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8 missed calls from Jongin 

Kyungsoo grips his phone tight as he looks at the notification. Still unwilling to talk to Jongin or even see his face. He had done a pretty good job in ignoring the other man so far. Jongin stopped walking up to him in person but the messages and calls still pop up on his phone. 

How dare he

Turmoil is the word Kyungsoo would describe himself right now. Still unable to process that night Jongin came over. The first time they spoke (rather he shouted) about the events of that party. Jongins stunned face and silence run through his mind like a broken record.

There are days he stares at his screen in blinding anger. Sometimes it's overwhelming hurt. And sometimes it's, with longing. Longing to talk to him again. And his loneliness becomes almost unbearable with the lost presence of Jongin. He wants his friend back. Before all this happened. Regardless of whatever feelings he has for him, Kyungsoo desperately want it back. 

But he can't forgive. At least not now. Whenever he thinks about it the stinging pain in his heart speaks volumes to reenforce his choice. Regardless of the endless apologies and the lack of love bites on his body (he couldn't help but look). Kyungsoo bits his lip as he stares at his phone as it vibrates softly in his hand. Doesn't move until it stops before setting at down beside him. 

9 missed calls from Jongin