Friend. Best friend. Soulmate. I never thought before that I’d find someone who can be that three. She’s my Tiffany Hwang. We are in the same girl group called Girls’ Generation or SNSD and I’m the leader. This year our contract will end and we still don’t know the future of our group. Ten years as the member of SNSD with her and 12 years as friend.

Fans assume that me and her shares romantic feeling based on how close we are. They said our eyes reflected how we love each other. But I’ll tell you something: its bull. We didn’t share romantic feeling nor shall I say that just me who have romantic toward her?

Every time I search about Taeny—Taeyeon and Tiffany—I’ll end up hurt me. I always looked pitiful in our pictures and videos. I mean I looked so love toward her. However, the most hurtful thing is Tiffany—the one I love so much—isn’t realize my feeling while everyone else realizes it since years ago.

In the dorm, there are just me, her, Sunny, and Hyoyeon. The other members live at their homes. Can you imagine how stressful yet happy at the same time when you live in the same place with your crush? I feel happy because I can see her 24/7, but stressful because I can’t touch her more than a friend. I also saw her fell in love with man and got hurt by them, I hate to see her cry because it’s hurt me too.

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SM already decided SNSD future, they’ll disband us as gro