Donghae mailed in for sick leave.He didnt have any strength to go to office when last night he couldnt sleep a wink when so many thoughts where occupyinh his mind.It was 4 clk early morning, the night was still present where still people where having fun in their dreamland which would be lot better than the cruel reality, air was singing its peaceful lullaby, while the birds where playing their own orchestra and Donghaw wished earth would have been better place if only humans didnt exist, he often feels other planets are blessed without human existence.He took his hoodie jacket along with a scarf to go for a walk outside and wait till all the earthlings in his apartment leave for office or he has to face their wrath for wasting a precious sick leave which he least bothered.

He found a bench under an Gingsok tree and was relieved it was not an autumn season to be scared for the stench the tree produces.He has got an entire day for himself with the entire apartment and it is one of the blessings as you could never find an alone time or a peaceful hour as their friends were always noisy loud and unruly still which he loved to the core, this was his second family, a family for the psat 10 years passing through all the thick and thin where he wished still it countinues for more decades but how much he enjoyed his life with his friends he hates his job to the core.He knew he shouldnt have blindly foolowed his friends when they voiced out their interest he should have gone for which loved instead following what siwon or others did.Never in million years he thought he would hate his life as he has seen worse things but still he couldnt handle his professional life, he wanted to quit and just run to some far end of the earth and live his life his way, but he was not an cheabol son like Sungmin or he had a million dollar father like Yesung, he knew what his family is made of .

All broken people living under a roof and made a family, how much ever they hold each others back and find happines in little things but still each ones heart has been broken million times by losing their loved ones down the lane of family.His Grandmother, beautiful women with lovely wrinkels and a toothless smile which would melt his heart each time lost her other half in a ddreadful disease which still is a blow to her, she didnt know how to survive that loss neither his other family members.Her beloved mother the next year lost he beloved second son whom she always find the a xerox copy of her though he is a guy to the same disease. Brain tumor he never knew existence tilll before his death of one of his grandparent who he loved dearly. He loved his younger brother though not much he could remember since they were just a year difference but he could still remember he would have been a better person than Donghae.He was more like his mother so compassionate, serene,sweet loving and caring and very strong hearted person.They both were more like twins then siblings, though Donghae was elder everyone thought he was the younger among them because he was treated like one or he behaved like one.His brother would often take care of him when his mother was sick most of the time and would help his Grandpa or Grandma in their chore, he would often dream a big house and would tell Donghae you dont need to study when i grow up and i would take care of you.His brother's death was a big blow for his entire family, to lose another person for the same disease which