My "Secret" Love

 

 

Since KARA´s comeback, a lot of people had been admiring her new appeal. She likes to hear people saying "You have grow really well and beautiful", "Oh my god! You are an adult now" , "Don´t you mind to date someone older than you...?" . Even though she was a woman now, dating wasn´t a thing that she really care, well, of couse, everyone wants to date, but she already have the love she wants it. It was very gratefull to recieve love proposes and love message from other idols...Changmin was the first guy to congratulate her after their first win, she wasn´t suprise at all, he likes her, but she only see him as a good friend. 

 

What really surprise her was seeing messages on her mini ponny  from Taemin, Dongho and Seungri...that was really a surprise! A lot of girls praise her beauty to, specially Seohyun. She was having a great time about those details, even KARA member told her every day "Maknae! You are getting prettier". She giggles at the last thought.

 

 

All KARA members...except she... she didn´t understand why...but it makes her feels bad somehow...everybody was greeting her in such a good way, telling how pretty she was, but SHE didn´t say anything about it. Like if she didn´t care...Baby jing was hurt...in her heart she love all the compliments, but she only wanted to hear HER compliments.

 

 

She fells completly safe around her, protected, stronger and even beautiful just by being seeing for her. Since she was part of KARA, she had this feeling about her, but she thought it was a normal feeling, until...she started to grow and notice about her real feelings about her...It wasn´t just a "friend feeling" and she discovered after noticed Yoona and Yuri´s relationship...they were so happy together, a couple than the fans tag as "YoonYul" without knowing they were really in love...that was nice she thought. 

 

 

Still she has doubts about Taeyon and Sunny relantionship. But sure it was a cute tought. She didn´t know what being in love was, she didn´t even know if she was feeling it, until...that song...that duet, which made her realize her feelings about her.  

 

 

She was scare at the beggining, but who wouldn´t be in love with her? She was amazing, tender, caring, lovely, cheesy, fierce, wise, funny, beautiful...Soooo Beautiful...Perfect was the best word...No it wasn´t, the perfect way to describe her was...GODDESS...

 

 

Kang Jiyoung was in love with her leader, Park Gyuri. She know it, but she had tried to fight against her feelings, but she can´t denied...she time she spent far from her because the legal issue, kill her...she missed Gyuri in a crazy way...she stared at her photos, imagined she was with her, by her side. Caressing her cheeks like Baby Jing loves it. Fortunately the issue had over, but she still feel hurt for being apart from Gyuri...specially when Gyuri´s schedule increase. 

 

 

At some point, she was jealous of Hara...she was with Gyuri, and was the only one who can enjoy the goddess love. She was very jealous, even she cried alone at nights...fearing she will loose Gyuri´s love forever...She learned to be strong thanks to her leader...but, without her was so difficult to show a truthful smile, when at her inside was crying and shouting her love´s name. 

 

 

Every day was harder to do not get mad at Gyuri...every day she compliment others...but not Jiyoung. She getting sick inside...Jiyoung was very nice and polite, but seeing people as Eunjung, Taeyon, Younha, Shindong, Jonghyun,  Eunhyuk and Sunghee getting Gyuri´s love...made her mad...specially the last two people. 

 

 

She didn´t get to know Sunghee very well...but Nicole told her she was a very important person on Gyuri´s heart...and she know it. Everytime the leader speaks about her, Gyuri´s eyes sparks. She knew Sunghee supported Gyuri about  the legal issue, but that doesn´t mean she wasn´t  jealous about her relationship.

 

 

Jiyoung likes the anchovy, but he has an special attention towards her Goddess, and Jiyoung didn´t like it. Lately they were texting a lot...more than usual...but she was afraid to ask Gyuri if she was already on a relantionship with him... 

 

 

Everyday Kang Jiyoung was feeling worse...She didn´t want to be jealous all the time...even she was trying to get Gyuri jealous by getting close with other members and idols...but everything seems to fail...