auditory hallucinations

“Can you see me now? See me. See me. See me. Can you see me? Can you see me? See me. See me.”

“I can’t see you, where are you?”

“See me. See me. See me. See me. Can you see me?”

“No! Where are you?”

“Stupid! Stupid! You’re so stupid!”

“Stop it!”

“Can you see me? Can you see me?”

“Where are you?”

“Hahahahahaha.”

“Why are you laughing? It’s not funny?!”

“Die. Die. Jump. Jump right now.”

“No!”

“Don’t. Don’t. See me.”

“I can’t see you.”

“See me!!”

“Where are you? Tell me where you are?”

“Many moldy mushrooms merge out of the mildewy mud on Mondays.”

“What?”

“Many moldy mushrooms. Mushroom. Mildewy mud on Mondays, moldy mushrooms on Mondays.”

“What are you talking about?”

“I’m not real. You know I’m not real.”

“Stop.”

“I’m real! Die! You’re so stupid! Stupid! Disgusting, you’re disgusting!”

“Leave me alone!”

“Can you see me? Can you see me? See me. See me.”

“Go away!”

“Jump! Jump right now. Right now, right now!”

“Noo!”

“Because it makes a twirl in life, my box is broken. Help me blue elephant. Isn't lettuce brave? I like electrons, hello please!”

“Stop it, please! Stop it!”

“Hello? Hello? Stop ignoring me.”

“…”

“I’m not real. Hahahahahahahaha.”

“…”

“I’m real! Can you see me? See me! See me!”

Kibum sinks to the floor, cradles his head in his hands and rocks back and forth, tears streaming down his cheeks while he chants ‘no’ in a whisper.

author's notes

Okay, so this is obviously angst and not a good story. Forget all the fluff. It's also mainly dialogue. Jinki is the auditory hallucinations. Kibum is speaking out loud. I'm hoping it's obvious who is Kibum and who is Jinki. 

Sometimes I go back to listen to this video. It's scary but also truly fascinating. I don't recommend listening to the video in the evening, however and especially not if you sit in darkness. 

Anyway, yes, this is just a short something. I wanted my angst-feelings back and for some reason, auditory hallucinations are just ... really inspiring. I'm thinking of writing visual hallucinations some day too.