(A/N: I didn’t know how to write or start this chapter, so sorry in advance. Hehe.)

 “Don’t you even dare talk to me cause I won’t listen” he’s walking away… no..

“No, Y-Yeol don’t leave! CHANYEOL NO! PLEASE DON’T LEAVE ME!” I keep on shouting but why won’t he turn around.

“please.. I love you…”

“NO!” Baekhyun suddenly woke up, hands shaking and sweaty

Suddenly, Suho barged into the room “Baekhyun?! Are you ok, what happened?”

“I-I’m alright, j-just had a d-dream”

“But dreams are supposed to be happy right?” Suho sat on the edge of the bed and caressed Baekhyun's cheek like a mother caring for her child “Have you been crying… again?”

Baekhyun touched his cheek and Suho was right, I have been crying in my sleep again.

“I didn’t realize that-” he choked back a sob and clamped his mouth shut, but all the efforts to hold back were gone to waste as Suho enveloped him in a hug that made the hot liquid fall shamelessly on his face, “I just miss him h-hyung, I m-miss my giant s-so much”

“Shhh.. I know Baek, I know.. but it’s as Chairman said, Chanyeol has to figure it out on his own..”

Baekhyun sat up straight and looked at Suho as a new set of tears tainted his cheeks “That’s what I’m afraid of, what if he doesn’t? What if the month’s already over and he still hasn’t forgiven me?” he started to speak but was immediately cut off by Baekhyun 

“It’s the first week of February hyung, he hasn’t talked to me, moreover spared me a glance, for over two weeks. TWO WEEKS! I mean, how are we supposed to talk if he’s always with that Moon Ga-Young girl?”

“Baek… you know that she’s just his co-star right? They have nothing going on. I know he still loves you, just give him time.”

“… I’m starting to hate ‘time’ right now”

“So you hate Tao?” he said in a teasing voice

“It’s not time to make jokes hyung” Baekhyun said in a serious tone though his face begged to differ

“Hah! But I made you smile!” then Suho started shouting “VICTORY IS MINE” like a mad man, to which Baekhyun found himself laughing his off cause his hyung looked so stupid.

“Now that’s the laugh I’ve been waiting for” Baekhyun flashed Suho his signature smile and hugged him

“Thank you so much umma!”

“Yah! Who are you calling umma?! Come here you brat!”

Baekhyun ran out of the room and shouted “Suho + umma = SUMMA”; “Summa’s going to kill me! Help!” while the other members started laughing and joined in teasing Suho.

“Hey, why is everyone so noisy this morning?”

“Well good morning to you too Chanyeol. Suho hyung and Baekhyun were chasing each other like cats and dogs -wait no- puppy, cat and puppy.”

“Chenchen that doesn’t even make sense.” Baekhyun said with a pout which was quickly replaced with a frown when Chanyeol didn’t even acknowledge his presence and headed for the kitchen, his back facing Baekhyun which reminded him of-

“Baek… you’re shaking” Suho whispered. Baekhyun looked at his hands and they were shaking and clammy. He felt himself break into a cold sweat, then felt as if he were being suffocated. Nonononono, not now. He thought as he hurriedly went to the kitchen to get a bottle of water, ignoring the presence of the giant, and went straight to his room and shut the door close.

“ where is it?” he said as he looked through countless of drawers and finally found the bottle in a box under his bed. He opened the cap and downed the pill with water and felt himself slowly relax by the minute. Baekhyun placed himself under the covers and tightly hugged the Rilakkuma plush Chanyeol gave him. I haven’t had a severe anxiety attack since our debut years. I may have had mild attacks when I felt nervous, but I never needed to use pills again because Chanyeol would always be there to calm my nerves and whisper sweet somethings, we never really liked to call it ‘nothing’. His thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door

“Y-Yes?”

“It’s me, Soo. Can I come in?”

“S-Sure” Kyungsoo went inside and gently closed the door and smiled his heart-shaped smile

“Hey, how are you? You suddenly fled the living room as if you were in a hurry… mind telling me what happened? I-I mean... if you want to.”

Baekhyun gestured for him to sit on the bed as a sign that he would tell him. Baekhyun took a moment to collect himself and started “I had an anxiety attack, so I had to take my pills” “B-But you haven’t had one since-” “Yeah, I know. I don’t exactly know what triggered it after so long, but… I have an idea.” Kyungsoo gestured for him to continue, so he did “Only Suho hyung and Lay hyung, currently know about this. I was supposed to tell you last week but I didn’t know how to. I can only tell this to two people a week, but promise me that it only stays between us okay?”

“Of course, I-