Kai's POV

I fell to my knees, clutching my head in despair. What have I done? I almost hurt my sister. How could I? Her own brother, was about to slap her. She could never forgive me. I ran my fingers through my hair anxiously. I felt my chest throbbing at the cruel words that I spouted to Hana. I rested my back against the wall, sliding slowly until I was sitting on the floor. I hugged  my knees closer to my aching chest. With a helpless sigh, I shut my eyes while thousands of thoughts swam incessantly inside my mind.

First I messed up my life, then with my sister. And now? What will I mess up next? I thought miserably while resting my hand against my chest. I still had to worry about my health and Hana's school fees. I hoped that morning would come faster. I wanted to apologize, say that I was wrong and that I would not commit the same mistake again. I wanted to see Hana smile at me. I wanted to see her being comfortable with me. I wanted the old Hana back. I wanted to be able to lie on the same bed with my sister, talking and joking about stupid things. But the one thing that I wanted badly from Hana was her love towards me, her brother. Ever since omma passed away, that trait was ripped away from her. She no longer believed in loving and caring about the people around her. In school, she refused to talk to anyone. She took on a cold personality since then.

I stared at her sleeping figure. She looked so innocent. So harmless and pure. She had soft cheek bones with beautiful doe eyes and long lashes. Her nose was slender. Her ebony black hair contrasts with her snow white skin. Her cheeks has a soft tinge of pink even though she did not wear make-up. No wonder that gangster boy fell in love with my sister. She was a beauty indeed. I leaned in and kissed her forehead softly. While resting my forehead against my knee, I closed my eyes. Trying to conceal the image of Hana sleeping peacefully to soothe my heart.

In the morning, Hana left to school without giving a single glance to me. I didn't try to talk to her even if was my greatest desire to be in good terms with her again, because it would only bring the peace that I was searching for. I was respecting Hana as I