*Pain* *Pain* *Pain*

Try to open eyes forcefully. No one besides me. What exactly is ‘My special one’ is not beside me already. This illusions makes me broken my heart into pieces.

Tears.. fell down on my cheeks spontaneously. I can’t even let out cry anymore when my mouth becomes dry and my heart in pain. I even make trying to breathe so hard in this state.

Dream …. Or  Real.. I can’t differentiate in this present state as dream or real. Then isn’t that one beside me ago is really a dream? I still can feel that touch when caressing my cheek with your fingertips and your warm breathe around my neck also. What a painful thought! I really don’t want to accept reality but when my breath become stable more, all of my thoughts and illusions are more clear now. Right! Then that is a dream a minute ago, but now in real dream. When I start accepting reality, then my heart is in pain again. I hate it. I hate all. But can I get out this situation? At least do I try to get out once? I don’t want to answer this question. That question has never ever an answer. Let it go…

When sobs are stable, He try to get up. When looking at alarm clock on table, shows 11:45pm. He bite his bottom lip nearly bleeding. 11:45.. nearly 15min to 12:00am. Oh! Then tears again. It makes his eyes all blurring. But his mind is…

Flashback>>>

3 Years ago…

Same as this time this day but everything are different… everything…

Romance… Pass