter :)
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