Chanyeol POV

“Don’t come closer.” He said without looking at me and I stopped immediately after hearing his trembling yet firm voice that echoed all over the dimmed light room; I hesitantly took another step closer but his head jerked to my direction angrily; he stood up and glared at me while breathing heavily; I looked deeply at his eyes with tears sparkling into mine

“I don’t need your pity so just … go.” He said again still breathing heavily and glaring at me angrily; his lips were trembling and tears formed in his eyes; I looked at his weak, tired eyes and looked at his quivering hands and took another step closer

“I don’t want to see again ... so just go.” He said while slightly shivering and swallowing the tears back acting tough outside when I can see clearly how weak and broken he’s inside; each word that escaped his mouth pierced my heart painfully but I deserve it, I deserve to be hated by him and I deserve being hit to death by him but I can’t see him in such state and leave him … I just can’t; I took another step forward and now I was so close to him

“I said go away.” He said again still looking at my eyes with tears; I looked back at him with guilty eyes; I felt so bad; I just wanted to hug him, I felt so weak without him and I hated seeing him so weak and lonely like this; he looked down and his trembling sobs started to get louder; he raised his bloody red eyes and looked at me while clenching his fist tight while gasping for some air softly as he was suffocating his tears;I looked at his eyes with tears burning mine

“Go!” He suddenly blurt out firmly with steady; I stopped getting any closer and looked at his teary eyes; he gasped for some air after suffocating his sobs again

“Go away!”

“I HATE YOU!” He shouted hurtfully and painfully

“I SAID GO AWAY!! I HATE YOU!!” He shouted again with sharp, dry yet shaky voice still piercing my eyes with his; I didn’t even open my mouth but looked at his eyes with tears; his tears silently started pouring down madly and his sobs painful sounds were echoing around; my hand went up slowly and hesitantly trying to reach his face

“GET your dirty hands off me!” he said angrily while harshly slapping my hand away from reaching him; his voice cracked because of the tears; I looked at him with teary eyes and got closer to hug him

“GO! YOU DAMN BASTARD!” he pushed my chest and slapped me on the cheek hard as he cried louder; he flinched after slapping me and looked at his trembling hand that slapped me and cried even louder

I swallowed hard and looked at him; he looked so miserable and weak; I hated myself for making it even harder for him; I was still refusing to leave him alone as he took few steps back from me while crying hard and gasping for air

 “I’ll – I’ll go so don’t follow me!” he said sobbing hard in between his loud cries; I took a step forward again totally refusing to just let him go

“Don’t come follow me! I’m going!” he said and shook his head while sobbing motioning for me not to get any closer; he turned away and stormed out of the door leaving the place; I was stunned for few seconds in my place as tears totally blurred my vision

 I looked at the door where he just left from and ran after him; he was walking fast in the cold; dark street and I managed to reach him and catch his arm firmly; He turned his head furiously and glared at me while sobbing hard; he took his arm roughly out of my grip

“I SAID DON’T FOLLOW ME!” He screamed at the top of his lungs crying harder; I flinched back a little bit as I felt he might faint or something because of crying so hard and painfully like this; he was hardly gasping for air in between his sobs; I looked at him dizzily with tears

“Don’t … go” I finally managed to part my slightly shaking lips and say as tears escaped my eyes weakly seeing him breaking down into tears so miserably like this; the hurt in his heart was partly because of me and now he lost the only family member he had

 He stopped crying after I spoke and gazed at me for a second still breathing heavily while sobbing; he brought his arm up and covered his mouth tightly and started crying again painfully; his cries were so loud; my heart almost stopped from paining so hard; I just stood there looking at him with tears

“I’m leaving ... Don’t follow me” he said hardly sobbing while stepping back slowly still facing me; I didn’t move from my place and just stood there looking at him with tears

“Don’t – Don’t follow me …” he repeated while walking away as he looked back at me a couple of times while crying loud; his cries were so clear even when he kept going further and further from me and I just stood at my place feeling miserable with suffocating tears that almost choking me to death

“Baekhyun …”

“Don’t go away … from me”