•previously•

"You ran away from home to an airport near home and found out that Hanbin is leaving Korea with iKON. Without thinking, you decided to grab onto his shirt for his attention"

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I tried to grab his shirt but he didn't flinch. Ahh.. I guess I won't be able to get his attention. So then, he passed by without even looking at me.

The fans are screaming as iKON is getting closer to their side. Some fans are trying to act friendly and pretend to be the staff. Wow, sasaengs nowadays. 

I'm craving for his attention. This is so weird. Something is wrong with me.

Yea, I like iKON.. But this feeling is different.

Something is pulling me to him. I need him.

I can feel my body cringes. My chest burns and my fingers are crawling. 

A sense of thirst.

I want him.

I can't breath. 

My throat is drying up.

I grabbed my chest and knelt down. Ugh. I can't stand anything. Everything feels distant. My mind feels like it's filled with guilt. I don't know what's going on. Oh, Hanbin.. Please, help me.

I stared down at the airport floor. So many foots had stepped on you, huh. How did it felt to be stepped on everyday? Mian, that I also, stepped on you. 

And I also understand how you feel.

"KYAAAAA HANBIN HANBIN"

The girls behind me started screaming louder. What the he-

I looked up and Hanbin is standing in front of me. What?! But I thought he left. 

He has his shades on and is staring down at me. 

"What are you doing here?"

Weird. 

Why does it feels like I'm hearing his voice?

"You are hearing my voice" 

I must be going crazy. 

"You're not. You're completely normal"

I stared at him. His mouth wasn't moving. I must be crazy.

Time began to froze again.

It was just us, or maybe just me.

I wonder why he came back. I wonder why he's standing here.

"I'll see you later"

Suddenly, he smiled.

And time began to run again. 

"HANBIN GRAB MY HAND PLEASE HANBIN SARANGHAE"

He turned away and walked to the members who are waiting for him. 

I look at him walking away from me. His smell.. it's so distinct, is fading away. The aura that captured me so much is disappearing. I don't want him to leave. Something about him.. I can't resist.

I wonder where he's leaving to.

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This night is so cold. 

After iKON left, some fangirls are all still camping in the airport, probably hoping that the boys are still somewhere. 

As for me, I'm just si