Baekhyun POV

The pain in my heart reached the peak; I could hardly breathe; tears were chocking me to death now; I stood up; I wanted to go and talk to Chanyeol; I wanted to understand why is he doing this to me; at least I should know before … fully letting go of him

“Where are you going?” Kris said and I looked at him and smiled weakly

“I think – I should sort things out with Chanyeol” I said and with that I left Kris behind; I walked back to the restaurant heavily but I stopped as soon when the restaurant was visible in front of my eyes; I looked at how Chanyeol was sitting inside busily looking at papers

I stood in my place and didn’t move any further; I think I should wait till the work day ends; I kept my eyes on him but the view kept getting blurry as tears won’t just disappear from my eyes

“Chanyeol …” I whispered with shaky voice; I was so hurt; I never thought Chanyeol would ever treat me like this; I was in denial the last few days but I finally came to realize … he’s not my Chan Chan … anymore.

It started getting darker; I was lost in my thoughts; I gave up and stood up to leave; I just didn’t want to let go yet … I can’t

I started heading back home but the pain was getting sharper and sharper in my heart; my chest felt like it was burning and I couldn’t take it anymore;

I stopped walking toward my home and looked down; I sighed and turned running back but this time my legs took me to his apartment; I stopped in front of the entrance and bent down panting hard trying to catch my breath; I looked up and the lights were still off; I waited for him by the entrance; few minutes later his car pulled over and he came out of it; I looked at him as he came closer and closer; he was fixing his eyes on the floor while walking heavily

My eyes started getting blurry again and my I started to breathe heavily; I didn’t want to look weak in front of him; I wiped off the tears and stood steadily waiting for him to notice me; he was right in front of me; his head was still down and soon as he noticed someone’s existence he raised his head slowly meeting my hurt eyes that tears rushed to it back again

I swallowed hard the tears that chocked my throat at the moment preventing me from breathing properly; we gazed at each other’s eyes for like forever now

“Chanyeol …” I whispered as tears made my shaky and trembling voice fade away and he only looked at my eyes with his eyes sparkling with tears

“It’s too tough for me …”

Chanyeol POV

He was right in front of me with his eyes full of tears; I looked deeply into his hurt eyes; his tears burnt my heart; tears rushed to my eyes; I felt a heavy lump in my throat; I’m hurting him; I’m hurting the love of my life but I can’t take it too; the idea of him cheating on me kills; it hurts so much I could die

“Chanyeol …”he started with a trembling voice and his tone faded away as tears threatened to fall off his eyes; my heart stopped beating when I heard his hurt tone; I swallowed hard trying to control my madly beating heart … it was so painful

 “It’s too tough for me …” he whispered and a tear escaped his eye; silence filled the place; no breathing could even be heard anymore; I couldn’t move my teary eyes from his; I tried hard to breathe steadily as tears started to chock me to death now; I broke the eye contact and looked to my side sighing as I was suffocating because of tears; I turned my teary eyes again and fixed it on his

“Tough?” I said with shaky voice and smirked with hurt expression as I looked away again; I looked back at his teary eyes 

“You think you are the only one who has feelings?”  I said and paused a little bit and glared at him

“You think you are the only one who gets hurt? Huh?” I blurt out at his face and he just looked at me clueless and I hated how he still insisted on acting innocent

“W-hat …?” he said again with trembling voice not able to state a full sentence

“Stop acting innocent Baekhyun!” I said and he flinched at the sudden raise of voice

“A-Acti … why … why would I act inn-“he tried to say something still with teary eyes and shaky voice

“I SAW YOU BAEKHYUN!” I blurted out and he looked at me with wide teary eyes when I shouted; I sighed and looked away trying to calm down myself; I looked back at him with angry eyes

“I saw you that day with Kris!” I said and he still looked at me clueless; he was driving me crazy

“What are you talking … about?” he said this time with a little steady voice and less teary eyes

“You meet with him behind the restaurant!”

“You said you have something to do but you stayed with him over the night!!”

“He answered your phone in the middle of the night!”

“He hugs you; pats your head and defends and protects you!”

“You exchange soft smiles and warm looks!!”

“Goddamn it Baekhyun!! You think am so stupid to notice your relationship!”

“You think I don’t know that you have been cheating on me!!!”

“DO I LOOK LIKE A FOOL TO YOU BYUN BAEKHYUN?!” I snapped out at his face and breathed in and out heavily to prevent the angry tears from falling down; his eyes were at their full size now and tears were running down his cheek madly without even blinking once; I guess he was shocked enough that I noticed? He really does think that I’m a fool!

Baekhyun POV

I was stunned in my place; I highly refused to accept the harsh reality I was living at the moment; my eyes went wider and wider at every single word that escaped his mouth hurtfully; tears started falling unconsciously as I had a really hard time understanding what was going on

‘What? Cheating on you?’ I thought still looking at his full of tears eyes; he was breathing heavily while gazing hurtfully into my eyes; I couldn’t shift my eyes away from his; I was so shocked, hurt and … disappointed

‘All this time … you thought I was cheating on you? You changed suddenly and started hurting me for the past few days without even knowing the reason behind me meeting with Kris? You didn’t even give me the chance to make things clear to you …’ I thought still under a great shock; gazing at each other’s eyes with tears

‘He doesn’t trust me? I’m … his one and only … He doesn’t trust my love for him … he hurt me because he’s misunderstanding such a situation? How selfish can he be? He can’t even trust me? Does it make any difference to clear things up for him now? Will he even believe me?’ I thought and broke the eye contact as I looked down; I wiped off my tears and looked back up meeting his eyes again; I sighed heavily and sniffed wiping the tear that run down my cheek again

“Okay Chanyeol. Let’s just …” I said swallowing hard the tears

 “Let’s …end it here.” I said and walked away brushing our shoulders lightly; I didn’t look behind; I heavily walked away from him; tears started running uncontrollably again as I took a step further away from him; I kept wiping them furiously while thinking that he doesn’t even deserve them

 I was few blocks away from his home now; I reached the bus stop and sat there alone on the bench blankly staring at the buses that comes and stops, opens its door and then leave again; I was blankly spacing out at the street; I felt tears burning my eyes again

“Park Chanyeol …” I whispered with tears rolling down my cheeks silently

“Nappeun num …” I whispered again and looked down breaking into tears; I couldn’t hold it in anymore; it hurt so much

“Park Chanyeol Nappeun num …” I said in between my loud sobs as I cried louder

“Park – Park Chanyeol you Nappeun num …” I cried louder and I can even hear my own sobs echoing all over the place

Chanyeol POV

He left; without even giving any explanation he just … left; I stayed in my spot and didn’t move for a while now; I still couldn’t digest the harsh reality

‘I lost Byun Baekhyun’ was the only thought that occupied my mind at the moment; I didn’t think of anything else; my heart was paining so much to the point that it doesn’t hurt anymore; it was so hard to believe; tears escaped my eyes unconsciously; I held my heart that was going to stop beating any moment now from hurting so bad; I turned slowly; I looked at the dark street where Baekhyun just walked to; he was gone

‘Byun Baekhyun … is gone.’