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At this moment, Minho finds it extremely difficult how to interact with Natalie – just as he has accepted the hurtful reality that Kibum loves Natalie besides him – who he finds easy to get along with, humble, funny and quite brilliant, this situation is more harsher so unexpected and alarming that he’d be the one witnessing her gone.

Minho wonders how come Natalie is so nice to her – that he thinks; perhaps of guilt, however, with what is happening right now – the guilt has somewhat been reversed. The feeling of guilt over whether life could have been better for her or how his relationship with Kibum might have gravely affected her clandestinely; he finds this situation really difficult.

Minho jolts when all of a sudden Natalie speaks…

Natalie:            Minho, stop whatever negative thoughts
                        you have inside your mind…
                        I am alright and there is no need to be guilty about it…
                        I have come to love you like a brother and a dearest friend.

                        If I could probably have a different disease 
                        or there is possible chance of survival for me; 
                        I’d still be willing in open arms give Kibum back to you.
                        Because no matter what, I know what Kibum’s heart and soul 
                        speaks every night when he sleeps…and that is certainly not me…
                        It is You… Minho…

Minho:             Sorry, Natalie… I am so sorry…
                        I just find it extremely complicated how to deal with situation like this…
                        I mean this happening, it all suddenly comes to me like am drowning
                        – I feel so stupid right now to even brightly
                        or cheerfully saying that I am here for you to support you…
                        I guess it is easier said than done…

                        I just want to tell you honestly how fearful and uncomfortable
                        or whatever emotions I am being overwhelmed right now…

Natalie:            (smiles) Minho, don’t you think I will figure it out somehow…
                        I am gifted after all that I can sense whatever it is you are feeling…
                        or even a normal woman can sense it – call it woman’s intuition…
                        So please do not worry about…
                        I have known my impending death before I met you
                        – this is my personal journey;
                        a continuous process that has already begun
                        since knowing before death actually is happening.

Minho:             (smiles and looks at Natalie)
                        So what can I do for you right now?
                        What do you want?

Natalie:            (holds Minho’s hand) Just your presence is a great help
                        and joy for me – welcoming me to talk about my illness
                        and myself at hand's death.
                        Kindly just hold my hand.

Minho:             (smiles) That is all…?

Natalie:            (grimaces) Why?
                        Do you want me to request that you read me a book…

                        (points at somewhere) go then….
                        Find me a book make sure it is Nursery Rhymes
                        so your now babies will like it…

Minho:             (surprised) oohh… okey…
                        I will go get one…

Natalie:            (laughs) Minho!! Hey… I am just kidding…
                         my you are so adorable…

                         (taps the side of the bed where her left hand is located)
                         just be here beside me… I am already fine with it…
                         By the way Minho…?

Minho:             Yes Natalie…

Natalie:            Please cremate my body and give half of my ashes
                        to my parents and the other half for Kim Kibum… 
                        Will you do that for me?

Minho:             (nods) Natalie…. I will do it…

Natalie:            Minho…?

Minho:             (looks at Natalie) yes….

Natalie:            Will you accompany me tonight…?

Minho:             (wondering) What do you mean?

Natalie:            Sleep with me…
                        stay by my side tonight when we sleep… will you…?

Minho:             (nods) I will stay beside you when you sleep…don’t worry…

                        (hugs Natalie) I will accompany you….

Natalie:            (smiles) Big brother… you have to assist me too…
                        when I go to the rest room like Kibum does…

Minho:             (nods again) Sure…I will…

Natalie:            (detaches from Minho and looks at him) Ok… let’s go…

Minho:             Where?

Natalie:            To the restroom… I need to pee and poo…
                         (laughs) let’s go Minho…

Minho:             (exhales loudly) oohh… okey… Noona…

At The Same Time With Kibum …
Early Morning….

“Honey, what time is your appointment today…
Is that so?
Minho is going to accompany you right?
Then, I am now relieved I can rest my mind at peace.
I will come back next week for your operation…
See you then…
I will be back as soon as possible…
Bye Hon… Take care and I love you…”

After talking withNatalie, Kibum goes back to his work feeling at peace and happy that Minho will be with Natalie’s side on his behalf. There is no day that he worries Natalie’s condition and is pretty aware as to how critical the latter’s condition is. When around her, as a partner, he made it to a point how emotionally he can support her pregnancy to help her get through the experience feeling confident, strong and ready when it is due.

He recognizes the changes that were occurring and ready to accept or getting prepared to be a dad, just as Natalie prepares (holding his chest) to be a mom. He is also aware that Natalie may not want to inform him or get into details of her pregnancy such as, how big and heavy her belly is as well as her internal true feelings of fear and concern.

Respecting Natalie’s degree of involvement in the physical and emotional changes that have been occurring during her pregnancy – he believes, is more helpful than imposingly inform her that there are ways to prevent things to happen or lessen the suffering of carrying active twins.

Kibum laughs just thinking about how Natalie’s mood swings are to be considered a hallmark of her pregnancy and that the only way he could support her was to act like her spongebob when she needed it and maintain open communication with her. Just thinking about the twins, Kibum is beyond extremely grateful of Natalie – wonderful gifts – evident with how he has prepared the “nest” for the new babies by in his own hands, in simple ways, putting together nursery furniture and painting the nursery.

If he has to choose, Kibum would have wanted to prepare everything extremely lavish but decided to oppose the idea. Kibum exhales loudly and smiles hoping Minho can manage the situation well but he believes his beloved other can deal with it. While still in the middle of assessing his thoughts with himself, jerks when his mobile phone rings…

“Hello…Onew hyung! Yes I am still here in Spain…
I will stay here until tomorrow morning and leave in the afternoon
for Hungary and then an optional trip to Germany…why?

Oh... I will be back next week in London…
so you want to visit Auntie Tiffany in the next three days…
aahh… that is going to be on Friday…
Good…she’ll be very happy…Bon voyage…”

After Onew’s call, he goes back to his tons of workload bearing a lighter feeling confident about everything.

Swamped with work, Kibum does not realize the time passing; he suddenly jolts when he hears a text message alarm tone – stretches both of his arms up then picks up his mobile and reads the message...

**Bummie, sorry to bother you.
FYI I am unable to report for four straight days
as I have to accompany Natalie.
Kindly excuse my nonattendance.
Thank you. Love you. Minnie...**

Surprised, he reads the message twice, worrying what could be wrong; he immediately dials Minho’s number but gets a busy tone – waits for two seconds and dials again which successfully gets through – hearing the ring, Kibum exhales in relief…

“Hi Sweetie…
Thank you for message and for accompanying Natalie…

It is alright, Onew hyung can manage…
have you already informed him…?

Great then... So you will be with Natalie for four days…
Are you okay with that?

Is she alright…?
Yes, if you may, I would like to talk to her…

(waits for the Minho to pass on the call to Natalie
then when he hears Natalie’s voice, immediately replies)
Hi Honey… Are you feeling better…?
Oh… She’s with you…?
Kindly extend my warm regards and thanks, please...
Thanks Honey… Oh… Minho, it is fine don’t worry about it.
What important is you Hon…
If you need anything, do not hesitate to call me right away, please… Yes, Hon…

(hears Natalie’s heavy breathing)
I love you too honey…
ssshhh…hon… I should be the one saying thank you
for everything and your unconditional love…
please be well… take care too hon…

Minnie… favor, please take care of Natalie,
I am so worried about her…
and thank you – I will be there by next week
three days before her operation…
Minnie… I am extremely worried of her…Is she fine?
Thanks and love you Minnie… bye…”

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