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(2 months ago)

“Oh God! Please tell me you just did not ask me that…”Leeteuk said

“I will even kneel if you want, just help me out. It’s for his own good, please…”she begged

“Why me”

“Oppa…I have a reason ok, but I can’t tell you…”

“And why not”

“Ok, I will tell you but promise me; swear with your life that you will not tell anyone, promise me…”

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(after a week)

“Why him? Of all people Ryn why him?” kibum shouted again

“It just did” she managed to reply

“Please tell me you’re just joking, please Ryn; please tell me”

“I’m sorry…” she whispered

…He left…

Ryn fell on the floor crying

“I’m sorry,"

"I’m sorry,"

"I can’t,”

“I just can’t let you see me fighting for my life”

“I’m sorry kibum…”

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(1 month and 2 weeks ago)

“Ryn, are you sure about this?” Leeteuk asked

“Ne Oppa, this should happen, I’m just worried about you.”

“Don’t worry about me. It’s you I’m worried about, are you really sure you want this we can still stop this and just tell him everything”

“Anyi Oppa. Just a little more and this will be all done. I just needed closure to ease myself. I want to go peacefully, I hope you understand that”

“I understand”

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(1 month and 1 week ago)

“ahhh! I-it hurts” Ryn cried

“Miss Shin please just calm down, the doctor is coming”

“i- i- can’t breathe, h-help”

“What’s her status?”

“she’s having a hard time to breath, and she’s complaining about pain, there are also signs of swelling on her body”

“ahhhh….(gasp)"

"my head….(gasp)”

“prepare the vial of steroid, get the Methylprednisolone”

“its done doc.”

“ make her drink Tretinoin after two hours, and prepare two bags of pure red bloods cells, I think we need to transfuse”

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(2 weeks ago)

Ryn wanted to walk around,

she had been confined in the hospital for too long.

She went out and wore a beanie and a hooded jacket

She spotted kibum, and decided to talk to him

“Oppa…” Ryn started

“I know your mad, mianhe”

“Shut up”

“I understand, you really should be mad, I won’t blame you” she said again

“YOU CLEARLY DON”T UNDERSTAND!!!”

“I’M NOT MAD! I’M FURIOUS! I thought you loved me…I tried my best to love you back, IS IT NOT ENOUGH?”

“I gave my all; I’m even ready to sacrifice everything I had for you”

“YOU CHOOSE TO ABANDONE ME. YOU’RE NO FAR FROM A !”

“A ING, CHEATING !” a tear fell from her eyes,

…he ran away…

She clutch her chest as she try to silence her cries

the pain she’s feeling now is much more painful than any chemotherapy treatment.

Kibum ran away from her,

he clearly despises her.

It was what she wanted,

but it will never change the fact that she’s hurting more than anyone.

“Kibum ah…mianhe,”

“Just forget me and live on”

“Always be happy”

“I can bear it in some way, I can stand it in some way, you should be happy”

“My love for you, it's all true”

“I miss you”

“I love you, and always will”

“ahh! (gasp)”

she’s having a hard time breathing

“Oppa…”