„I don't know“ I said sadly.
„I want see you...“ Xiumin begin. I look at him. I don't understand. He ignore me long time, but he want I go to his party now.
„Xiu...“ I breathe. Chanyeol have big smile.
„Please, I want to see you on my party, Qri“ he smiled.
„Okay“ I smiled.
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„Boram you don't believe me“ I called her.
„Please tell me it slowly, you woke me“ she said tired.
„Xiumin want see me on his b-day party“ I said fast.
„What?“ she screamed „How?“
„I say it“ I begin. I tell her all my story. She is happy for me.
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On Sunday, I'm going to Xiumin's house. His mom calls me. She ask me to visit her. I said Yes. When I ring on bell, Mrs. Kim open the door.
„Qri! Welcome! Go inside“ she said. I come inside. We sit down in livingroom.
„Are you alone?“ I ask her.
„No...Xiumin is in his room. He is sleeping“ she said. Oh I want see him. He must be cute.
„He must be tired when he's sleeping“ I said without emotion.
„Can I ask you, Qri?“ she ask me. I look at her.
„Yes“ I smiled.
„Do you like Xiumin?“ she ask me quietly. My eyes widened.
„I...I don't know...What do you mean? I like him like friend“ I said fast.
„I know your love to Xiumin. You love him when you have twelve. I see it, Qri“ she smiled.
„I don't love him“ I lied.
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Me and Xiumin got a unit from report. Xiumin don't talk with me. He ignore me. AGAIN!! I want to ask him what do you think? I was in class alone. With Xiumin. I come to him. He's sitting on his chair.
„What do you think about you?“ I screamed at him. He look at me.
„What do you mean?“ she ask me slowly.
„Why do you ignore me? I think we are friends“ I said angy.
„We are friends?“ he ask me „We are only schoolmate.“
„Why are you say this?“ I cried.
„Because I say true.“
„It's not true“ I screamed „Why you doing this to me?“
„It's only illusion. We were never be friends.“
„We were good friends when we were children“ I said. My tears fell down.
„It's long time, Qri. Forget. Leave memories“ she said cold.
„I don't want.“
„Forget to me. Forget to our friendship.“
„Do you think I know forget to our memories?“
„I think yes. See me. I'm forgot.“
„You're cold person“ I'm screamimg „I hate you, Xiumin.“
„What are you doing here?“ I hear Chanyeol. Chanyeol and Boram come to me and Xiumin. I wiped my tears.
„Nothing“ I said „Right,Xiumin?“
„Yes“ he said fast.
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„Did you cried, right?“ Boram ask me, when we were alone in class.
„Do you see that?“ I ask her sadly.
„Yes, your eyes are red“ she hug me.
„Thank you, Boram“ I cried.
„Why?“ she ask me.
„Because you are real friend.“
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I'm at home. Finally! My mum's sleeping on sofa. On table in kitchen were shipping list. I see that. Oh...for me? I open it. I read it fast. It's...study abroad? For me? I'm happy. I can study abroad in America. I want go to America. But...What my school? Chanyeol, Boram, other friend? I don't leave them. But it's chance. For me..... In this moment, my mobile ring. I know who calls me. Xiumin.
„Hello?“ I ask.
„Sorry, I was not good to you at school“ he said sadly.
„I don't want hear you“ I said angry.
„I know, but please hear me.“
„Ok, tell me what do you want“ I said.
„Sorry, but I don't want meet you again“ he said slowly. I feel tears again.
„What?“
„I don't see you again. I don't be your friends, please never contact me“ he passed. I start cried. I threw the phone on the table. I think it. I cried so much.
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„Qri, no!“ Boram tell me next day at school.
„Why? It's a chance“ I said with smile.
„Do you want leave me?“ she said sadly.
„No, but It's America. I want go.“
„Chanyeol, come on“ Boram scream at Chanyeol. Chanyeol comes.
„What's happening?“ he ask.
„Qri want go study abroat“ Boram cried. Chanyeol look at me.
„What? Qri you don't...“ he said.
„I want Chanyeol. It's a chance. I know, I leave me friends but I want go“ I said.
„It is because of Xiumin?“ he ask me angry.
„No“ I lied „I think about it a long time.“
„Are you sure?“
„Yes“ I said with smile.
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-One week later-
I go out with Chanyeol. I want me make happy. We are sitting on bench. We are quietly now. Chanyeol isn't happy for me. He doesn't want me a leave him.
„Are you sure about study abroat?“ he ask me. I look at him with smile.
„Yes, I want leave Korea now. I want start again. Alone. Without friends and family“ I smiled.
„Qri, It's America. I know, you are a good student, but you can't leave this country. You can't leave me and Boram. We know, you doing this because Xiumin. But It isn't resolution“ he said sadly.
„I know“ I said sadly. I see Xiumin next to Chanyeol. He stand over him.