„What do you want, Xiumin?“ Chanyeol ask Xiumin angry.
„Qri, do you want leave country? Why?“ He's screamimg on me.
„Because I want“ I screamed.
„Really? Study abroat to America?“ he ask me angry.
„How do you know it?“ I screamed again. Chanyeol qiuetly escape.
„You tell about it in school“ he said sadly.
„You have your problems, don't think about my problems“ I said angry. I want go away but he grabbed me left hand by my wrist. I look at him.
„Please stay“ he said quietly.
„Tell me one reason“ I said sadly. He took my head with his right hand and kissed me on the lips. It was sudden. But beatiful. His tongue slipping wetly into my mouth. Xiumin pulled away fast. He let me hand and head. Xiumin breathed hard, eyes closed, forehead pressed to Qri’s and breath puffing across his lips. I hug him.
„Sorry“ he said quietly „but I must do it.“
„It’s okay“ I smiled.
„I was so bad to you. Please don’t hate me“ he cried.
„It’s ok“
„Do you like me?“
„I like you“ I kiss him again.

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I woke up in Xiumin’s bed. He wanted me with him slept yesterday. Yes...We were only sleeping. Xiumin’s sleeping now. He is cute. I get up and I go to Xiumin’s mom. But she’s not alone. She is with unknow girl. It ’s...So Eun? Xiumin’s ex girlfriend? I must hear, what about she’s talking.
„Xiumin has girlfriend now“ Mrs.Kim said.
„Lee Qri?“ So Eun ask.
„Yes“ Mrs.Kim said fast.
„I think he don’t want be with her. Qri and Xiumin are strange. Xiumin loves her long time. Yes, when he was with me, too. His girlfriends were never happy. He always think about Qri. But two years later, Xiumin forget to Qri.“
„How do you think?“ Mrs.Kim ask.
„We is cold person now. He doesn’t know what is love, friends, hatred. He isn’t person.“
„We must help him, Eun. You never say it Qri.“
„Yes, but I think he doesn’t want help. He is only cold machine.“
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„Xiumin?“ I want to make him get it.
„What?“ I ask me weary. His eyes are closed.
„Do you love me? Yes or no?“ I ask fast.
„I really like you. Why?“
„Yes or No, Xiumin?“ I cried.
„I like you.“
„Why?“ I said sadly. Tears are in eyes now.
„What do you want say? I say you I like you. It’s bad?“ he’s screaming at me.
„Forget it“ I cried.
„Do you love me? Yes or No?“ I ask me slowly.
„I don’t know now.“
„Say it.“
„Yes“ I said and he kiss me fast. He did that just to make me happy. I want cry. He doesnt love me. He never love me.
„Are you happy?“ he ask me with smile.
„Yes“ I lied.
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When I got home, I started pack a suitcase. I know what I do. I want leave this country. I want leave Xiumin. Forever. All my clothes are in suitcase now. Yes, I live. I’m happy...I think. Boram calls me. I give it.
„Yes, Boram?“ I ask.
„What are you doing?“ she ask me.
„Nothing“ I lied. I want say her true. But I cant.
„I think you are with Xiumin“ she laugh.
„Yes, I was. I’m at home now“ I smiled.
„What do you want do at Saturday? Chanyeol and me want go to cinema. Xiumin comes too.“
„It will be fine, but I don’t know.“
„Why? What do you mean?“ she said slowly.
„I don’t know.“
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„Mum I want go“ I said fast.
„Where you want go?“ she ask me fast.
„I want go study abroat to America“ I said.
„You said no, when I ask you yesterday.“
„No, I want to.“
„What’s happenned?“ he ask me slowly.
„I don’t want be here long time“ I said sadly.
„It because of Xiumin again, right?“
„No...Yes...I don’t know“ I cried. Mum come to me and hug me.
„Don’t cry, Qri“ she said sadly.
„I want forget. I want forget on good memories. I want live without Xiumin...please...I didn’t make it. I don’t make it again....I want be free“ I cried.
„I know“ she said quietly.
„It’s hard for me be with him. I want never remember to Xiumin. Mum please...“
„Okay. When you want, you should go. Be happy“ she smiled.
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On Friday evening, I go with mum and dad to airport. I’m going study abroat.
„Do you want go?“ my dad ask me.
„Yes, I’m happy“ I laugh.
„I’m happy for you“ he said.
„I must go“ I said with smile. „My airplane start in a minute.“
„Be happy“ my parents said me. They hug me. Then I slowly left Korea.