1.

''Mom, let's just go! It's hot.''-I say with my arms filled with towels and sunscreen bottles. Finally we were on a vacation and she couldn't stop cleaning the apartment we rented out. She was a neat freak and I think it's all because she's a nurse. They tend to be over clean. I told her a gazillion times that she should check up for OCD or something but she wouldn't listen.

''Let me wipe the bathroom first.''-she said from the bathroom floor. She was on her all four, with cleaning supplies, scrubbing the tiles. I sighed and rolled my eyes. Everything was already clean. They even have people for that even though it's not some fancy hotel.

''Mom!''-I yell. Sweat was dripping down my face and rolled in between my s. That would start to itch soon and I didn't have a free hand. She threw the rag in the sink and got up.

''Fine. Let's go. But later you will clean it.''-she said huffing and puffing.

''Okay.''-I say rolling my eyes. She grabs the door key and we leave. ''Can you help me please?''-I ask her. She turns around a looks blankly for a second and then twitches and reaches out her hands. I give her the towels and I carry the big beach bag. We didn't drive since we were about fifty meters from the beach. Luckily it was still early and there weren't many people so we could easily find a spot. As soon as my mother set the towels down I threw off the bag and my beach dress and ran into the sea.

''Hanna! There are sea urchins there!''-my mom yelled. As soon my feet touched the water I tried to stop myself but couldn't. The beach wasn't a sandy one but gravel. One of my feet sank into the wet gravel and I tripped falling face first in the water. Luckily it was shallow so no sea urchins. I was thinking about letting myself drown rather than to face the embarrassment on the beach but I got up anyway. Nobody knew me here. Easy peasy. I walked to our spot trying not to look at anyone even though I felt eyes on me. I reached into the bag and pulled out my sunglasses. I put them on and everything felt easier. I always hide behind those. I love my sunglasses. ''You don't like to think with your brain much do you?''-my mom asked. But she didn't mean it in a mean way. I stuck my tongue out to her and she laughed. She put a pair of water shoes in front of me and I put them on. I took her hand and we went in the water. It was so refreshing. But still many people thought of me as strange. I don't like to swim a lot, I mean I like swimming but not in the sea. I had a phobia. My shrink told me what it was but I keep forgetting the name. I can't go in deep waters or I get a panic attack. anywhere where I can't see my feet anymore or what is around me or underneath me. If somebody were to put me in the middle of the ocean for just five seconds my heart would start beating hard and eventually give out. My mom pushed me sometimes but after one incident she knew better. I thought I was brave enough and I wanted to prove myself and it was all well when I didn't think about what I was doing but as soon as she hinted how deep we are I immediately stopped and got paralyzed neck down. She had to drag me back and we almost drowned. After that she doesn't push me unless I try it alone myself. But even I know I can't do it so I don't even try anymore. But I got of my point, people thought I was strange because you usually go to the seaside to swim and play in the water but what I enjoyed the most were summer evenings. Sunsets. Late night walks and parties. The smell of food and sound of street bands. That was my thing.

''I forgot to put on sunscreen.''-I say looking up to the sun and away because my eyes inverted.

''Don't even say anything. You are twenty years old. I don't have to remind you anymore.''-she said.

''I know, I know.''-I say. Now many people would ask what's a twenty year old doing with her mother when she should be with her friends or something. But we are alone. Dad left six years ago and my sister married and now has a life of her own. My mom is lonely. I know it. And I don't have a lot left until I go on my own vacations and she won't have anyone to go with. So I want to go now that I have, and spend my time with her. It doesn't bother me when somebody tells me it's not cool or when girls are laughing behind my back because they all have a hunk to go with. I have my mom. And she has me.

''Any shift in the college?''-mom asks. I felt a pang in my heart.

''Nothing. I will try next year. I will just work for now.''-I say shrugging as if it doesn't get to me but it does. It hurts. I was screwing around with my life and ed up my school. I got to my senses and I finished another good school. Technically I have finished two high schools. I signed up for a teaching college and I passed my exams with an average and I got every condition for getting in done. But they accept only seventy people in each region. The main college accepts 70 and the other smaller ones about 45. And I was a few places away for every one. I felt bad because I really tried and I did it but the school systems in Europe just plain . It's really ed up, the way we live here. People just don't have their priorities right. It was sad.

''Okay. Let's hope for the best in the next year.''-she said. I could see she was sad too but I waived it off.

''Sure. I'm gonna nail it next year mom.''-I say.

''I know you will Hanna.''-she smiled.

After a while I felt my shoulder burn at that was a sign to get out of the water. I put on sunscreen and then tanning oil. I lied down and put a towel on my head. I woke up at seven AM, I was exhausted after the four hour travel. As soon as I lied down my mind was floating. I grabbed my phone and put some music on beside my head. Now don't judge my love for Korean music, or Korean everything. I just love it. I put on some good old stuff from Toy and relaxed.

''Han? Are you sleeping?''-my mom asked.

''Wha, noo.''-I mumbled. Nice going. She took the towel of my head. ''I'm blind!''-I screamed and I heard people laughing around us. She poked me in the ribs.

''Stop it.''-she whispered and I laughed. ''You will never find a boyfriend.''-she said.

''I'm not looking.''-I said even though I was looking. Shh, it's a secret.

''You better not be living with me with the rest of my life I will kill myself.''-she said and I pinch her.

''Let's take a walk. Maybe eat some ice cream.''-I say. She nods and I check my body. Truthfully, I don't have a model body. Even though I am not actually that fat I think of myself as I am. Everything I eat I regret and I look at myself in every mirror I see. Maybe that is why I hate them. She turns and I fake a smile.

''Let's go.''-she said and I jump of the small wall I have been sunbathing on. We wrap ourselves in towels and walk down the beach. ''There's ice cream.''-mom said pointing to the end of the beach. I sigh. Of course.

''We should just rent a bike to get the ice cream.''-I say and mom laughs. We were about half way through when I heard her sigh. ''What can't walk any more?''-I say smirking. She shook her head. ''Then what?''-I ask.

''Please don't make a fool out of me or yourself.''-she said. I just stared at her.

''What are you talking about?''-I ask.

''There's an Asian guy standing there.''-she said pointing somewhere. I followed her finger and saw some fat asian guy eating pizza. He wasn't slightly chubby he was full sumo fighter mode. I rolled my eyes at mom and she shrugged.

''Clearly he's not my type mother.''-I say and we kept walking. She found them annoying but she insisted she wasn't racist. Which she was.

''I don't consider them attractive at all. They all look the same anyway, they just come in different sizes.''-she said. ''But even for my standards I thought that guy wasn't so bad.''-she said.

''What is wrong with you?''-I ask and she just mumbles something to herself.

''I don't see what should be wrong with me, you're the one who likes asian guys.''-she said pointing at a person who stood with his back turned to us. Even from his back he was so damn attractive and I found myself biting my lip. There is something asian about him. There really... is. When my mom sad I like asian guys he turned sightly in our direction. I could see his eyes but nothing else because he was on the phone. He was definitely korean. I knew my asian people. And he must have heard what mom said. My face got red in a nanosecond and I walked faster. By all means, why wouldn't my flip flop get caught on the asphalt and flip. Well it made me lose my balance but at least I didn't fall. Damn my luck.

''Why are you so fast?''-mom asked.

''I want to eat ice cream hurry up.''-I say.

''Fine fine. Why do you always rush me? I'm old.''-she said.

''Mom, you're forty five years old. You're still young now get your moving.''-I say. I glance again behind me and I see the guy still looking at us. He put down his phone and I stopped in my tracks. He looked so familiar. The fat guy called him and the guy turned. I shook my head and kept walking.

''What is it? Now you think he's good looking?''-mom asked.

''He looked familiar.''-I say. She snorts.

''Told you, they all look the same.''-she said. I glared at her. People never change. But it never stops to amaze me how people don't consider themselves stupid for not knowing a difference between Chinese, Korean and Japanese. I admit it's not easy at first but it's most definitely not the same either. We came to the ice cream stand. As usual I took my favorite fruit flavored one and she stood there. It always took forever for her but in the end she always picks the same.

''Just take the damn ice cream already.''-I say. I admit, patience is not on my good side. Mom kicks me with her wallet.

''I will. Stop rushing me.''-she said.

''But you always take the same.''-I say and turn away. I almost choked on my ice cream as I saw him walking toward this spot. That asian guy. If only I could see his face better. I bet he is like a model or something. He was even walking like it was a catwalk. Gorgeous. He had blue Hawaiian shorts and.. pink? flip flops. I had to double check. Yep those were pink. I looked at his face again but the sun was just behind him and I couldn't look. He was all lit up like a bulb. I can't even believe this right now. They are so drop dead y and the sun is their light show? Not fair. I humphed and blew a strand of my hair from my face. My hair was all wild and curly around my head. I usually had straight hair but I wanted to try something new and a perm it was. It . I haven't realized I was staring until my mom called me a few feet in front.

''You coming?''-she asked and I nodded. I brushed pass him trying not to look when suddenly a giggle escapes my throat. I couldn't with the pink flip flops. I looked at them one more time and realized they were turned to me. I lift my gaze and land on his eyes. Cross my heart and hope to die if I am wrong. But I know who he is. And I know he knows that I know who he is. And he knows that I know that he knows... well you get the point. I have never met a celebrity in my life before and I was not sure what should I do. Maybe it's for the best if I just turn and leave. But he is just standing there. Within my reach. Ji Chang Wook.

''Are you laughing at my flip flops?''-he asked. It was the voice that finished me. He sounded deeply hurt. I started laughing my head off. I was pretty sure I had ice cream coming out of my nose.

''No, I am sorry.''-I say once I am done with laughs and giggles.

''You better be.''-he said and in that moment sweat washed over me. Was he serious? Oh God.

''I'm sorry.''-I say quickly and turn away. Ice cream was dripping down my hand, long forgotten. I stole a glance again before joining my mother and I could see him paying for the ice cream he chose. He looked at me again and smiled. He wasn't angry.

''Watch it!''-mom yelled as a bike almost ran me over. I flinch and drop the ice cream. It was now on the floor melting into a puddle. I guess it was never meant to be with us. ''I am not buying you a new one.''-mom said.

''Yeah, didn't think so.''-I say. I looked around to see if he noticed what just happened. Of course he did. He was walking toward me. My heart skips a beat. He slows down a little. Is he about to so what I think he will do? No way. He stretches out his hand with the ice cream and I was about to smile when he straight out laughed in my face and I could see he was pointing with his finger toward my ice cream on the floor. I. Have. Never. Been. So. Embarrassed. In. My. Life. He stopped laughing and went to sit beside his sumo friend. His friend looked at him strangely and I could see him nod toward me. Ji Chang Wook just shrugged and pushed his sunglasses higher up his nose. Douche.