Baekhyun POV

“I’m sorry son …” were the last words I wanted to hear; I froze in the spot and didn’t move a strip of a hair; my eyes were opened wide and I swallowed hard; I was so shocked at the moment; tears wouldn’t even fall; I stood still in my place dizzily; I couldn’t feel anything right now; the pain was so sharp that I might die

I was lead to the funeral room and people inside were arranging the place; I sat at the chairs beside the entrance of the funeral room alone and I was just staring at the ground blankly; still not believing that I just lost Appa …

Chanyeol POV

‘I hurt him without any reason; I made him cry and put him through so much pain …’

‘I can’t just go back and tell him I’m sorry … can I?’

‘Everything between us ended … already … right?’ I thought while blankly walking back to my apartment; I was dizzily thinking about everything I did to Baekhyun; his hurt eyes; his trembling lips; his hand around my arm telling me to stop being like this; my heart felt so heavy I could even die of guilt at the moment; my thoughts were cut off when my phone suddenly vibrated in my hand; I looked at it blankly and held it close to me ear

“D.O am in no mood for any of your blames right now so leav----“

‘Baekhyun’s father just died.’ he said and I stopped walking; my breath was cut off and my heart stopped beating; everything around me stopped; I didn’t say anything; D.O told me to head to the hospital and hang up

My hand dropped from my ear still holding onto the phone tight; I swallowed hard as tears formed in my eyes madly blurring everything in front of me

‘Baekhyun …’ I thought and turned and ran to the hospital

‘No matter what happened I can’t leave him alone; he must be crying his heart out now; he needs someone; he must be feeling so lonely; I can’t leave him ….’ I thought as I ran faster and faster; I met with the guys who were running as well at the entrance of the hospital and we all stormed inside running to the place where the funeral will be held; they were all running wearing their black suits

  Baekhyun POV

I could hear the attendance of some people beside me; I didn’t even shift my blank eyes and kept on staring at the floor; I could hear their heavy breathes and suffocating cries but still fixed my blank gaze on the floor without raising it

Someone came from inside the funeral room and handed me the black suit but I didn’t nudge a finger to take it from him and blankly stared at the floor

Chanyeol POV

I was shocked to see his state; he looked so broken and weak; he didn’t raise his eyes and kept them blankly fixed on the floor; his sight broke our hearts into million pieces; he wasn’t crying not even a single tear appeared in his red eyes; my heart felt so heavy seeing the love of my life so weak like this; I could hardly breath and tears rushed madly to my eyes

I stood there not wanting to approach him at the moment since I don’t want to worsen the situation; Luhan was the first to take a step as he took the suit from the man and slightly bowed to him; he then shifted his eyes to Baekhyun who didn’t even blink till now

“Baekhyun-ie …” I heard Luhan’s whispering voice with a slight crack in it as he swallowed hard the tears that were chocking him at the moment as well

The guys approached him and helped him up to the other room to put on him the suit; I looked at him as tears started to drop from my eyes unconsciously seeing how he was guided by them to room and I couldn’t approach him; he was walking lifelessly still fixing his blank eyes on the spaces avoiding looking at anyone of us

They started undressing him slowly and putting on the suit on him; I could clearly hear some of them sobbing softly; I hesitantly came closer to his side and started to do his tie for him; his eyes raised slowly and met my teary eyes; I avoided his eyes as I continued to do his tie

He stood still blinking heavily while Lay was putting on his armband with the 2 black lines while we all put on the armband with 1 black line that represents close friends; he doesn’t have anyone beside us

I put the shoe in front of him; he swallowed hard and looked down as he was wearing it but his legs got weak and he collapsed on the floor and sat down

“Baekhyun!!” We all stormed beside him worried as I held his arm firmly; he fixed his eyes again on the space in front of him blankly and mouthed

‘I’m fine …’ with a very soft and suffocating voice while swallowing back the tears hardly; I saw his eyes getting redder now but he was under great shock that even tears won’t fall down; I looked up trying to stop the continuously falling tears after I heard all the guys breaking into tears while hugging him and patting him softly

We lead him to the funeral area were some people started to come and pay their respect to their late friend; we all were standing bowing for the guests as they come in and leave; Luhan was sitting on the side patting Baekhyun’s head gently as he was laying lifelessly on Luhan’s chest just staring blankly at his late father picture without any tears

After few hours everyone started to leave and the place was already empty as it was already late; Luhan motioned for us to leave and that he will be taking care of Baekhyun; Baekhyun raised his head from Luhan’s chest slowly and looked at us weakly

“I- I want to stay by myself …” He said weakly with soft voice; tears rushed back to my eyes madly when I heard his voice

“Hyung … I’ll be fine” he said and smiled weakly and tiredly to Luhan who looked at him with worried eyes but Baekhyun nodded assuring him

“Th- Thank you guys … for being by my side …” he said again and looked at the guys; his eyes wondered and landed on my teary eyes; he looked away quickly

“Go home safely …” he said and Luhan patted his head and nodded

“I’ll call you later … pick up alright?” Luhan said again and Baekhyun nodded slowly

They all left and I saw how Baekhyun sat down weakly again on the floor beside his Father’s picture; I didn’t even move from my spot and just stared at him with teary eyes; he totally ignored my presence for few minutes; I swallowed the tears in my throat hard; I wanted to hug him and ease his pain; I wanted to let him cry his heart out; my heart was burning at how he suffocates his cries inside; I took a heavy step forward

“Don’t come closer.”